my silent sanctuary

2010-09-15T14:32:00.003+08:00

this blog has officially closed today((:

but 3 years of memories remain! <333

2010-08-19T10:32:00.003+08:00

hi~~!!!

ok im back, later gotta prepare to go to sch,, will be studying with trang today since i havnt done anything worthy for the past few days.. been watching YOG or not been sleeping in the most comfortable weather..so, im blogging now because im bored..ok, ive really been procrastinating for so long..its alr been more thn a week since..sighs..hope i cn get back on track soon!! 2 weeks later will be my exam and now im starting to crave for the 1 and a half holiday tht will come after tht very exam week!

somehow i miss someone.. been reading my past few articles and also reading othr people's blog, it so funny how so much has changed since we graduted,,, i hope everything's the same when we meet agn..bt yeah the only constant one is change so its impossible,bt will be glad to see thm agn!

i wonder if i also changed? bt im still the confused one, im trying to find myself in everyday, myb at this stage i will give chance to those things tht i neglected in the past..its complicated.i hope i find myself soon! and wht true happiness is!

2010-07-03T21:51:00.003+08:00

waaahh!! i feel like i wanna transfer course now, so tht i can have more spare time to find a part time job!! my family is facing a terrible financial crisis now.. i can't bare to watch..well, i dont feel like doing the things tht i want to do anymore, since my family is suffering.. supposedly i had enough money in my bank to pay for my dance fees bt now my bank is getting bankrupt due to my parents constantly borrowing to pay for house bills and other expnses.. now i dont have money for myslf,, and most of all i dont have any part timework to help my parents.. i feel so useless being the eldest daughter in the family..

my weekdays are seriously packed with my course modules which gives me no spare time to work at all.. and saturdays i got dance classes.. i wonder if i will be able to get an excellent gpa to transfer to another course?! most probably i wanna take pharmacy since it only consist of 3 modules which is like 3 hrs a day for the whole week?! heard from my friend.. if i only got 3hrs for sch thn definitely i will be able to work part-time..

well, i guess its impossible to transfer unless u get 4.0 gpa,, tht's wht our lecturer explained, but juz try.. i really dont wanna see my parents so depressed about money.. and most of all im sick.. there's just too much financial problems going on.. sigh..now tht i am old enough to understand, i can feel my parent's burden... i just wanna graduate and find a job as soon as i can..

2010-07-02T19:05:00.003+08:00

sigh,, seriously im still not feeling well, bt finally im going to the hospital tmr!! atlast! i really wanna find out wht's happening to me..

common test..lemme see, so far i only got 1 A,,haha well, ofcourse its my fave subj. obc(: i got 2 B's and 1 C,, so far so good..well, abit dissapointed abt the C tho, (its electrotech, as expected).. if only i was feeling well tht time, simple qns like addition and simplifying i still miss to do..!sigh, anw, past is past..gonna do better in the future!(:

and i think there's really something wrong with me when it comes to guys.. u knw got this guy tht seem to like me, (he keeps on looking& staring at me) fyi i see it in the corner of my eye!lol bt i kept on avoiding him, its not tht i dont like him, just tht its weird being ard guys, you know? haha, and i also find it weird talking to guys,, and also when he smiles at me, iget goosebumps, and its really freaking weird tht i dont want to see him evrytime.when it comes to looks not tht bad, bt still i would choose onew over him!haha,

and another guy from dance class who was my grpmate from the kcc bonding day, who purposely volunteered to partner with me & broke the poky stick so fast in the race as if trying to fin it fast so tht we can get to smooch, omgosh! well he's good-looking,smart-looking, tall (perfect!) erm, probably..bt not really into tht.. he even tried to get my no. aftr the camp.! goosshh.. (but i was like pretending to be in a rush, so din get to hand him,hehe..) and i get this feeling tht he also keeps on looking at me, you know the feeling tht someone is always staring at you from the corner of your eye, bt u just pretend tht you dont see him..got one time i purposely look at him when he was looking at me, thn he was like smiling as if wanted to try to say hi to me, bt i immediately look the other way..!haha, its really v funny!!

i think i know alr why these were happening the past past few days.. its because of my hair,, not really used to letting it down since in secondary sch, i SELDOM or never untie my hair.. well, letting down my hair, i seem so girlish..which is erm...not the used to be me, when im supposed to be a boyish and sporty type..lol, so ya., when my hair really grew very long decided to cut it abit short and rebonded it to get tht boyish feeling agn even though i wont get to tie it alr, (sick of it since been doing it for 10yrs alr!!)

and you know wht, & ofcourse i also put on my boyish clothes which i like..haha.. and u knw wht the 1st guy told me?lol "hey joyce, i din realised you rebonded your hair"LOL! well i was like going to say "do u like it?" HAHA bt i din instead said "ya", end of conversation. ( the inner me tells me tht, "im alr not the girl you used to like! *evil laughs) well, i really like my new hair now since its very soft!((: its like for the 1st time i had a smooth thin hair!

so this operation is successful and i hope no more (staring) alr, coz it gives me creeps!! well, some people may tell me tht im lesbian bt tht's a big NO! i just like girls around, more thn boys, it gives me a comfortable environment((:

& i hope the next time i blog agn, ill be better alr!! get well soon to me!!!(((:

2010-06-18T19:50:00.003+08:00

ok, i just found out tht being gay is borne & hormonal, so there's really nothing wrong with tht..haha, well im just saying.. for the past few days me & my mom had been watching ellen on the tv, thn i just noticed tht she's really a good-looking guy/girl, whtever, bt she's a girl, if not thn why would the name be ellen?haha, and she's a got a wife!!OMGosh! her wife is soo pretty tht i couldnt believe tht she was a gay! moreover, her wife only got past girlfriends! omg, really cnt believe it..bt they're super so sweet, both of thm(:

k, here now stomach's growling! next time!!

2010-06-11T13:42:00.002+08:00

wow, i blogged agn today! its really v rare nowadays.. sch is juz super! bt really happy tht i have no homeworks or projects or online work these holidays!! can really spend my time relaxing!!((:
so common test was over.. super fast! i knew tht i did v well in the OBC!(my favorite subject!)hehe, ofcourse, Dr. Akasta teaches it, and it doesnt hurt if i fantasize of him like onew for awhile(: although abit chubby and slightly bulgy tummy though!haha!!

so for the rest of the common tests, i bet i will get a 3 Bs? well, afterall i've been really focusing on OBC since it has the most credits!!lol!& ofcourse i like the teacher!haha(more motivation!)LOL

well, its already holidays and tomorrow is my KCC dance class!!really looking forward to learning k-pop dance! i hope we learn ringdingdong first or maybe bonamana would also be fine! speaking of SUJU they would have a super show here soon!! im gonna maintain my bal. account since ive been really lookin forward to it!! shinee would have their comeback this july!there's just so much things goin on...

& my only wish now is to go out with my sec. sch close friends(: i hope i can see them all these holidays!!!

2010-05-16T23:02:00.000+08:00

2010-05-03T23:05:00.002+08:00

yO! atlast i finished revising the lecture for the past week! :/ im damn slow yea.. & it was made even worse with the teacher! ahhh!! why you have to be so cute until like tht?! oh btw, did i tell you that he actually looked like onew?! haha! a slightly chubby one!(: only gwen knows coz she saw him before!lol..& she agrees with me! xD anw, his subj. organic biological chem is damn hard ya! myb tht's why its 8 credit module..sigh., keke, today he actually talked to me! xD my heart was thumping hard tht time & i felt abit weird!lol, but anw, it was just abt how do we catch-up with his lectures, lol! omg! i cnt take it when he actually looked into my eyes when he talked to me, (his eyes & smile looks exactly the same as onew's!) kyaaaaa!!!!!! soo moe~!(turned-on) -> i learned this frm the anime kaichouwa maid-sama!haha, damn sweet& funny!(:

truthfully when i log-in our online discussion forum abt OBC at mEL, when i jot down my opinions & reasoning on his OBC related questions,, reading his reply, i get super high already!LOL! i think im really going crazy ya..! i dunno, i even put effort to give my best shot anwer to the question regarding the explosive reaction of Na metal wif water.., and i did abit of research okay!lol, i like the part when he said, very good/correct atleast 3 times? i cnt remember, and when he reply it was super cute yet intelligent when he actually explains! one thing tht adds to his cuteness is when he pronounce all letter "r" with "l"!LOL! he almost sound like a kid when pronouncing!!hahaha!!

i think i talked alot abt him alr...!!hehe

the reason i blogged today is tht, i dunno.. tht someone i mentioned earlier actually replied me by sms & i was shocked! LOL! do you still actually read my blog?! anw, i know u everytime no answer one,,its ok..haha, & im not really sure if its just a coincidence tht you wanna go out with me, the right time i said i wanna see you!haha, really funny but im super happy!(: coz i really miss you damn lots..! well, if you're reading this, read all you can coz definitely i wont be able to tell you personally coz its awkward..even were friends, but not those type tht talk abt deep feelings/stuff.. haha, except for me sometimes...(:

tmr, is 8am practical!haha, fun!!!bt need to wake up so early! yay!!see you soon!!!!!(::

2010-05-01T10:12:00.001+08:00

atlast i blogged agn!(: haha, k, enough. another time agn!!

2010-03-30T21:38:00.004+08:00

the speakers my pops gave me rocks man!haha, & now im listenin to the radio on an app i downloaded in my itouch(: i think im gonna slp with the radio on!hehe,,

well today.. -_- boring.... i slept for 2 hrs. in the afternoon.. ytd was more fun luh.. caught how to train your dragon with mun after band prctice.. the movie was vv nice! it touched my heart till the end.. from the start they call it "pests" but in the end they just dropped the 's' and change it to "pets" nice msg!(:

nonetheless, im happy with my life now.. atleast im not bored staright for a week..thanks to my gd gd friend!hehe, well, i really wanna go swimming soon! & go escape too!! & go heimun's house! T-T but i know its only hei mun who's on with me always.. i want gwen & cassan to come too!T-T more people more fun!haha,

you know sometimes, i wanna know how hei mun feels whenever we go out tgt often.. its always her who sees my face over and over agn..i wonder if she's sick of it..haha, well, i don't feel tht way towards her,, on boring days like today, it makes me miss her more..sigh, haha, its coz we'll not gonna see each othr as often like now when we go to sch alr...sigh, i miss gwen and cassan too.. wonder wht they doin now?

well,, all i know now is im gonna see gwen on thurs!(: coz we got the software installation thingy.. i hope this could be settled soon! & i wanna see the apps for my course too!!(:

2010-03-28T22:45:00.005+08:00

i will blog since im kinda not slpy yet.. its bcoz i've been slpn all day tht at night i get nocturnal :( haha, bt no big deal coz i still slp at 12 plus.lol

btw, atlast tuition grant package is here, lsct orientation camp details, and MY IS FORM! lol, yup!i didnt made it to the korean class coz i sent the form too late, im sure gwen & yuening too, so they returned back my form and cheque!ahaha! which i dont really mind since i get back my money!(:hehe..

i went to check my school's blog and they've updated the activities tht gonna be held in the camp(: i dunno, bt i kinda feel excited abt it(: haha, the water balloon activity kinda reminds me of my sec2 band camp!lol! i hope its really fun, though its kinda weird not knowin anyone there..lol

and my CBE teacher is an angmo!!!!!LOL!!!!

mr.mirko stoll (:

seeing his face makes me feel nervous in speaking english...waaahhh!! bt not bad, see how it goes..

AHHH!! ATLAST! TMR I'M ABLE TO STRECH THESE LEGS!!! XD

2010-03-26T21:36:00.002+08:00

yO! and im back to blogging agn(: today is dad's bday! happy bday dad!! hope you like the polo tees i bought!though it costs me alot... T-T and belated happy bday to mom too! hope you like the shoes tht i bought which costs me almost a hundred bucks! T-T haha, bt its ok, now tht im thinkin of it, its the 1st tim ei bought them expensive gifts..lol, utmost i would just write a card.. guess i've grown up abit(:

well, ytd, i had the heaviest shopping ever! i spent almost $200 in one day! T-T bt its ok, no regrets(: i bought alot of clothes, which is i think necessary coz i dont have much inside my closet..lol, and now, the only missing is the sports shoes and sandals which i am suppose to buy for the camp..

hm., today.. i had my hair colored! thanks to mum! its reddish brown, though its not really obvious unless exposed to sunlight..haha.. i love it(:

2010-03-19T23:30:00.003+08:00

i wonder why i grow so much pimples when i wash my face 2 times a day! T-T bet i've been thinkin too much lately, dreamin too much lately, even when you're not doin anything, still feeling stressed.. T-T

if only i can do more than what im doin now... must i follow my brain and choose the right one even if my heart says choose the wrong one?

or maybe i can follow my stomach? ya, mybe its best to, coz wht i need now is more weight!!haha

2010-03-12T20:52:00.002+08:00

somehow, this enrolment thingy gets on my nerves.. its super troublesome!! especially the IS thingy of which both gwen and I still had problems with.. i really have no idea how to get a cheque just for tht one registration,, i mean i wanna learn the language but shd it be this troublesome?!! arghh..

checklist of the things ive settled:
- form e
- course registration
- cpf education scheme

now im waiting for the tuition grant package which will be sent two weeks later.. and, i've filled up all forms mainly the giro, reimbursement sth, and the orientation camps! wee~! mixed emotions of scared and excitement abt tht!haha, the last thing left out is the IS thing of which i've filled up alr but still didnt have the means of payment which is the cheque..!! argh!

so now i think i needa wait for my father to find the cheque he said he has..i dont know..! but i really hope i can enrol in this IS course as i really wanna learn the language! well,, now im still thinkin whether to learn basic korean and japanese.. T-T

AAHHHH!! SINCE WHEN DID I HAVE SECOND THOUGHTS??!!!!!

2010-03-10T23:20:00.003+08:00

oh yeah.. and i blogged at this point of time which is kinda late alr.. well, i just wanna talk of somethings i've been doin.. yep! i've been watching a cartoon show called avatar, the last airbender..haha! kinda funny isnt it, yup! the show is really funny, & sad.. and there's just alot u can learn from it about life.. seriously speakin..haha, well.. guess gonna get onto the important part(:

yesterday turned out to be so much fun thn it seemed to be..haha, my friend out there says " didnt know suntec is soo boring" haha.. actually i wanna laugh when she told me tht coz it was the same thing she told me when we went there a year ago..it was 5th december 2008 as far as i can remember, and it was our first outing tgt..haha, & we wore the same shirt! the baby milo shirts tht we bought from hongkong..well, ive worn mine ytd, the exact old thing hopin my friend did rmb too.. but my friend, kinda forget the old story,,but nvm..doesnt matter anyway(: she's a person with a bad memory..haha! no offense.. but true!haha back to the point..

so i was kinda sleepy tht time coz i was slpn b4 i went to meet her.. slpy head.haha, & she was late, almost 30 mins. late!!! bt nvm, haha, it always happens anw..so.. we didnt know wht to do so we just walked past citilink tunnel to suntec and there we were, bt firstly i had to visit yami yougurt for my nice and refreshing cup with the rainbow chips..haha, thn.. we went up to play at the arcade! played lotsa games! & this time she beat me in the mario cart in the last min..! still regretting abt tht.. mybe next time surprise attack at the last lap is a good strategy to win the race!(: thn we played house of the dead which is kinda freaky,, but no matter, i lost in a couple of mins..dun wanna talk abt tht.,haha..thn went to do the dance thingy.. seriously, the sensors didnt work properly and we wasted our 2 coins..lol, thn went for this anime battle, both of us 1st time players and we made it to the 9th round!sounds cool huh?! but the last round?got beaten up fast even though we had tht invincible move!LOL! so the last coin goes to the photohunt thing.. it ended fast but if cassan were there, she couldhve lend us a hand to make it even longer..

so... after we spend our coins, we had an eye on the neoprint machine,but no one was out there to attend to us.. so we wanser around first, inside the cinema, thn we decided to buy tickets for th movie alice in wonderland 3D!!! wow, atfirst i thought it was amazing, but its really a very giddying ride, i mean when you get ot put on your glasses..its also troublesome and uncomfortable..my expectations went down..but anw, its worth a try somehow(: so b4 tht we had fun taking neoprints! we got so excited tht we even take it 2 times!LOL! but it was so much fun! doin it agn reminds me of the year back ago whn we did the same thing!taking 2 times even the machine got defect coz of the make-up problm..but good thing tht the machine did work very well abt the make-up thingy this time(:

so after we watchd the movie..we went to find the new look.. we were lost for awhile, but eventually we found it!! i was bored atfirst because i thought i wont be fascinated by clothes anymore, ive bought so much lately, but not whn i saw this shirt tht looked cool with red, white and blue stripes on it!(: both of us looked so nice with the shirt but in the end i didnt buy it.. *regrets.. haha, so mun bought 2 shirts, one of which i like too.. !so decided to invade the shop another day and i can finally buy tht shirt! seriously, when i talk abt mom abt it, and why i didnt buy it bcause of wht she might think and tell me agn?,, she didnt care, and she said" you like wht, why you didnt buy?" and i was like O.O "something's wrong goin on?" haha, i was on the verge on laughing and at the same time feelin abit of regret..but anw, im goin back to take tht shirt for real, and my friend and I promised ourselves we gonna shop there worth of $100+ to use the voucher,,!so im not giving up til i get tht shirt!!

on the whole, it was fun!! though i see my this friend almost all the time.. maybe its just destiny because sooner or later we're gonna be apart,, and we'll miss all the fun! T-T it was 3 years worth of memories, and im gonna treasure it for real, with the help of this blog..! come to think of it, i've founded this blog close to when i've met her as my flute teacher..haha, still laughin at how the way i praised her bck when i was still new, but now were all time real friends tht stick together when anyone of us is in need..! well, in need of a company to share the fun now tht it's holidays!!haha, wel,, ive come to realise tht i've shared alot of memories with my this friend for a very long time, and had attempts of declaring her my best friend. but just cant because she never feel the same way.. well, i think its not tht bad to have a bestfriend from my country and in this country,,haha so why not?! i want to have alot of bestfriends!! hee~ well, i might be greedy sometimes(:

u know wht, i think ive got a confession to tell.. I LOVE MY FRIEND!haha, well pretty much if you can guess who she is..but lately ive been watching avatar, and kinda nfluenced me.. the song "live like were dying" kinda influenced me too.. so i think its ok to tell here, & i hope she will be read this now.. its good to tell while its not too late(: i love you my good good friend and thank you!(:

2010-03-04T19:04:00.002+08:00

last night i had the weirdest dream ever! so weird that even now its creeping me out remembering it..haha, shall not share it here..coz its something to do with my private life.. but why that person?! lol, i kept on laughin recallin the dream., its really weird/pathetic/hilarious..

k, enough of dreams.. today i finished the 20 eps. of fairy tail! its really very funny lah! i just love that anime,, everytime makes me laugh out of my chair!its very lame though, the jokes..lol, cant wait for the next ep!

and today..what else did i do? sleep,, hm, aftr tht my sis arrived thn dined in at KFC, then went home thn im now blogging.. and forgot to mention tht Ngee Ann Poly called me just now coz of some matters i didnt settle properly on my form E!! omg! they thought i was local singaporean, thn i didnt fill up the tuition grant the gov't gave me!! (ofcourse because they indicate FOR SINGAPOREANS ONLY what so why comlete tht form?!) then they confirmed i was PR of which the tuition grant form will be sent days later.. i was super scared coz i thought i messed up something and now my family need to pay the fees in FULL! as in no tuition grant! can you believe tht?!! omg.. good thing they settle this by calling me....whew.

& i've decided to take japanese lessons with gwen!(: not only because it has diploma but i think its more important for me in the future.. & i can now understnd raw animes if i were to take that in the future!!weee!! so the only problem now is how to get the crossed cheque..sigh. still consulting gwen abt tht.. waaahhh!! i can't wait to settle the enrolment thingy!! its really v troublesome..

and i got a creepy news about my chosen course... it'll be full of guys! T_T NOOOOOO!!!! coz i joined the np facebook ya, thn saw my CBE course,, and all who posted there were boys!! (and they were looking for girls, coz there isnt any girls posting there T-T) WAAAHHH!! i had enough of boys at work..!! hope there'd be lots of girls too!! pls!pls!pls!! T-T

HOLIDAYS!!!

2010-03-03T12:59:00.017+08:00

and YEAH! i've finally changed my blogskin!(: my theme looks sweet as if im inlove or something, but not really. LOL, but actually i've been inlove with a person for so long but still that person never know. & that person would never know forever. They say if u love a person, just show them. rmb the saying "action speaks louder than words"? haha, so why tell? & i have no idea how to tell that person anyway.. maybe im dreamin' (yes i am!coz its really so impossible, unless im super lucky!)haha, but im just so happy knowing this person in my life now..(:

so yea, the past few days went out with my friends(: watched dear john which kinda nice but quite dissapointed on the ending though.. i dont understnd some of channing's mumblings but i swear that CHANNING IS SOO HOT!! haha, first movie i saw him in it was She's the man, and he was really stunning!haha! & the song that is being played on my blog now is one of Dear John's OST(:

so aftr tht we window shopped, went to ion's food hall, had fun taking pics (of which i still never see being uploaded in facebook, you know who you are!)haha, and wrote on gwen's primary sch autograph..haha, aftr tht gwen had to leave early for dinner, we three went to plaza sing shopped at etude and body shop. Somehow i regret not buying the love etc. perfume. mybe some othr day gonna buy it! hee~ thn went to the top floor to play arcade, scored almost 500 pts for basketball!omg! tough girls here ya!haha, then dined at ajisen! my first time there!haha, the food was superb tht i had stomach aches, probably because of over comsumption,haha, & i love the maki!! xD so i had to pay for both, three of us spent more thn $50 only for the food ya!lol, can you believe that? never knew good food can be tht expensive..

so ytd, mun acc me to cut my hair.. and overall i think im contented. just not used to having fringe clinging just above my eyebrows.. & I REALLY LOOK LIKE MY MOM NOW! haha, i mean mom when she was still single.. and mom agrees with me! T-T haha, anw im her daughter aftrall, ofcourse i will look like her.. haha

so today, mayb stay at home.. i cant wait to plan all the outings with my friends soon! there's just so many things i wanna experience.. now, i can finally say "ALL MY HARDWORK HAS BEEN PAID OFF!" i can now have fun!(:

pending outings:
- escape theme park!
-ice-skating
-bungee jumping
-universal studios!
-shopping, shopping & more shopping!
-i also wanna go ECP, go cycling,bbq, have a camp on a tent with my friends if possible..( i just miss sitting on the breakwater)haha!

so those are my dreams right now..i hope most of them will come true within this month(:

2010-02-23T22:39:00.004+08:00

wahaha, this night i post agn.. very free right?!ahahaha!! well, i think there's some people more free thn me, those people tht have time to read people's blog, specially the boring one which is mine.. one of those people tht i found out is cassan, obviously..haha, and maybe hei mun too just tht she dont comment as wht she usually do..no comment. -_-

so my blog is really very boring,, just as i look at it, its been ages since i changed my theme.. gonna change it soon!nxt monday if have time!coz gonna meet cassan and hopefully hei mun and gwen get testimonial frm sch! and yay!band! cnt wait to touch my flute agn! and to see my juniors!!((:

5 more days,, hehehehe.. my workmates are like missing me alr when i didnt even step down yet! omg. i wonder if ill really order pizza on sunday for the 7 shops.. i think ill be broke.. T-T myb gonna eat at my store only.. well im still thinkin abt it, and its quite bothering me now.. coz thinkin of it, they all helped me alot since my 1st day... so i think i'd be bad if not everyone of them received my appreciation...sigh.. never knew it would be like this..

& omg! i love my new shoes!!haha, just tht its abit tight la.. growing callus on my toes...NOOOOO!!! but anw, 5 more days to bear and ill be free!!yay!!! cant wait!!

2010-02-22T22:29:00.002+08:00

haha, so now back to posting! it's been ages man!! and time flies so fast! one more week til i step down to work! how's tht?! i've much for my tuition fees alr, and i've got enough to spend for myself.. and now i can say " all my hardwork has been payed off" haha, but not so fast coz still 6 more days to go!(:

well, the past few off days were filled with days with my friend heimun, my really agreeable friend who always goes out with me, shopping, eating, movies, and talk about stuff, until we're out of stuff to talk about because we see each other evry week,, & how repetitive we do our own things, i dont really mind, haha as long as im having fun well i hope same goes for her too!(:

well, we shd be off to escape theme park today but due to some people who have sickness, we cannot go!!haha, not sure if she'll be reading this, but i hope u'll get well soon!! i miss her alot alr.. sometimes i realised tht being in a relationship means u'll gonna be casted out far away from ur friends alr, and tht pretty much i guess tells the truth..sigh.. & that's the reason why i dont wanna get a boyfriend.. super troublesome!! well, my bestfriend had a boyfriend.. and on valentines day, they broke up! i mean wtf was he thinkin? just because of a pic of another guy and her was found on her hp doesnt mean she's not faithful!! i mean its just a picture of one of her friends?! OMG! i felt like scolding tht guy if only i was there, and how can she do tht on valentines day some more?!!! and tht was the reason why my bestfriend was soo hurt & failed to call me and greet me back,, i was kinda emo tht time bcoz i thought she would always rmb to greet me, but now tht i know the reason, im even more mad for her ex-boyf.. wth.. ranting these things just makes my temper go up agn...

well, im kinda embarassed cause ive never finishd recording my surprise for her..but oh well, one more week to go and time to work hard to finish the piece!(:

btw, im gonna share one more story im always raged about everyday when i go to work.. (ok, maybe this is ranting time)haha

at work i got this friend named hong kai, 5N grad, 18 yrs old but im still older, good-looking guy, well-built, a basketball player! everything about him was already perfect BUT! his attitude damn s*ck to the max! i never thought this kinda guy would be very talkative, boisterous, goofy, naughty and always like to disturb people! so never taught this guy will be assigned at the same store as me.. since i was the only girl i was being targeted by him as if i can get along with the likes of him.. imagine everytime he says "kobe on the line for the three", "don't i look handsome? mascular?", "hey, if you're tired you can hug me, fall into my arms now" (as if! dream on!) & he will everytime do push-ups kiss his bisceps and check out under his shirt to see his growing abs!! all i can say is YUCK! get a life man! you should be a narcissist, or maybe a gay?! coz he always do those gayish dance (fyi he likes gee by snsd dance) haha! one time i got teach him the crab dance, lol! he looked so stpid and funny, sometimes the customer would just stop and stare at him dancing!hahaha!

well the most impt thing was it was tues if im not wrong, well, both the supervisor and co-supervisor were out on leave and the supervisor on the othr shop, louis was incharge,, and for the worst hongkai was put in the shop tht i was assigned at too! T-T so i thought something sensible about him came up, we talked & talked as if we got alot of things to say,, fyi there were few customers tht time,, but time ticks by so fast because of him talking to me about poly, games, korean dramas, movies.. & taking about the movie white chicks made us laugh so much until he lied on the bench and laughed so hard! xD he's super cute!! (& tht's the only thing) well its pretty much early to judge just by tht bcause actually he was hurting tht time.. he was on the verged of breaking up with his girlfriend bcoz of some 'stuff' im not sure of, but he blames himself at fault.. thn i finally realised this guy is strong inside (not bad) and got some brain and sense and sincerity.. "haha, sometimes i can be serious la" then he looked at me and laughed. "really, im very serious now" haha, tht line is so cute tht striked me to senses, is he really telling the truth?! because he's really a joker.. then i dont know if he was really serious tht time, but he asked me one question twice at differrent time interval "joyce, would you want to be my girlfriend?" and i was like stunned, and said "waaaahh, are kidding me?" "dont i look very serious?" he said. "you look very suspicious le!" i insisted. "really im serious, dont you like me?" then i was like, wth, didnt know how to reply, coz i've been thinkin'.. shd i try like wht heimun said?or shd i like reject agn and have fun?! but ofcourse i dont dare to try, its too early to kill the fun tht im having now, so i just said.. SLOWLY LA! FRIENDS FIRST! haha, then he laughed and said, ok la, i understand, no problem! hahaha! thn he started telling me these things tht i should doll up myself and buy more clothes!tht i can be very beautiful when i just doll up myslf!(oh god!is there something wrong with how i do things with myslf?! as if i will really agree to be her gf!! NEVER!) then i felt like really weird talkin to him, so everytime he goes near i would just stay away..haha (u think i will fell for such a stupid reason.. why did he ask me this kind of qn?we din evn know each othr for very long..& your heart will always belong to ur gf no matter wht, imagine more than a year of relationship alr le! im not stupid please..)

so as expected, he got back with his gf!haha, myb its just the right thing to do tht i didnt give him my no. (i dont want people to disturb me!) was just an excuse,, its because people realise the emptiness inside when the one most loved is gone, & tht's just explains the story.. when his gf stopped contacting him, he became empty and now searching for someone who can fill in tht emptiness..well, all i can say is sorry!im not tht someone, coz tht someone will always be her no matter wht..not fallin for this kind of love game..haha,im smarter thn you know! ;P

2010-01-17T22:43:00.003+08:00

waaah...tmr i cnnot off.. :(
& i just receive my 2weeks pay today..
i would be happier if tmr i can off &
i can spend some of my money out!
but whaa!! it'll end up on my mom's hand
agn!! aishh!! BUT ill secretly keep some la,
since she also dunno i'll receive $100
more on my pay day today!nyahaaha! xD

but seriously,, i just wanna buy new clothes
la..tht's all im thinkin now..haha,& wanna
buy crocs! jus so many things i wanna buy!!
coz never in my life, with my own money,
tht i shopped my heart out! i hope i can do
it soon!!!

2010-01-12T23:41:00.002+08:00

Enjoying her work!!!haha, thou sometimes its very boring,, like today..! and my workmates are so damn nice to me as usual., haha! one time we secretly played virtual bowling on my ipod touch in the store, like in an olympics manner, 4 of us.. 4th which is the loser treats burger, 3rd placer treats drinks, and 2nd send back all the shoes tht wernt bought, 1st- RELAX! eat and drink and sit!lol, so kelvin-our supervisor won, and i was 2nd! thankfully!!ahahaha! the loser nigel treats us 3 burgers like wow..LOL! but really poor thing of him..haha! sometimes i think tht hanging out with a bunch of boys is not tht bad..lol, its kinda fun~ more thn thinkin it was weird,, but getting used to it(:

so like everyday i get to hear my fave songs, coz the radio is connected to my ipod- lol, can always hear my fave korean songs, coz they also dont mind,, haha! some korean pass by in the shop, were surprised hearing the songs..haha!! xD

and i realised one thing, tht i never gonna like someone, as much more thn as a crush.. now? not really a crush alr but just friends, myb my admiration just really *dissipates fast, haha! tht's why im quite unfaithful evn with the favorite korean boybands tht i once liked..haha! maybe im just the kind of person tht wont like someone, unless they tried so hard impressing me.. trying so hard- means stick out & be faithful w/ their feelings for years..nyahaha!! xD well, im that picky..haha!

so o'level results come out.. i dont know how to react ya, but im really happy with my results.. din expect most of thm to be soo high!!

my expectation: english: c6
maths: c5
amaths: c6
humans: a2
sci: a1
i thought i will get an 18 minused the CCA pts alr..but wht really shocked me was my english and amaths!! i got a b3 for eng, and a b4 for amaths..! i was really really thankful to god tht He answered my prayers and he didnt let me fail my amaths!! really thankful!(:

so now, im trying hard sorting out my choices.. i had the interest in goin chemical& life sciences alr, since i really like science and would really enjoy doin practicals!! but somewhere in my heart, i still love music so maybe still deciding to take the music& audio technology, but.. the COP is 11!! T-T i dont know if i cn still make it or not though im only 2 pts away.. T-T bt anyway, i made it somewhere in the middle as my choice coz im really worried abt my future if i were to get tht course...but i really love creating music ya.. infact i am planning to write songs when i go back home..coz i cn finally touch my guitar agn and gonna do some piano practice whn i get home..im really very excited to go home alr,, cant wait to see kate!!! xD

my first priority in choosing the poly is the distance.. so maybe gonna take np or sp.. not tht i dont want to go nyp.. nyp is great but its too far T-T i dont want to feel like a vegetable whn i get to sch bcoz of long distance journey.. i just hate long journeys!!

one thing tht i wish & would be very great if tht would happen, and im really hoping for it to happen.. if only i have friends to go the same poly as me..

off...

2009-12-28T21:29:00.002+08:00

now is like 9pm, 2 post in one day and i havent eaten my dinner yet..well today went out with dad go window shopping, haha,, he's super cute teachin me how to withdraw from my new atm! (without the knowledge of my mum)haha! xD so we went to IMM and we wandered in almost all the place, for the 1st time, we got so many things to say, and I love talkin to him! since he liked gadgets we always went in computer shops, we even had the plan to buy the sony ericcson walkman. the salesperson there explained how it works.. well, i thought he'd like it, thn i can buy it for him for $99, but in the end he didnt,haha,, he liked the creative zen more which is like $200+ wahaha! waiting on the 31st for my next pay thn mybe i can buy him tht(: we ate at subway,, his first time eating there!haha, my 2nd time! i love the cookies to the max! super full! unfortunately,no yami yougurt for my dessert, haha!anw, window shopped at giant thn went to tiong to visit mum and buy comfort insoles for my work.. tmr's work agn..sigh.. i love my purple jeans and the shirt tht my sis gave me! xD cnt wait for my next pay, wanna snatch $50 to shop tgt with my sis at bugis!cnt wait! bt for now she's on chalet for 3 days at pulau ubin..sigh,,so lonely,, i dont know if i should be lookin forward to tomorrow,, start of struggle and extreme tiredness agn... T-T nvm! two more months!! anw, time flies!(:

happy late christmas!

2009-12-28T11:03:00.006+08:00

whew! work for past 6 days was really tiring man.. super crowded!! and i spent my christmas working too.. T-T in the end we nv did go to church, and orchard, and thn my dad's cooking for new year's eve was a disaster!haha, ok i really prefer my mom's cooking more!! but eve, my sis and I sang alot until our throats got worn out, thn the day after off to work agn.. waahh.. now i understand how tired mom is whn she gets back at home evry late night..i must work hard then to lighten up mom's burden!! though i wanted my own money so much too.. T-T

so b4 christmas i received lots of presents..haha, frm mom!lol, i got a new stripped sweater for work and purple jeans!omg! things tht i wont get oftenly from mom, and those costs alot of $$$!! super expensive la,, well on 17 i got my 1st pay, thn my mom help me put in my bank! i got an atm! super cool but problem is, i dont know how to use it so in the end my mom's the one controlling it T-T but oh well she gave me $40 which is quite alot, but the time my family and I went out i spent it all for food, first time eating marvellous cream and eat yami yougurt agn whn we went ion!haha, the macaroni soup near the tea loft there was damn nice! i also ate hotdogs at dong dae mun which is super awesome!! it tasted just like the hotdogs in my country! whn i go back im gonna bring more!!haha

so the best part of my post will be the next one..ahaha!!.. hm, thou im not sure someone's gonna read this..hmmm??? but anw, i think its just normal for me to feel this xD from here onwards im gonna talk about one person who is super!!!! i dont know how to explain, but always makes me feel some kind of electricity inside me whenever he's near me!omg.. i think i'm crazy..haha!

he's cute, funny, playful, quiet sometimes.. he has smiling eyes! xD his wink makes me want to faint.. (im exaggerating here,haha) super GENTLEMAN!! has a gentle voice, whenever he's near, im like the same pole whose gonna repel, when he smiles, im blinded & i try to look away, when he stares at me, i try to fight by staring back but i cnt maintain, he super helpful, going up ladders to reach the boxes for me, trying to steal all my chores away from me, but sometimes i dont let him.. after work, we walk the same way, and i try to walk as fast as i can cause i will feel weird just walking beside him,, but he was trying to catch-up somehow or isit just me?!haha, he always tries to walk past me, thn turning back smilin and waving.,, OMG!!!! got one time tht my face nearly burst, cnt help but smilin to myslef like a crazy person on my way home.. one time he was walkin ahead of me, super slowly, as if wanting me to catch up with him but i purposely walked slowly too..he was playin on his psp thn, on his way home, and i just love lookin at his back, (total LOL) ok, i think i didnt mean wht i said,,haha? thn i think his patience snapped, and he looked quite sad by thn whn he truned back at me,, myb coz i didnt try to catch up and walk beside him..!LOL! or maybe he's too tired to wave, so he gave me tht faint smile? omg, why am i caring about all these things...?and the time he stared at me and knocked his head on the shop's sliding door, i felt painful whn i saw him! walking home tgt, i asked him abt it, and he said he was painful, his face was truly,,ahh!! so pitiful, he looked so in pain and i wanna pat his head!! NOOOO i mean i didnt mean to do tht!! and i never did, thank goodness!ok, i think im super crazy now.. its been 3 years since i felt this again so its kinda awkward for me now.. i'm liking stars now too! and maybe, maybe i just got a crush on you..haha

2009-12-15T09:08:00.002+08:00

yO!(: so today back to work.. few more hrs. time.. time really flies whn you're having fun!haha, ytd.. went out with mun and cassan before goin to bbq!(: missed thm soo much!! ate yami yougurt, snowman bread, thn windowshopping, bought a present, wanna get neoprints but cassan dun wan:( mybe next time de, haha! so we went virtualworld, damn fun can! LOL! i first at the mariocart! really pro man! and we played basketball like for 4 rds til arms damn tired! hit the high score!haha, awesome! thn we played jubebox! damn fun! but speakers damn deafining! wanna play it agn!!! xD

so aftr tht went aboard bus, chitchat inside!haha, damn long journey man! but we never get lost thankfully! long walk to ecp! saw juniors! missed thm! thn tried doublebike! super awesome man!!haha, cassan always kanna hit by the pedal, sh gt lotsa bruises now..haha, not bad for 1st time experience cycling!!hehe, BBQ-ed!! ate fish, stingray and sausage!hehe, thn went to the breakwater, took photos! gt one time we LOL til mun cried lor!ahaha! its coz of my photography skills! nyahaha! scenery at the breakwater damn nice!! all ship lights sparkling! gt one couple sitting near us, kept laughing coz cassan kept screamin thn keep lookin at us!lol, felt as though we disturbin thm!lol! thn cycled agn!, mun kanna hit by the shower staright on the face whn thy two tryin wash off the grease!LOL! thn raced to mac thn back, to return the bikes! cycling really fun lor!! all pains, burden, tiredness gone with the wind!..haha, somemore cassan kept screaming while on the bike, cnt help to be scared and estatic!

aftr tht went off, thn walked long agn, super dark!kept tryin to be lively by talkin coz its abit scary, few lamposts on the way..haha, we kept on running coz we kept on scaring ourselves!LOL! thn board on buses home.. damn tired can.. todday gt muscleaches..dunno how am i gonna survive at work.. :( mun, shd be working now, still worst coz she's earlier thn me,, 1&half hr more..!ahhh!! dun wanna work alr.. T-T but must always rmb the money!! no pain, no gain! HWAITING!!! xD hope can go out agn nxt week!!

2009-11-29T21:52:00.008+08:00

waah.. it was a long week.. and tmr is my off!! atlast!! wah, super tiring!!! T-T bt evry night the pain on my legs goes away little by little,,getting used to it alr..haha, i felt like i've grown leg and arm muscles alr..lol

so many things just happen and i dont know how to break thm all, mybe gonna share few... and AHA!! i found one secret reader of mine coz she herself told me!!LOL! heimun arh!! really surprised me as she called me late night just to talk abt my past post..haha! waahh.. super embarrassed leh!! din know anyone will still be reading my outmoded/boring blog..evn my bestfriend din know tht i revived it,,coz of wht she told me b4..haha! anw, better dont tell her, coz later she'll nv stop askin me questions/pestering me to share my stories.. and dont want her to waste money calling here just to talk abt tht..(:

btw,these past few days all my mistakes came to surface..i mean, im new lah, so cnt help it.. bt the staff were really v kind, sometimes i dont ask for their assistance alr, if thy tried to help me, i always try to reject, coz i wanna learn, and i shdnt be spoiled or else i wont get better.. worst things tht happen these days: while getting stock frm the above rack, i dropped a box with shoes! gd thing there's no customer bellow or else i will get killed if customer complained!haha, i fell frm a high ladder in the storeroom,, tht one v pain lah..bt gd thing no one else knows bcoz im the only one thre..ahaha!! i took the correct model of shoe, bt wrong colour,ahhh! i only sell 6-8 shoes on weekdays and some weekends like today.. T-T boss say its v little lor.. he said tht i must have more confidence.. haha..

the funniest part is the time whn i eat my dinner, im the only one bringin lunchbox la..haha (my mom!) obviously she doestn want me to waste money buying dinner outside so she cook for me.. so evrytime im eating nigel and keeven will always be curious wht's inside my lunchbox!haha, nigel the glutton will just stare at my food, and keeven will say "ask your mom to cook for me too!" lol! really thankful to cindy who taught me how to use the microwave in the storeroom, my food is always hot and savoury and cn still enjoy my mum's warm cooking!(:

whn im eating at the counter thre, evryone cn see me, and its always embarrassing, so i stock up a shoe box or two infrnt of me, and nigel will always joke removing the boxes, "dont be shy la, just eat while evryone is ard!" lol! i will always put the boxes agn, and jeremy will stand infrnt of me with his back facing me as if he's trying to help me cover so tht i wont feel uncomfortable with the customers ard..haha! he's always useful at these things, unlike nigel..lol!!

gt one time tht is super funny, all of us were in the counter, and we were like sharing 1 newspaper checking for new phone deals.. thn as nigel turns the pages, its shows beautiful girls and actresses, thn he will say "this one is my ex!" haha, thn he will point out to a black american soccer player, "this is jeremy's 1 month bf"LOL! thn it continued until nigel's gf came to the shop and jeremy came pointing, to the girl nigel told us his ex, "this one is your wht agn?" thn 3 of us laugh like hell, nigel felt guilty and dont know wht to say la..his gf was like in a bad mood,haha, thn he sat beside her, like a small child askin for forgiveness with tht sense of innocence written on his face..lol, i cnt believe tht kind of guy is 23 yr old.. -.-"

few days ago i met a new worker agn,, basically he came whn i was off bck thn so nv get to know his name.. at first it was weird, i was wondering how come gt new guy here in the shop,, i thought he was only a customer la, so i waited and waited and he just walk here and thre, always tryin to catch an eye contact.. whn i try to fix the shoe lace in one corner, he will also do the same just nearby, and whn i go to othr corner he will slowly follow and do the same thing, arranging the shoes.. thn i will just try avoiding him bt its always the same, so i felt weird, this guy ah... i askd haziq, thn he said he's also new, haha, hong kai is his name..lol weird name.. haha, thn aftr tht haziq talk to him thn he-hongkai said hi to me thn i replied back thn we strted talking as he strted askin qns.. and im older thn him thou were the same waiting for olevel results..haha, he's an NA student la, so he's 17, lol.. no wonder he kept following me la, coz he wanna know who i am, myb tht time he was just waiting for a chance to talk to me bt i keep avoiding him..!ahaha!, bt seriously who wouldnt feel weird of him doin tht?!..lol, atleast i cn relate with sch stuffs la,haha, evry morning gt the habit of greeting each othr alr.. evn we arnt working in the same shop(:

wah, tmr,, i hope it'd be fun!(:meeting heimun tmr acc her to a job interview! i hope this time she get accepted, and as well as cassan too so all of us gt job alr!thn aftr tht we cn do our shopping!!haha!! :D

2009-11-24T22:11:00.003+08:00

i will blog today since its my day-off(: its 10:15 pm in my clock, and i felt like this day went very fast... i finished watching all the recent eps. of "you're beautiful"! overall, the ending was quite bad... sigh.. bt now im lookin forward to the real min nam's comeback frm america!LOL! wonder if they really looked alike?!haha, both taekyung and shinwoo are v sweet la, and jeremy is super cute! xD

well, in the scene where shinwoo surprisingly kissed min nyu's forehead! i was super shocked and electrified to the max!! it was super sweet tht i screamed all of a suddeen infrnt of my laptop!LOL! and the time taekyung and min nyu kissed is super sweet!haha, taekyung always makes lame excuses la, coz he dunno how to express his feelings, always liked tht part..haha, and jeremy, wah, i think i teared abit abt the bus scene.. its super hurting la, how cn he just change like tht aftr stepping off the bus?! i think its kinda hard to endure if it really happend in real life..so sad :( and i feel bad for shinwoo too, he's been hurt like for many many times! i hope its shinwoo and min nyu in the end!! haha

hm... myb i shd continue with my days at work.. i've been working for 5 days, and im still considered as new,, i've met new friends and maybe tht's the reason why fate wants it to be like this.. "there's always a rainbow after the rain" i have always believed in tht, and i felt like i've opened a new chapter of my life.. it was just like aftr i left my hometown, and aftr i left sch..its a new beginning,, i nv regreted it being like this bcoz its like the 1st time i've felt being cared by people whom i've just met not long..its a nice feeling..(:

its also the 1st time a guy ran and chased aftr me just to lend me an umbrella.. haha, i really dont know wht to say la.. it all strted whn nigel the supervisor of the shop i was assigned at said tht he was hungry and whether if i mind buying him sotong balls and milk tea, bcoz he cnt leave the shop as he's th cashier thre.. so i said no, and jeremy, my othr colleague also hand his money to buy him milk tea.. thre werent much customers tht time, so i just slipped out of the shop,, the two knew tht i shouldnt get myself caught coz im goin to anchorpoint, and it may seem like i pon my job..haha, i knew it was risky, bt wht cn i say else?! i rmb the boss said "just do wht they ask thm to do" so i have a cover, and i cn just say the two asked me to do this..haha! xD (evil*haha, its only my 2nd day and i was asked to do sth rebellious T-T) so i was taking a long time getting the sotong balls, b4 tht it was raining hard whn i ran to the nearby shoping centre, i had a cover on my jacket so i didnt really get tht wet..

a moment later, someone pat my back and i saw jeremy behind me, holding an umbrella, i was surprised to see him thre, since nigel told me tht he dont know where anchorpoint is..lol, he told me it's raining hard outside (with a china accent) i always thought tht he spoke like jia bei bt i think he was better..lol, thn i really dont know wht to say la,, i mean, how did he know tht its raining hard outside?! our shop is like facing no doors and you hve to go one round just to see the exit, secondly you cnt hear the raindrops frm inside..so its impossible tht he would have known.. thirdly, he also did take the risk of being caught and left the shop just to chase aftr me & lend me an umbrella? i was totally speechless and dont know wht to do, so we quickly walked out the anchorpoint and realised tht it was only drizzling.. (thank heavens!) he tried to open the umbrella, bt i said "now, its only drizzling" thn he closed and smiled as if he's saying tht his efforts were wasted..haha! i told him tht its ok not to come here, coz i gt my jacket..lol!, the atmosphere was really kinda weird, bt if were sharing one umbrella while walking under the rain, is evn more weirder!!! seriously!!ahhh!!! so thankfully it didnt rain tht hard alr...haha

whn we finally reachd the shop, its evn more funnier, unfortunately we saw the son of the boss! and we just ignored him and continued to walk as he did, thn later on he turnd back and made this :P face, lol.. as if in the end we were really caught.. bt we wernt in trouble thankfully..haha!!

so helped out nigel whose alr pretty crazy handling the customers as he was alone..LOL! aiyo, its his fault la, if only he wasnt a glutton!haha! well, i think jeremy is a pretty good guy la, i bet his gf is a lucky one(: he was like a brothr to me though we just met 5 days ago, lol.. whn i was assigned at the othr shop ytd, i was sitting above the big box with stock as there were no customers, he went frm the bck door of the storeroom and surprised me agn, by patting at my left shoulder, bt unfortunately i turn back to my right and saw him, thn he smiled, knowing his attempt was a failure..haha! he was only one year older thn me, so tht glutton nigel kept teasing us, sayin' jeremy cnt just express his feelings to *ahem so he's passing this biscuit to me to pass to you.. thn i would just make tht "ha?" face, thn jeremy will start beating nigel playfully, LOL! aiyo, not really good at this things la, i know im a girl, bt not used to be treated like one..haha,tht's why its just weird being ard guys...

bt i think i will enjoy my days at work..though its tiring..haha! xD

2009-11-21T22:02:00.008+08:00

hee~! started working!(: actually i applied the job last wednesday, aftr i cried the hardest tht day, i thought tht it wont do anything...unless i tried to find othr jobs tht is quite well-paid to reach my goal $1500 for my flight with souvenirs included..ahaha! well, i discussed this with my mum, and she approved, so until end of february i cn get 3800+, the rest is for my poly education.. if my results cnt make it, i suggested tht i go home and study with my bestfriend..hehe, they also approved!so i gt no worries now..not just yet..(:

so tht day.. i just walk in the shop to ask for job,and they interviewed me, basically it was fine, the employer was kind..(: so he decided to hire me and strt immediately the day aftr..

1st day,, this was super tiring!!! i had a tour in the whole shop! basically they own 6 shops, sports fashion, weston corp., sports 2000, athletes domain, sports and more, alternative sports..So i could be assigned at any of these shops! so at first i was at sports fashion! my 1st day was tiring & confusing la,, haha coz i still dont know mah, must remember all the discounts, rack no. stock rm codes, i learned how to hang clothes properly!haha! and price-tagging too! quite fun!lol, the kinds of shoes ah... headache la,, nike gt alot of models, goes same for othr brands.. and i found out tht there's awhole lot more brands othr thn nike, also got NB, dr. martens, teva, asics.. wah, alot!and not only shoes! accessories and apparels also! wah, my frst day i felt like dying la..haha, seriously.. bt the staff was super duper kind lah! as in!! i was like treated like a 'princess' haha, ok i think its too much.. its bcoz, they knew tht i have no experience mah, so whenever i go reach for something in the rack, they will always help me get for me(: (at first i was really trembling going up the ladder to get the stocks)haha.. bt now no more (slightly)lol.. STAR is always helping me..(: he's very gentle and kind, and quiet..haha, i dont know luh..bt why do i always remember the rack no. tht he taught me? xD

i also made new friends out of my workmates.. they are all really funny lah, haziq is a joker, he was also my tour-guide(:, he's a sports man and really well-built, bt i dunno why evrytime he also act so childish..haha, he always wants to share with my lunchbox, bt how can I? he's a very big person leh, and the food mum prepared for me is in a small box..LOL! im kinda embarassed though,, its coz im the only person bringin in lunchbox,, while they all buy inside the shopping cntre..lol, (my mum dont want me to waste money, ofcourse :/)haha, cookie is the one who taught me abt everything we sell(: it was my 1st day so its kinda difficult for me to memorise all she've taught me, bt she's v kind,, whn she see me dazed or in a *gonggong state, she will tell me, "slowly, slowly" thn smile.. wahhh! they were really v kind to me T-T

daniel is the co-supervisor of the shop, every little thing he knows, and he also helps me finding out the stocks.. he's a bit naggy lah,, haha everytime he will say, "ok you go urself if you dont get it, i will scold you" haha, bt thn ofcourse i didnt get lah,so i asked agn, thn he pointed out, and say gently, "here, you must remember ok?" haha!! he's also kind lah, bt in a different way..lol, and cindy is the most kindest!!(: she's the head supervisor and cashier of the shop, she's like a 3rd mother to me (1st is my grandma, 2nd is my mum)hehe.. she helps me with almost evrything,, whn i was assigned in othr shops, she always asks Star to help me 1st, and she will always hold the ladder for me w/o I evn knowing it ok, bcoz i was looking up finding for the codes of shoes ma, thn whn i look down and watch for steps, ill see her there, holding the ladder for me!wahhh!! she'll also always remind me to warm my rice in my lunchbox b4 i eat my dinner, she super kind la, dont know how to explain else..lol, myb bcoz frm all the employees thre im the v noob one coz i have no experience..haha! bt i will try my v best to cope up with the work(:

one thing i was not get used to was to stand for almost half a day..wah, its really something la, at night i got leg pains and muscle aches, its also hard for me to sleep at night bcoz of the aches..bt thankful of my mum, always provided me salonpas and ointment to ease the pain..(: on the whole, working is really not an easy task la,, haha, earning money, doesnt have a shortcut, just like acing the exams..w/o studying, no point hoping for high grades..lol

2009-11-18T21:54:00.003+08:00

waaaahhhhh.... I had a tough day today... bt it all went fine.. after i cried the hardest, it made me feel better.. bt it wouldhave been better if i had someone to talk to..bt, i guess, i wont be able to break my feelings without crying... I just dont want to show people the uncool side of me..hehe

hm, well,, today watched "you're beautiful"!! OMG! its a really v good story!(: SHINWOO is super handsome!ahaha! bt.. i like Tae Kyung more!OMG! were actually the same! he's also allergic to prawns!!nyahaha! bt mine is not so serious la.. i didnt know shellfish cn also make your lungs collapse.. :/ bt anyway, i like shinwoo's manliness, i mean i really dont know lah, bt couldhave he figured out alr tht Go mi nam is a girl? wah, if not he's like,, a gay?!nyah! bt i think he figured out alr la, just tht he dont say..ahhh!! i wanna watch more! im still at ep 6!(:

say... finding a job is really tough ya.. especially if you're residing in a foreign country, not your own race.. it had been hard for me since my years here.. coz its always the nationality problem.. In school, the same case.. I cant even get closer to my friends because I dont understnd a single word they converse in chinese..its kinda sad..and i always have felt lonely not knowing more abt thm,, & its kinda hurting being stabbed at your back without evn knowing... (i dont know)... bt i have never known my friends better,, i wish if only i can understand thm better.. :(

secondly, this job thingy, whn they spoke of nationality, it gets on my nerves,, it was like 4th time ive been rejected bcoz of nationality problem... bt i cant do anything, isit like wrong being born like this?.. if only.. if only i knew how to spoke their language.. T-T so i was like thinking this early aftrnoon, while boarding on the mrt,, b4 meeting hei mun,, how exciting to be working with someone you know atleast,, i was too happy back thn... i thought if we both found a job, we cn have fun aftrwards,, i could try the arcade she've been asking me to try.. we cn eat yami yougurt all we want,, bt things just always doesnt go your way...

well, we've went to this store she told me abt, both of us were being brave to ask...LOL! normally i would be very shy one, bt not this time, since i really wanna get a job..haha, i thought it was the same for her.. so i was kinda dissapointed whn the counter thre interruptd me, just to speak in chinese.. so both mun and her talked and talked.. mun signed a job application,, why the heck did she asked me still if i want or not?! ofcourse evn if i want to i wont be able to work there!! I feel like kinda a bother, as if like i would say no, and decide for her.. i think its not also right... so i was kinda holding back, saying its fine.. evn though i felt like breaking down while seeing her signing the application form.. T-T damn... really if only, this nationality thingy wont come to surface, this wouldnt have happened... T-T

so back thn i was not thinking tht straight, i was not myself, it didnt evn reachd an hour, and we both went home.. She still asked me to got find job thre, bt i told her nt to bother alr... ahh!jinja!
say.. the only reason i wanna work there though its far bcoz atleast i would have some company.. now tht she's not with me..wht for?.. Im left alone..sigh,, i wonder if she cared for me evn juz once? i wonder if she understood how i felt? it was terrible, i felt like i have been abandoned, or sth, aftr she had achieved her goal... say, tht's why I like Tae Kyung! were like the same...haha(:

bt aftr having much thought,, i knew tht she also felt sad for me..and tht i hope.. ya, 'dongsaeng', mian! tht time i couldnt evn reply or speak properly, i felt as if i was devasted or sth... aftr seeing you secure a job alr, while i still dont have.. i felt kinda envious.. and also sad tht you weren't there for me always.. LIFE is really harsh, sometimes people like me have to endure it, and stand up agn by herself without the help of others.. Its just fate tht i have been born different as you, I'll just take it as a challenge!(': so it was really weird tht time, we werent talkin to each othr, we talked abt the show bt it ended soon, obviously, evn though she tried making the atmosphere abit lively, it wont change.. Bt thankful tht she's trying, i still could smile abit evn though in such a situation...(:

Tmr, will be different frm all the days!! its the start of my real-life struggle!! hope i'd learn fast and do a great job for my 1st day!(:

2009-11-16T21:23:00.002+08:00

too much tolerance kills... im burning inside, i just wanna cry..bt i keep holding it inside..

inside and outside the house.. its all the same..

2009-11-14T20:06:00.002+08:00

"just dont ever wear jeans or shorts when going on a job interview"

well, i just read an article abt how to dress well..well, i really dont have an idea.. Worst is, i dont evn have anything else in my warddrobe except for jeans and shorts!OMG! wht am i gonna do?!
i better ask my mom to buy me casual slacks!!!

2009-11-14T13:45:00.005+08:00

i have watched 2012. Its a cool movie,, bt im kinda dissapointed..haha, hm, not enough of the effects, and they nv show much of the aftermath, only tht africa 'cape of good hope' became the highest ground.. i think? and i've kinda figure out tht the family would survive..happy ending(: haha, bt some parts made me cry too..lol, the movie was 2hrs.27 mins.. *whew.. i ate lunch later at 1.

btw, im kinda surprised by the email tht i had received just now.. its frm the company tht i applied to for a data-entry job. Basically i was quite crazy tht time.. Yup, i enjoy typing, and it wouldnt be bad if i worked in the office for these holidays so i sent an email, asking for more details.. I THOUGHT it was already ok.. just typing in an air-conditioned office.. pressure to catch up deadlines- i also wont mind cause i got alot of time and im a fast typist!(: the pay was $5/hr. and i will be working min. of 8hrs + 1hr lunch(: so altogether i got $40 basic salary + OT if i needa stay for more work.. thts not so bad.. i have calculated my earnings by the end of 14th feb. nxt yr, and i would have $3800 not including the OT!LOL! and i was like wow, lucky!(: moreover, the company said i cn start immediately if ever IM INTERESTED, and i would kindly send my particulars to thm.. Actually, I was BUT the problem is..

ITS TOO FAR!! (Tai Seng Drive)- its at HOUGANG my dear!!!
actually its quite accesible as i cn board in an mrt directly.. and can walk staright to the building, bt wah.. troublesome man.. i needa change line atleast once!(Ok, also nt bad) bt the worst is, im boarding on a train for atleast 40mins!! its 12 stations away frm the nearest mrt here!! and all my hopes are gone! and also, i get sick oftenly frm boarding transportation for too long.. and i maybe out of energy once i get started to work.. worst is for that long hours i will be facing the computer everyday... and i fret tht my eye bags will grow bigger..and by next year i will look horrible to ever receive my results..!haha!,(i think too much)

Anw, with the advice of mom, i've given up tht offer.. I'm still goin with heimun on monday for the job offered at a human resource company.. actually whn we read the details it sounds fun and both of us got so excited whn we talked over the phone and on the msn..lol! basically, wht we're gonna do there is pack-up inventory, stock keeping, price tagging, and helping the cashier in putting the customer's goods in a plastic bag! it sounds so fun and easy!ahaha!! xD and also the pay is the same as offered above, $5/hr on weekdays and $5.50/hr on weekends..whts more?! i'd rather go with this one.. above of all they will assign us to a branch tht is very accessible from our homes..!!that's the best part! unlike the 1st offer.. They said tht they have created these jobs especially for O level students waiting for their results..and im kinda excited since both of us doesnt have experience and surely they will provide us training!(: And christmas is coming!! im sure there be lots of people! & its a nice feeling helping people in stores rather thn staying at home doing nothing.. atleast u cn feel the christmas air when you see people buying some christmas items with their happy faces..haha(: im really looking forward to this.. on monday tht is! it'll be our first time walking in a job interview.. well, its kinda scary but im sure this is a test to show our confidence abt ourselves..! i've got lots of hope for this as, they will hire atleast 150 people for this job(: we got alot of chances..!! i hope all turns out well on monday(:

2009-11-12T20:25:00.003+08:00

so ytd was the end of exams!! IM FREE!!! haha!! & ive alr finishd my game! atlast!! so satisfied!!hehe(: hm, tmr myb lookin for jobs at anchorpoint!(: job hunting!! wee~ sounds fun!ahaha! im thinking of money now.. $$$$$$$!!!

well,, hmm... really dont know leh?! i maybe rotting at home whn ive got nth to do so might as well look for jobs right?! sigh.... i wanted to work with my friends, bt tht wont be the case now.. nationality takes alot of difference between people.. it cnt be helped.. bt its ok! fate wants it to be like this, just like it wanted it to take me here....(: so there shd be a purpose why im here! i just dont know..

and i love 2pm's new song!!! super cool!(: one song is for jaebom! so sweet!(: jaebom beta come back after hearing the song!!!haha!!

i like holidays!! i got to talk to my friends everyday!! evn the friends tht nv talked to me b4! ahahaha!!! makes me wanna go home more!!! xD

2009-11-06T16:38:00.002+08:00

wahhh... im super worn out.. ya i gt a 5-day holiday and the 1st three days im goin to finish the new rpg game tht i downloaded.. 'tales of eternia' haha, its quite fun, bt exhausting to me..alot of fighting, bt the plot of story is good, and the animations inside too.. always fascinated by how they do tht, so i was really hopin tht i could get in to the course tht i want(:

so im in the progress, bt i think itll still take long b4 i fin the game.. :( since ive juz strted it ytd..haha, anw.. im always left alone at home these days, so lonely, bt being alone, i cn reflect abt myslf.. my plans in life, whn i think of it, its like a whole big thing tht awaits me thre.. i dont know..somehow, im abit lost of which path to take, coz i really dont feel like im growing up.. work? yeah.. thts wht adults do, bt come to think of it, im one of thm too..haha! things juz get ridiculous before you knw it.. xD

first of all, i will work hard, to earn money in order to go back home..well, thts wht i think as of now.. aftr O's ill definitely get a job..bt still no idea.. anything would do, since im a first-timer i dont desire for jobs tht pays alot, well im lucky if i cn find one..haha, i dont really think much abt having fun, coz its work aftrall, all i need is the money, thts the most impt(: myb my mom will help me find one! cnt wait!! cnt wait to go home! :D

sigh...............im still abit dizzy frm all the playin, mybe im takin a nap later..(:

2009-10-30T20:29:00.003+08:00

wahhh! major papers gone!! bye english emaths and amaths!!haha xD

i hope i get fairly well marks for thm!(:

& today was quite shocked.. he talked to me agn! wah.. he was talkin abt a girl..duh, whtever..
bt i din feel weird at all talking to him agn.. glad tht were still friends..lol!
anw, i cnt help bt to say he's changed alot.. he has become emo!! omfg..LOL! bt he's super urhm..ahh..cool in the pic lor!HAHA!~!! i dont reali like prasing people especially guys! so i teased him say he gained weight instead!LOL! haha! well, quite true bt in the pic i think he lost abit of his fats lah.. his face less chubby now..haha! well goodluck to him! & the so alled girl he's crazy abt,, & i was abt to laugh whn he said tht, he's being emo bcoz the girl tht he love has a bf, and she dont wanna break up with him.. wah, the girl must be 'good' enough to catch lotsa boys..
haha~ well heck care,,

& im not jealous,, NO, im not!! haha, im over it.. guess..im 18 and prefers to follow a road on my own..haha
well! i hope ill do well for the last few papers!! JIAYOU! xD

2009-09-28T21:50:00.003+08:00

sometimes i wonder wht's the true meaning of family;mom&dad.. if togetherness would only bring conflict, beating, sadness, mouthful of hellish words, lies & death threats, thn i shdnt have gone here..wht shd i do? shd i still continue? or am i going home tmr? either way, i would be happy if all of this could finally be settled..

waahh.. ive had it today.. my prelims result came out.. i was happy to passed amaths bt how cn i be happy if you two are quarelling? i knw i nv get the best results, nv did it reachd my expectations, bt i did my best.. bt this isnt my very best yet.. i hope? bt how? how to study like this? when my mom always say she's gonna die? whn my father always says "fuck you!?" cn u pls tell me you two? why are u so childish? i knw later mom will recieve a beating frm my father.. its always been like this.. and if i interrupted, i will get a slap..

im hardened.. it feels like i dont feel any pain anymore.. i see my mom cry, cry your heart out loud.. i knw later you'll stop once you're tired.. i hear my dad spurting out all the vulgarities he could think of, fine, do whtever you want, scream you lungs out until you get tired.. and i hope yu lose your voice tmr..

i really couldnt handle it anymore.. we changed house, we gt a rm mate bt its still the same, we're making a shame of ourslves infrnt of othr people.. and did i ever follow your footsteps dad?

NO! bt i think soon i will.. coz where did i come frm? it was you who created me, so its common sense tht i follow you right? i knw im quiet and i will nv do all those things, bt who says? who cares? and as if you cn read othr peoples minds? if i can kill i would! yes! i will do it! for better or for worse.. you just need to keep goin on and hit the limit of my patience..

i didnt know you smoke? is it tht nice? wht's nice abt it? liquor? i knw i dont like it bt why is it tht it tastes good to you? shd i try and be addicted to it too? oh pls.. tell me, do u ever want your kids to be like this? my sister cnnot do anything bt to talk back and cry.. evn she couldnt evn fight back so effetctively..

i tell you, if you do this to us, u'll regret in the end.. yes, you feed us, you provide us nice things.. food. YES! everything! bt where's the love tht we needed the most? we needed your presence!

so pls. stop drinking and smoking alr.. and come back to us.. dont make my mom cry agn, or slap her whn you're drunk..coz its hurting us, ur family.. tht you're nt here, u're making a fool of yourself, shaming yourself, & u're making your health evn worse..

do you knw why my patience nv snaps? bcoz i always forgive.. tht's wht my grandma taught me.. learn to forgive.. yes, i forgive you because you're my father.. so forgive us too if we're too persistent in emphasizing this to you.. bcoz we just dont wanna lose you.. i dont wanna lose a father agn.. now tht we're all whole agn.. as a family..

I LOVE YOU MOM & DAD! so dont fight alr! :'(

2009-09-19T23:03:00.002+08:00

ITS MY STRUGGLE!

im currently captivated by.......
REQUIEM OF PHANTOM!lol..
i dunno why,, altho its quite
violent... killng people...no reason
why you are living, giving up
your life to someone by becoming
a tool.. a puppet, someone who'll
be trashed aftr being used..
well, this is really,, the plot is really
amazing! i really love this anime!(:

zwei/reiji is sooo handsome!!ahaha!
anw, i really like ein! she's so unique!(:

well, i know its exam time..bt im
trying my best(: gambateh! sigh, if
only i cn pass my amaths!ILL BE
MORE THAN HAPPY!get it?!haha,
reali putting my 101% studying for it!
if i cnt achieve wht i want,, "mybe studies
is not really a thing for me.." quoted
frm kenneth!LOL!

reading my previous archives, i just
realize tht most of thm are from sch & my
friends... time is running fast & time will
come we'll choose different paths..i knw
that time, itll hurt.. bt we juz needa keep
goin on, and cherish all the moments we
are hving tgt..(:

2009-08-26T22:53:00.001+08:00

wow, my blog is revived! xD haha, rejoice!LOL!
90 days span & its been sittin inside
the rubbish bin for a month now,, and i saved it!
thanks to me!haha(:
memories stay,thanks to kate for reminding me!(:
sometimes im really out of my mind...

hm, wht..super many things happend, im reali having
fun though super tired frm sch.. and im losing weight
like AGAIN! T-T
i realised the apple i digested juz now wasnt evn
digested!! myb the reason why i nv gain weight..sigh,

i miss posting! nxt time agn! ^^

2009-07-18T22:06:00.006+08:00

hm, had fun today! celebrated mandy's bday!
the food was really good! haha, esp. the cake!
YUMYUM! :D we played games.. chat(: i hope
she enjoyed her advanced bday! & thanks to
her dad & mum for preparing some delicious
food!(:

& today, cassan & i went to cut hair..!LOL, i
juz watched her while her hair was being cut,,
she's more gorgeous in her new hairstyle now!
*envy T-T & i knw she's v happy abt it now!lol
well.,, anw, i also wanna thank her for making
my day(: I LOVE GREEN TODAY!haha,
yellow dont be upset..Okie?hahaha!

& i also watch harry potter 6! great! awesome!
it was reali nice to watch! i watchd it online
though...nt as nice as in cinemas, bt thts enough
for me..i realised tht these days i need to save
money...haha(:

2009-07-16T22:32:00.005+08:00

wow, and i just received this email, askin if i
know friends who needs a part time job at NASAspace
tech.. with $800-$1200 a month! OMG!
& i am eligible lor! '91 born, 18 yrs of age.
work 2-3 days a week. 4-5 hrs.

and im just thinking now.. i need money so
badly, im in horrible debts.. T-T & my family
needs money so badly too.. & were movin', this time
its kinda sure bt my dad hve to discuss it with
the rest...

& air and water solutions... like kinda interesting
to me..i think its dealin with resources & environmental
managemnt... AHHH!! & ive never been in a job b4 ok!
juz whn i read it im thinkin of he interview alr!
like a few days ago the extrnal trainer taught us!LOL!

bt prelims in less thn 40 days.. T-T and next is olvl,
english oral is drawing near too.. juz how am i suppose
to manage my time well..i must be out of my mind to
really get myself into this job thingy..more over i hve
no experience at all! oh, ya.. it nv said anything abt experience,
& NASAspace tech hor!! juz wht kind of job wd thy
provide to a person w/o exprience,.. bt its quite high
paying huh.... anw, maybe its juz a spam..

bt i was really moved by the amt of money!
whn i saw it i was $$$$$$!!!! lol, mybe im juz excited abt
getting a job...haha! esp. if u really like the job!
like exploring things! quite cool!! & high paying too!!

juz wht im thinking now.. suddenly popped out of my
mind! SHOPPING!!!haha, kinda reminded me of cassan~!
yup! someday we'll be able to!haha(:

well, anw, i shd strive hard for my O's! so tht
i cn get an evn higher paying job like the email offered!lol

2009-07-11T13:00:00.013+08:00

hm, i so long nv post alr!haha, its gd to be back!LOL!
my week is full of outings...like evry aftr sch also
go out!hahha, bt it was all fun!!!

anw, sooo many things happend..

like buying cassan's present b4 her bday,

cassan's bday at sch(: nv get to celebrate proprly

though, bt hope she had fun!(:

HAPPY BELATED 16TH BIRTHDAY CASSAN!

like career readiness program.. my career

is sth investigative.. hm, i sorta like luh.. anw,

im not reali sure wht to take yet..

& last sat went to yuanyi's house to make

mun's card..!it was fun!haha, her house damn big &

nice!!! :D hm, window-shopped at illuma, bugis too

..super tired., some pics at yuanyi's house(:

& i was wearin the mickey mouse shirt cassan

gave me!

weee~! thn i got anothr shirt agn, its a red sporty

sleeveless!

haha(: all thanks to cassan agn!(: i shall post a pic

someday! coz its sexy!nyahaha!

& ytd celebrated heimun's bday in advance

went to vivo..(: the surprise was successful!

had fun reali! haha,

HAPPY 16th BDAY HEIMUN!(:

& it was the 1st time for me to do jumpshots!i love

doin it!its very fun!haha!(:

the rest of the pics are in fb, lazy to upload

thm all,haha

& aftr tht went to tuition..lol, plane geometry

is also a pain to the teachers thre..haha,

its damn difficult sia.. so me & mun spend 2hrs

juz to fin 3 qns!LOL! thts how difficult it is!

sigh..

anw, i hope i got the mood to do hws later...

2009-06-29T20:41:00.003+08:00

so today sch was fine...

normal lessons...

recently ive been v happy bcoz of this one person..

haha(:

watchd mnet scandal nickhun! super sweet!

was watching hotblood too!!haha, super funny!

& wooyoung is super cute!!

hope tmr will be fine!

2009-06-27T18:05:00.009+08:00

reply to mandy(:
uhm, 1st of all, i feel kinda shocked to see ur tag, haha..was not reali expecting tht.. actually i had forgotten abt this issue alr bt since its brought up agn..well i guess i need to have a say..haha(:
did u found out abt tht small 'thing' tht i wrote?lol, anw, i was like kinda annoyed tht time.. i was super confused whether to accept it or not,abt tht swimming thing..coz the time mun& cassan told me abt the marina barrage tht im excluded for tht outing, i was clueless on who frm the three of u told tht.. so i was thinkin..hmm, "gwen, yuanyi or mandy?" ofcourse mun&cassan said none of thm told tht, and i think they wont tell me whom evn though i asked repeatedly..haha, so i din bother to do tht..
so about the swimming thing i tried to reject coz i was scared tht "wht if the 5 of u there show up?" "wht would tht person say abt me?" Its coz usually whn u ask me out too the 5 of u are also there right? I knew tht i would feel out place lah, so i made up a lie..im sorry... i juz dun wanna mess up your friendship tht i felt i alr did whn i start goin out with you guys.. reali sorry!!! i must be reali crazy ya, i shdnt have done tht in the 1st place..&now i learnt my lesson..
& the funny thing is tht.. since u invited me abt tht swimming, i was thinkin tht u cnt be the one who told tht i shdnt be in tht marina barrage outing, coz u still want me to go out with u guys ma,, bt it appeared tht it was you..!haha so i was like eyeing on yuanyi coz myb she really felt tht im alr replacing her so she said tht.. gwen? i got no strong reason.. hm,, myb coz i always joke her tht she's slow?haha! bt she wont react so strongly based on tht lah..hahaha!!
& thanks for telling me tht! now i have no confusion or whtsoever.. btw, i cnt help to be upset tht time too le,, like whn the two of thm (cassan & mun) told me abt tht unfortunate thing for me.. its coz i was alr expecting for tht leh.. i evn saved my best for tht outing you knw! its so funny tht, the time we were meetin' to buy presents for the band investiture thts goin to be held few days later, i didnt even ate lunch with thm lor.., i forced myslf to eat at home in advance coz i was saving my money for tht outing.. & it sounded to me tht we were goin to a high-class place,, lol.. cassan alr had shared some things abt tht marina barrage..i was super excited ley.. bt thn it was like a bomb tht juz exploded inside me whn thy told me tht i wasnt evn included in it.. i was so foolish to evn put tht effort to save..haha, & some more thy kept sayin sorry to me & was abt to cry.. sigh, the atmosphere remained heavy on me & i really felt tht i was so pitiful leh..
i juz wanna ask tht if you're gonna invite me, i hope its final.. if i wernt suppose to be there,its fine for me if u never invite me..ofcourse i also understand wht u are feeling.. bt u alr invited me few days b4 tht outing, ofcourse i also cnt help to expect & be excited la.. & was only told off few days b4 tht..& tht hurts man..
& if u knew it was weird tht i was there, thn why did u still invite me? like in the healthzone? & the othr ikea outings as well.. i juz wanna ask..hehe, actually i was also quite shocked whn u strted inviting me in.. & ofcourse i cnt help to feel uncomfortable bein with the 5 of u esp. in the healthzone.. i tried my best to mix ard you & yuanyi and not only mix with mun&cass coz im usually with thm mah,, coz it juz defeats the purpose of me being there right? if id only mix with thm and not all of you.. haha, bt yup its hard for me too..bt all i was thinkin tht time, "slowly id get to know y'all too" w/c is kinda impossible now..haha
so i was also in the wrong to accept ur invitations & go out with u guys, it was only because mun&cass tht i wanna go out,,i also brought up this issue to thm tht if i go id be so out of place..bt mun say "nvm,ill talk to you" & cassan say "if u nv go, ill nv talk to u anymore" LOL! so i thought its fun tht i gt a company evn tho i go out with the 5 of u(:
bt also on the othr hand, i never regret accepting it! i really thought it was fun being with the 5 of u, i felt reali happy being in a circle of friends too! esp. of diff. race as me & its kinda unique,, thanks for lettin me experience it(:
& im sorry to yuanyi too.. i bet she really felt like tht.. myb y'all thinkin now tht its bcoz yuanyi always cnnot make it on the outings tht i take advantage to take her place.. its not like tht...really.. im not stupid.. evn tho i really tried doin tht, I will never be the same as yuanyi ya'll knew.. yuanyi is much more better thn me!! haha, and im sure the 5 of u would choose a very close friend instead of a stranger u juz knew, right?haha, so im not a replacement,, not evn worth a replacement..haha, really so sorry for these misunderstandings..
and thanks ya for makin it clearer to me..thanks for evrythin'! & SO SORRY TOO! & whn i said abt tht small writing, im not angry.. i was juz upset coz im reali confused tht time..haha, pls. dont misunderstnd..okie?!(:
haha, PEACE! ^^V
i think i wrote quite alot..lol, bt hope u wont get tired reading it..haha(:

2009-06-26T21:04:00.003+08:00

its damn chaotic at home now.. T-T my mind cnt be settled with this house issue thingy
ard the family..
well, ytd night heard my mom & dad argue abt it.. i cnt slp lor, they're too noisy..
anw,, its coz gt conflict between my parents and uncle&auntie..
the issue tht they dont want to be with us alr as housemates coz their relatives will soon be here, and itll be overcrowded for us to stay..
well, tht's wht my mum told me bt not sure reali if my auntie told tht luh.. i dont think so.. recently my auntie was super good to us lor.. esp me!haha, she
keep givin me food!like evry aftrnoon as snacks!(: & i was thinkin tht time, how i wish evrythime it would be like this!!haha.. i reali dont want to be separated frm thm lor.. they're like
family to me too! & now tht ive gotten closer to their daughter!haha, w/c is super heavy & naughty!lol, nv thought i'll like kids ths much lor..haha

so i think their minds are alr settled were movin.. bt to where? tht i dont know just yet..
bt if we were moving.. we need to update all!! our address in our ICs, internet and phone connections! so many things lor!& tht needs money man! & were short of tht!.. oh no.. &
somemore itll be hard to adjust.. why cnt we just like stay leh..bt thy say its too expensive le..
sigh.. ahhh!! i feel like i wanna work alr lor! i must faster graduate and find a gd job! this wont be a big problm alr by thn..so like we would be staying here for until end of july thn we move,, with new housemates and new daily life agn! we must be flexible ar!

so today i was like spendin my day with my mom..haha, we went to alot of places today
& talk abt anythin tht comes to our mind..lol, like the house thingy lor.. she too is super
against dad who wants to move,, sigh..i really dun wanna leave this house ley..

we also talked abt my childhood which is unlikely, & i keep laughin man!! haha, coz we saw this kid who's super naughty, with his mom chasing aftr him!lol!
thn i asked my mom,coz she too was lookin at tht kid.. i said, "the time whn i was a kid, whn a small piece of styro foam ball went inside my nose, were u mad at me?" haha actually i only heard this frm my grandma coz she always shares stories abt my childhood and mom., so she answered. "i was super mad at you ok!, i was so worried tht time coz we cnt evn afford a surgery to get tht small piece of styro out of ur nose!" thn i kept laughing lor!the way she said was
super funny!hahaha! & u knw wht, whn i asked how did she get tht thing out of my nose,, she said she used a HAIRPULLER & fish for it! thn i was like laughin like hell coz it was damn big to fit inside my small nose!bt she said my nose were big enough tht time! lol!! xD

I LOVE MOM! haha(:

so im like having diarrhea now coz i attempted to drink milk in desperation to get fat!lol! coz my mom advised me tht if i drink tht, ill get fat like dad, so i tried luh..knowin id be fine bt im not! & my stomach is super upset now! T-T ahhhh!!!
so i guess, i wont be able to fin my emaths..sigh, tmr i shall be doin chemistry! i still got 1 set of amaths..ahh!! im super damn lazy now can.. aftr knowin frm cassan they juz gave us emaths paper for prctice..haha, i also think thy wont check lor..

& today i was plannin to do amaths bt since heimun din wanna come for tuition today,, i also damn lazy to do..haha! wonder if she gt caught any prawns? she's so hyper, she juz swam ytd for like the whole aftrnoon & now she was out prawning!lol, such stamina,haha

anw,, i hope this house thingy will be settled alr! & i wanna pay a visit to our house of choice soon!lol!

2009-06-24T18:00:00.004+08:00

& ive just fin capturing "A Thousand Miles" by
Vanessa Carlton agn! aftr like 2 yrs? haha.. last
time i played was '07(:

pls. watch it here -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GM3_1TXQiL8

the quality is bad though, coz i captured it thru
my 3.2 megapix phone.. i'll capture and upload
the yiruma's medley soon! if im still alone at home
tmr! haha(: & if the batteries of my pop's cam's
alr charged! i love 2pm for the day!(: <3333333

& HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NICKHUN!!! :D

2009-06-23T19:09:00.010+08:00

TADA! thanks to cassan for givin me this shirt!hehe(:
lol, juz now she was persuading me to wear straightaway
haha, bt i dont wanna wear infrnt of thm..like soo obscene
T-T haha, so now i wanna share this picture as a proof
tht it fits me!haha, coz they din belive it'll fit me,, since
i knew myslf well, it did fit me ok! reali thanks to cassan!(:

well, heimun & cassan went to my house today.. thought
they nv will coz it was quite late alr,, bt surprise me
they still did(: & thanks to cassan agn for removing my
nail polish!haha(: it was reali cool man! i mean "cooling"
its a volatile liquid aftrall..haha

so i was reali embarrassed coz they starightaway go to
my rm! cnt help it coz my sis's friends are outside..lol
anw, my rm is super duper messy! & i juz tried out 4
sets of amaths alr! ofcourse still some qns still left
undone.. sigh.. i wanna fin the 5th set tmr! FIGHTING!

well nth much, i bet i reali missed those two,, aftr like
indulging myself to hws.. its reali dull having to do ur
hws everyday.. & the section outing was postponed bt
was reali lookin forward to it though.. :(

my sister is still out,, went for PL meeting with her
scout friends..sigh,, ytd was quite fun coz we were
watching anime tgt, called "special A" its reali a nice
funny and romantic anime..haha! xD bt now she went
agn & im so alone..hope tmr she wont be goin out!
haha! LOL, her friends were reali nice,, haha! coz the
time they came in i was playing piano..so i played
the medley ive been practicing for days.. (: they were
the 1st to hear it except for my family and housemates
haha,, still prcting on how to put more emotions on it(:

btw, i reali hope MOE can extend our holidays....

2009-06-22T20:43:00.004+08:00

& my sister came back!!yay!!
haha(: wow.. today is really
tiring man... ths morning i juz
fin watch 2pm idol show s3!!
haha, i cant believe jaebom's
present lor!!haha xD & woo
young got his boxers!!hahaha!!
actually juz deserves him!LOL!

coz one time he gt forfeit in a
game thn he wore the jandi's sch
uniform!! & he was actually
wearing panty there!ahahaha!!
whn i rmb kept laughin to myslf
lor..haha!! xD

anw, today finally tried out 3 sets
of amaths! super tiring man.. i was
doin for like 6 hrs! thts for
1 set only ok! i hope i cn fin all my
hws soon...

wht was tht just now.. t'was the 1st time i make
up a silly reason like tht... just how'd u feel aftr
knowin tht u're out, thn now inviting you back
in? i feel stupid..

2009-06-20T21:15:00.005+08:00

oh no... we got one month more to
stay in our house... T-T wonder
where will we move lor?..

my pa say gonna find house in
woodlands,, bt isnt it too far away?
ahhh!! dun wanna leave le.. its v
near to sch & my tuition cntre..
i hope the owner cn make our stay
longer...bt this house is v old alr..
i think thy will demolish alr lor..
like our last time house at alexandra..

sigh.. i hope we cn find a nice &
cheap house at tiong.. troublesome
leh..needa clean-up and arrange agn..

btw, 2pm idol show s3 is damn nice
and funny man!!haha, i was crzy
laughing infrnt of my laptop! they are
vv cute!haha(:
& saw Suju's goodbye perf! ahhh!!
will miss them!!

& i miss my sister too.. faster come
back alr la!

2009-06-19T22:51:00.003+08:00

haha! i juz saw kate's recent pics!
she's officially college alr!! T-T im
happy for her.. BS Biology!cool!!
im also quite sad,, i shd be thre at
her sch too! if only i nv left.. thn
she some more say she'll be stayin
in a dorm! cool!! i really wanted
to stay w/ my friends too!! T-T

last time i would visit to the dorm
of my cousin one!haha, its simple
bt its kinda unique seeing different
things in one side of the corner..
coz he's sharing rm with his friends..
haha(: i juz knew tht she's strong
in her sciences..lol, im also kinda
strong i guess? haha, i reali
wanna pursue courses tht would
relate to science!(:

sigh.. b4 i shd think of tht,, i think i
shd do well in O's first thn it will
determine w/c course suits me.. i reali
have to work hard.. & I NEED TO
FINISH MY HOLIDAY HW 1ST!!
haha,, so many leh.. i din evn fin 1
am ws during tuition with mun.. :(
sigh..

anw,, i saw her nails too!LOL, she
changed colour last time it was light
grn, now its greyish..haha(: actually
the nail polish kinda reminded me of
her so i decided to try out myself..
though it was so unlikely me.. if i
show off to her, i think she'll be shock?
haha! xD bt i think i scratchd portions
alr so nt nice to show off alr..haha

sigh.. i miss her damn lots.....

2009-06-19T13:39:00.006+08:00

haha.. ytd.. ytd was.. ahhh!!! ok..

went out with mun & cassan to watch movie(:
met cassan at tiong bahru mrt, LOL!
her contacts drop off!haha, so she wear her
specs..lol met mun at doby gaut mrt, lol..
if only i got a skirt bt i dont have T-T so i was
v odd wearing skinny jeans!lol! so ya, off to
plaza sing..

atfrst i thought it was ice age3/ monster vs alien
whtever ws tht.. bt thn both of thm alr plan to
watch the 'drag me to hell'' without me knowing it!
so i was like *sht didnt i promised myself alr not
to watch any horror movie? i got a long term
impact in it - a few days of insomia,, so because
they reali wanna watch it.. both of thm, i hd
no choice bt to watch it with thm too.. sigh..

so we smuggled food,, haha as usual.. heimun
brought snacks lor! she reali prepared for it!haha!
in the end i was like the one who fin it!LOL! so it
was damn scary.. T-T

ahh.. ok dont wanna elaborate abt it coz i dont
wanna rmb it alr..ok!

so in the end my $7 plus was quite wasted!LOL!
bt i kinda enjoy watching mun & cassan's expression
while watching the movie lor..! haha, it was kinda
awkward bt mun was like covering her ears while
leaning to my shoulders, i was covering my eyes
with my hand while looking down at the chips and
cassan was covering her mouth with her scarf!LOL!
all of us covering different parts of our face!haha!!

gt one time mun was so scared of the thunder tht
she banged her head so hard to my shoulder!LOL!
so pain!haha, lol, the sound effects was super
scary alr! how much more the actual vid of it?!
whew.. gd thing i reali nv watchd those scary parts..
or else itd be weeks or evn months of insomia
for me.. haha, cassan was holding my hand,, we
were like squeezing each othrs hands so hard coz
of the sound effects its damn loud!! juz imagine a
scene like a plane crashing!LOL! all of the
passengrs ofcourse sure hold their hands tgt!

gt times whn thy all laugh, heimun evn laugh
until she cried O.o bt it was overall super scary lor..
the plot.. for me lah..ahh! ok as i said i dont wanna
rmb..

so in the end of the movie, cassan say tht she's
hittin mun's sister 4ever!coz her sister say its nt
tht scary,, thn i asked mun if her sister reali watchd
the movie, mun say she only watchd the trailer!
thn i was like -.-" burstin out of laughtr knowing tht!
haha! i reali thought her sister watchd the movie!

& all of us hd different reactns of the movie.. ofcourse
me, wht im reali scared of is horror movies so my
reaction is normal.. it impacted me the most T-T
cassan say she's never gonna watch horror movie
agn, haha!! learnt her lesson! xD while mun said
it was exciting and nice! O.o" haha

so aftr tht we went to arcade to dstress.. lol,, played
mario cart game, photohunt, and the stuff toy one..
went to stores and yep went home(:

whn i went home, i was so thankful tht my aunt is
at home!haha! so i was reali plannin to stay up late
so i went chattin with my friends til 12am plus..
haha, i had a fun chat with cassan(: & my cousin
too!! and my othr native friends..haha(:

i slept with my mum, and dad.. haha, bt ended up i
also couldnt sleep proprly coz my mom kept movin
and my dad kept snoring..lol.. so i had a max. 5 hrs
of slp!haha

i think tht's all later, will be goin for tuition with mun,
ja'ne! & yup! i changed my blogskin agn coz the
prvious one, the theme was alr distorted..

2009-06-15T21:17:00.003+08:00

hm, okay.. ytd, went to church w/ my
family..haha

oops bt b4 tht, the day aftr i successfully
had my patapon 2! ahahahahaha!!!
LOL! the trick was only change the UMD
mode in the select button! bt i gt
upgrade my cfw..bt anw,, my psp din
brick!thank heavens!!haha(:

anw, patapon's reali a cute and nice game!!
haha, i enjoy pressing the buttons in
the correct rhythm!(:

btw, went to church & HAPPY BELATED
FATHER'S DAY to pops! :D aftr tht
went to orchard to buy my sis's shoes for
scouts...

walked to plaza sing! super
tiring! hm, was suppose to have a new
shorts bt in the end i never T-T & there's
this FIESTA PHILIPPINES held there..
wonder if tht's the event heimun was
talkin abt tht was held in chinatown the
other day too!haha,, actually its quite fun
there bt we din take long..

we also went
into this ETUDE HOUSE inside!!haha, all
korean cosmetics etc. JANG GEUN SUK
caught my eye!lol! so the korean promoter
there was super friendly! gave us this cute
pen!haha(: we bought a liquid manicure?!
dunno how to call tht, bt its super cute!haha
pink was the one we found the nicest &
the cheapest so we bought it! & i juz
painted my nails awhile ago..lol, i wonder
how im gonna remove this whn sch starts!
lol, there's these freebees too frm tht store,
a pimple cream & foam cleanser!haha!

aftr tht we went to suntec city to meet dad
there..

SUNTEC CITY! we took by mrt so we
needa walk to the citylink there,, super
tiring! thn reachd suntec city! 1st stop-
YAMI YOUGURT! nyahahaha! xD so
i bought the jumbo one for me & my sis!
and a medium one for my mom! super
nice!!! been long since i last ate!

aftr finding dad we went to eat at pepper
lunch! the JAPANESE CURRY RICE W/
CHICKEN was damn superb!! i love it!
haha! & its kinda weird though, coz u need
to cook your own dish once they served it..
i mean like turn it over coz the meat is
still uncooked..its like a steamboat bt nt
reali more like a sizzling plate.. damn
scrumptious x100!!

thn aftr tht we went to this
so called PC show,, its the biggest
computer and entertainment sale..
OMG! there were so
many people lor! i kept hugging my
mom so tht i wont be lost!haha!
so we walked and walked and see and
see, i saw a cool headphone!bt again they
juz ignored me..
haha, so my dad bought a white laptop
for 1000+ o.O as expected frm a gadget
enthusiast.. & i cnt believe tht he's giving
it to my sister! T-T

so i was super dissapointed lor..haha,
my sister gt her shoes,, & she gt a new
laptop! while i din get my shorts &
headphone too! T-T sigh ok, whtever..haha!
bt i got my patapon! im contented!LOL!
& i gt my own laptop alr too!haha,
yup its the old one, bt gd thing tht we don
share alr!coz its bothersme whn one of
us wants to use at the same time..

so tmr,, i have to do HW! i reali reali
have to alr! AHHHHH!!!!

2009-06-13T18:05:00.006+08:00

pata-pata-pata-pon.. pata-pata-pata-pon.. pata-pata-pata-pon..

pata-pata-pata-pon.. pata-pata-pata-pon.. pata-pata-pata-pon..

pata-pata-pata-pon.. pata-pata-pata-pon.. pata-pata-pata-pon..

pata-pata-pata-pon.. pata-pata-pata-pon.. pata-pata-pata-pon..

pata-pata-pata-pon.. pata-pata-pata-pon.. pata-pata-pata-pon..

I WANT MY PATAPON!!
i need a highr cfw!!!!!
bt i dont wanna risk
brickin my psp!NOOOO!!!

or shd i buy the UMD disc?!
ahh!! bt its $50 over leh!
T_T

patapon...

i want my patapon now!!

2009-06-12T21:22:00.002+08:00

whew! tmr shall be the day ill be
focusing on my hws!!!ahhhhhh!!!
HWAITING!!!hehe

well today..hm, ive thought of doin
hw, bt thn i rmbd tht i got tuition
today, so i took time to slp 1st b4
goin.. haha, moved the 3pm slot to
5pm with mun(:

well.. ive learned sth today i guess!
haha, the guy teacher was reali v
gd lor!haha, i cn perfectly undrstnd
his teachings! beta thn kenneth
and anyone else!lol! anw,,

me & mun were talking abt b-days
juz now,, coz a special someone's
bday is coming-up!(: dont tell who...
haha,, so we ended up reciting all
the b-dates we know..bt out of all
of thm,, i cnt believe tht it was my
birthday tht she cant rmb!lol, atfrst
i thought she was only joking la, so i
was also messing up her b-date., bt
it was too long alr and still she coudnt
guess my b-day right,, lol! i thought
she was still joking bt it was for real!
LOL! her eyes told me how desperate
she was finding the correct date T-T
lol! & i was like "oh no, u must be
kidding me!" haha!!

the one i consider my closest friend
forgot my birthday T-T so i was super
sad coz it was quite true,, & those
past bdays tht ive never received any-
thing frm her proved tht she reali
dunno which date on oct. is my bday!
lol,, thn i was thinking.. no wonder....
lol, i was super excited waiting 4 a
present on my bday the last time, bt it
was my 16th and 17th bday tht i nv
receivd anything frm anyone..haha,,
i was quite dissapointed luh... myb coz
i was still acting like a child the last
time- expecting to receive gifts...
bt on my 17th i wasnt reali expecting
tht much alr,, so i wasnt surprised if
no one ever gave me anything on my
bday..

& the quiz i took on facebk also proves
tht my b-day is uncommon 3.5% frm
the world shares same bday as mine!
haha, myb also nt true la,, bt anw,
like as it says.. mybe my bday isnt reali
worth remembering... or is hard to rmb..
lol, except for my mom, tht is(: my dad
doesnt rmb :( my sis knws!haha

well, i was still thankful tht out of the
tries she took just now,, she still mde the
correct guess in the end(: yup! my bday
is 6th october!she do know my age quite
well,, its my 18th bday this yr...sigh,,,
sooo fast... i dont wanna grow old so fast!
& mayb i was just too upset tht i said tht
she totally forgot my bday..

she did rmb in fact..haha(: '07, on my
16th bday, she gave me a hand-made
card with heechul's sticker!lol, coz she
knw last time i still like heechul frm suju
bt now ive switchd to eunhyuk alr!haha
BUT she gave me during late november
alr...haha, it was super late tht i was so
surprised,, whn she gave me a piece of
card burnt at its sides with purple and
green threads tht lie just beside the big
happy 16th bday heading infrnt... and
ofcourse with the heechul sticker at the
bottom...haha,, it was reali unexpected
since who would think tht he/she would
still receive a birthday card which is like
a month later thn the actual day..?
haha! she's always the latest aftrall..(:

on my 17th bday,, she gave me anothr
handmade card.. weeks aftr my birthday!
haha! if i rmb,, it was a cake with 17
candles drawn infrnt... so she reali nv did
4get my bday evn though she hands
me her greetings late..haha

& why did i made this such a big deal
whn i knw tht she gt short term memory
loss?haha, ya she's v forgetful,, evn
the most scariest movie she just watchd
would be forgotten just a day aftr o.O

haha, bt anw,, wht ive saved for the
outing tht wasnt granted for me,, would
be better used for othr purposes!haha,
for tht special someone's bday!! coming
soon!(:

2009-06-11T21:47:00.031+08:00

today was band investiture.. i had fun!!!!
really..haha,, quite sad also..coz it was
the last day im holding my post as an SL..

last time i used to think i dun
deserve it, to be SL.. so i kept on
throwing the badge to
to heimun,, coz she was supposed
to be the SL bt she was the librarian
alr, so i was chosen as a default..

bt anw, it was an experience! i just
realised how lucky i am to receive those
kind of responsibility..its a v seldom
opportunity!!

this saying is really true

"u'll never realise how important a
thing is, 'til its gone"

thts how im feeling now..haha, bt im
still happy, tht i've come this far!(:

officially im gonna say byebye~ to my
SL badge which is now in hongmeng's
hand!s! CONGRATZ HONGMENG!!
i knw you'll do a great job!! and to
WENHUI also!! -the assist. SL! hehe,
brother& sister teamwork!so flute
section shd be in good hands now!(:

I WILL MISS MY FLUTE SECTION!!
they are soooo sweet!! they had made the
so called 'traditional' gift for the seniors!
during the investiture ceremony.. haha, a
scrapbook and a hand-made designed
shirt!!(: it was super nice!!! T-T thy really
had put in hard work to make it perfect fr
us!(: i was so touchd!! the scrapbk was
wonderful!! haha, the shirt was super
funny! bt ya, its traditional..i nv thought
thy would repeat wht we did last yr!haha,
i was super touchd tht i wana laugh whn
i saw the design, bt at the sametime i
wanna cry too!! bt tears just wont come
out.. my eyeducts hd dried up frm 'over-crying' the past
few days... im so upset til now..bt anw, i have to move on..
i will nv know tht person anw..

ANW!! bck to topic! the performances were
great!(: though i knw it was done last-min!
hehe, hm wht else.. i wanna thank hui geok
too!! for the present she gave me!(: i really
like yellow!hehe, thanks alot! (:
& btw, i wanna thank all my section
membrs!

heimun- ok, were the same batch!haha, bt
u are still my senior since you taught me whn
i was a freshman in band during sec2! haha,
w/o u i'd be nowhere as an SL..
though u knw it alr, i still wanna thank you!

hongmeng- though we nv reali talk alot, u've
been such a great help as my assist SL the
past '08-'09(: you're the strongest player
in the section! keep it up! hope you'll take
gd care of the section for me! and goodluck
for being SL!(:

xiujing- my 2nd flute partner for the past
2yrs!hehe(: i knw ive been stressed bcoz of
this girl a few times,, bt she's the type tht nv
gives up so easily!& im amazed by hr spirit!
she always gt the determination(: she's sweet
too!(: i will miss the times we laugh tgt! &
gdluck for being the head of librarian now!
i knw heimun's nt there alr to assist you, bt
be strong! i knw u cn do it!(:

wenhui- let's go out prawning someday!!!(:
hehe, shall be soon! yay!! i will miss eating
section lunch with you!! since you liked
prawn mee!! which.. i reali dont like.. haha,
coz gt my allergies..haha! i will miss laughin
to ur jokes!!haha, how u joke ur brother
hongmeng!!lol!! hahaha! be a gd oboist!!&
assist. flute/oboe SL!(:

gina- haha, i dont know if u were the one who
thought of the design for the shirt & drew it!
bt last time u were the one who drew one for
kenneth! it was.. "scrumptious" LOL! do i
sound pervertic?!nyahahaha!(: bt anw, it ws
abit...haha, ok la, it was nice!!hehe, take care
of the oboe section since u are the senior
thre!! & also gdluck for being the head of QM!

huigeok- thanks for the gift! i really always
loved yellow!!haha, bt u said u din knw it was
my fave colour! you chose it coz u thought
yellow would fit me! as you say i was a 'cheerful
& bubbly' person!! ahahaha!! xD im super
flattered! & touchd! coz u knew exactly wht i
like w/o evn asking me!!haha(: i taught you
last yr as a sec.1! do teach the juniors well, u're
a senior to be!! gdluck to ur post too!!(: you
cn do it!(:

shi li- haha, i was touchd by ur msg! though i
also gt problems with you! coz u evrytime nv
sit properly!haha, thts the basics for flute playing
hor!! do learn fast!(: & i heard you play just
now! as expected, you are a prodigy not only
in theory test! bt also prctical!haha, keep
improving!(:

elaine- haha, whn u came to flute im always
bombarded by questions frm you!! you were
such an enthusiastic learner and player!!
practice hard and you'll do well!!(: asking qns
will do good for the better of your playing!(:
jiayou! you cn do it!

madeline- though u were nt there,, haha, u
were such an adorable junior!!haha, coz u gt an
angmo face!(: well, i thought u look like an
ideal flute player so i tried my best to drag u
in my section!!haha(: try ur best in playin
flute well, dont complain so much coz its only
the beginning, u will need to endure more
in the future!! practice hard for the upcoming
concert!

hwan- hm,, i think u are in korea now? i really
dont knw,, haha bt u were a gd flute player
in the beginning,, just tht u act so weird in frnt
of us..haha, bt its ok, i knw u cn adjust well
in the section as time pass..(:

liye- u were my junior too! i used to teach u!!
haha(: hm, myb u were slower thn the rest,
and also the most stubborn child in the sectn..
haha,, bt i hd such a fun time having to chase
u to practice harder coz u always make excuses
tht u're tired during sectnals so u spent most
of the time resting!hahah, bt i reali hope u
cn do well in the percussion! all the best!!(:

youzhang- ahhh!! you are sooo sweet!!
lol, reading ur sms juz now juz touchd me &
mke me wanna cry... i knew u've transferred
to percussion..it was soo sad tht id lost an
outstanding flute player as a beginner!! &
she was reali active and hardworking! bt i
understnd wht sir reali wanted is best for her,
bt thn she still recognize me as her flute
idol!haha!! how sweet is tht!! (: im super
happy tht though she changed section,, she
still rmb me as her senior!! all the best in
the percussion sectn!(:

some pics frm the scrapbk my sectn made
for me!(:

thanks to dad for helping me scan!!hehe(:

wee~ i reali love my section!(: thy're super

duper sweet! memories wont be forgotten!!

i will miss y'all!! T-T

section photo!(: bt w/o huigeok & hongmeng..

they left so soon!

and check this out..

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AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

HEY SECTION MEMBERS!! WE WORE IT OK!!
haha! xD btw these were the shirt thy made for

us!!lol, this reminds me of wht we made

for kenneth last yr!haha, the macho body!

bt since we were girls... OMG! i really din knw

thy'll come this far lor...haha, & repeat the same

thing like the last yr we did to the past seniors!

hahaha xD

heimun must be wanting to kill me now,, coz i

posted it here!!hahaha, bt its frm our juniors

hardwork ok! & im also wearing it w/ you ok!!

haha xD my section members nv fails to make

me laugh!hahaha! thanks guys!!(:

& my current blogsong is one of the songs thy

performed for us!hehe, really cool lor!(:

they have grown alot!(:

2009-06-10T17:46:00.004+08:00

hehe, i juz fin watching "It's time 2pm"
ep1-2.. jaebom and junho!haha,,

well, 1stly,, jaebom is super humble lor!
whn members say "he's good, or is jelous
of him", he always keeps his feet to the
ground!(: he's hardworking too!haha,,lol,
he's also upset with mistakes like fell whn
doin a backflip on stage..haha, i also
sometimes like him,, upset whn doin
mistakes bt its quite normal..

haha, & he gt say abt wooyoung tht
is almost same as me. LOL! & jaebom is
envious of nickhun!haha!, ofcourse i would
feel the same too! he's gt an impression
tht he's nice(: khun is super perfect lor!
he plays piano toooo!!! xD
haha, my sis also evn said he's super
handsome the 1st time she saw him! -.-

haha, bt anw, junho...haha, he really looks
like rain,, i think jaebumie mentiond thre
also..his eyes is super small..haha! he likes
girls with big eyes!LOL! he gt the nicest
voice in 2pm, i think..haha, jaebom's voice
is baby-ish i agree!!jejeje.. lol, junho is
also super starightforward.. & he got a
large butt!!lol, he say its difficult slpng at
a regular position with it.. bt the othr
members envy him with tht..lol..

next episode would be junsu, i think? ahh!!
cnt wait for wooyoung!hehehe(:

well, anw, im planning to have a piano
medley instead..i cnt wait wht the result
will be!! haha, i think itll be nice combining
2 of yiruma's compositions..(:

lol, my blog song rock!!haha, i juz found out
this frm an AMV of FMP i saw juz now,,
although i cn get annoyed of it too,, the
screamo is super noisy!!hahaha bt the
drums rock!!!ahahaha!!(:

2009-06-08T21:06:00.007+08:00

haha, why am i getting super hyped up?!
lol, just now i hve received this sort of
magazine from NP(: just how did thy find
my address? haha, mybe the school signed
up for it,, i think poly life is FUN!haha,,

& i think NP will be my choice alr ya! coz
i wanna go overseas!nyahaha!! ok la, its
more thn playing.. i knw college life is
tough..bt why am i getting excited for?!
haha,,
wht im aiming for is scholarship! its coz
the fee was damn ex! $15000 per yr!!!!
bt thn gt this govt subsidised scheme for
PRs which is abt $2300 if im nt wrong,,
bt aftr u graduate, u need to work in
SG for 3 yrs! T-T &
gt additional misc fees too! which is 100+!
damn, so expensive! wonder working thru
the 4month holiday aftr O's, i cn only
gather up nt more thn the fee for 1yr! T-T
bt anw, i will reali try to do my best to get
scholarship!! coz they say students who
fair well in O's are likely eligible to get
scholarship! HWAITING!!! its alot of
hard work ya! (':

AHHH!! wonder if i cn reali do well?!!
ahhh!! ok i must be a positive-thinker!
nothing is impossible! hahahaha!!

btw, the DPA,, erm.. i think its also helpful
thru nxt yr ya, bt currently i hv no course
in mind yet :[ sigh.. i need advices! bt not
frm my MOM!!! coz i confirm dont
want go to medical sch!! NEVER!!haha!
lol ( i cnt even dare to look at those
disgusting diseases at healthzone) :( haha!!
bt anw, im sure there'll be tht ONE course
tht suits for me!(:

haha, knew this'll happen, i understand(:
thanks, you two!(':

2009-06-07T22:08:00.005+08:00

LOL! i feel like ive wasted my time
trying to figure out how to put
chrono cross game on my psp.. its
a ps1 game tht ive been playin
since pri sch! & now ive been wantng
to play it agn! so im totally noob abt
converting it to a psp-enabled game..

hm, well i tried to learn today.. it
was actually complicated la,, u need
to download lots of things.. interpret
alot of things thru codes.. & the thing
is i alr dl and converted the game into
an ISO file..bt my custom firmware
is nt the one required for it to work..
so i need to downgrade it.. downgrding
it means u're taking the risk to brick
your own psp... and tht's wht im afraid
of.. well it took me long to decide
whther to press tht x button to execute
the downgrade to 1.50 ( enables ps1
games on psp) but in the end i decided
not to..

really not sure wht will happen if
you downgrade 3.71 to 1.50 coz its nt
really one level down.. if my firmware
is 2.0,, i might consider it still bt its like
50-50 my psp will crash down juz by
downgrading it.. and the terrible thing
tht i read frm the comments is tht,, the
creators sacrificed 6 psp consoles juz to
try out the firmware downgrading
software..im reali v terrified as just a
psp alone costs alot!

bt atleast i just wasted my time rather
thn waste the life of my only one psp!

haha, hackers are really pro people lor..
i wonder if i take the game multimedia
course i could be one too! haha
*evil laugh* well i dont wanna hack la,
ofcource if u're a game producer, you'll
hate hackers too!! bt they are reali v
intelligent people lar..juz how cn u modify
the internal mechanism of a psp! thy
are truly scientists in the virtual world!
thy cn also be compared as theifs though..
ok, whtever..!

Chrono cross is such a nice game! such
a pity i nv get to fin it o my ps1! :(
and i found anothr game tht looks fun..
called patapon!ahahahah!! their miracle
chants are just super cute and funny!!

& i nv did a single hw today! the piece im
playing is almost half-done! & 'only you'
is such a sweet song!(: strting to like 2pm
more & more!hehe(:

i wonder why you're too secretive..ending up im
always the one who's trying to figure it out..

2009-06-04T22:22:00.007+08:00

hahaha!! im super satisfied now!lol,,
1 and 1/5 down!lol
fin my eng. hol. hw and 1 chap. of geog(:
fin my geog despite my muscle pains ok!
hahahaha!!!

well, today was swimming wif
gwen and heimun.. super tiring!!lol,
din reali swim much coz gt unexpected
cramps.. :( & its still v pain now..
sigh..bt anw, had fun! been long since i
ever touchd the pool! haha(:

& tmr getting back report bk! sigh..
7.30. earlier thn wht i thought.. & sorry
to xiujing for nt coming into terms abt
the section lunch.. the time tht im gona
spend for waiting til LUNCH would be
more efficient if i do othr things...
maybe othr time!(:

starting amaths & emaths hw tmr!
aja HWAITING! haha, and heard frm
heimun tht SHINee is coming bck tmr!
super excited! xD

why do i feel like im slowly figuring out sth..
well it din sound important bt why do i care?

2009-05-30T21:31:00.004+08:00

what a boring day,sigh......haha(:
hm, shopping w/o my sister
is reali damn boring.. T-T
she went out to celebrate her
friends bday..sigh..
well, i was w/ my mom & dad,,
& i was the one who's carrying
all the goods thy bought -.-

lol, we were like in a prestigious
shopping mall of isetan..
& an awkward occurrence,, is it
reali normal for a guy bein in a
girls' undergarments section?!
haha, anw, we went to window
shopped shoes and bags,, my
mom keeps on askin me if it fits
to her..my repeated answers
were "ya?, yes?" i reali dont know
how to answer her else ya.. if my
sis was there im sure she woudhve
babble alot or criticise my mom's
choice!lol!

& the funny thing is tht,, i was
lookin at tp's course brochure..
thn i saw this "fashion design"
course.. i asked my sis if this
course fits me! lol, she suddenly
shoot me a look! finding out if i
was joking or not..haha! bt
obviously i was joking.. thn she
say, "are u sure?" thn i replied
bck by saying, "no, you knw tht
i have no sense of fashion" (of
course we were talking in our
native lang.)
"dont worry, ill help you!" she
retorted bck. haha! i replied
bck by "no thanks" lol,, seriously,
i hve no idea wht to wear like for
everyday if ever i entred poly alr..
i must work hard and earn to buy
clothes aftr my Olvl's!! JIAYOU!
sigh.......
im super insecure abt next yr leh..
T-T

well, anw,, im super duper dissapntd
abt SHINee's comeback!! why there
isnt any?! ahhh!! ive waited for it for
soooo long!!! & i wanna see ONEW
alr! faster "comeback" alr!! T-T

i bet the mt students are busy
studying hard by now.. all the best to
thm for MT O'lvl exams on monday!(:

2009-05-29T20:56:00.004+08:00

there's so much im gonna miss!!

i will miss my non-isp library friends!
geradine, yisi, miranda, dinika and melody!
today was last day of MT intensive,, haha,
will miss slping, doin' amaths w/ geradine
and playing computer in the library!lol
at first it was reali v boring.. bt sometimes
only..im going to miss it really(:

& i will miss my tuition centre! today was
my last day.. T-T lol, & today i laughd alot,,
thanks to tht funny teacher!lol! (i forgot his
name) i will miss them! i will miss gg to
tuition with mun! reali hd such a fun time
bein with her thre!(': for the past 10 days in
tuition, i enjoyed myself, & learned alot! i
shall work evn harder now!(:

& most of all! i will miss slacking!!haha!! i
cnt do tht now.. i cn feel its drawing near..
this time im goin to stick to it..(: evn though
it reali quite hard lah..haha, bt no harm in
trying!i juz need to be consistent thts all,,
bt agn easy to say bt hard to do!haha!!

so wht now..? lol, i cnnot give up, its not an
option anw.. just one thing's for sure..the only
one tht cn give me strength & determination
& the reason why im writing this now..

2009-05-26T21:14:00.021+08:00

today is another fun day!hahahaha!!! aftr sch me, cassan and mun went to vivo there agn to hve cassan her eye-check!(:

on the way,, its reai v funny.. coz heimun was super lucky today! haha!!

a bird shit dropped on her hair! xD

thn me and cassan kept on laughin lor!lol, good thing the shit is quite hard lor, not fluid-ish (if there's such a word?) haha! if nt itll b v v sticky!lol

bus-ed to vivo, reachd, thn on the way, cassan non-stop laugh like crzy woman lor..i also dun understnd wht "undigested worm" she was talkin abt the birdshit -.- (& yup she was still at it, at tht time)haha, she even stick to the wall at the walkaway thre and laugh so hard lor!haha, v
funny ah she! i was also carried away by her laughter!haha! xD

thn we reachd the eyecntr.. saw the cool machine agn..thn aftr fin walk to the opp. side to eat at cassan's mum store(:

so we ate! the ban mian was nice!(: & heimun was agn v lucky this time!

an auntie dropped all the sauce plates splashing the black soya sauce to heimun's blouse!haha!! xD whoa~ heng tht i only gt one tiny taint on my blouse lor! heimun's was the worst! it was all
over her back!haha! so cassan and me helped her wash the sauce off, by wiping it with wet tissue!haha! heimun v kelian eh.. coz she was v unlucky today..haha!!

& cassan's mum was reali kind for mking the meal F-O-C for us!!haha, actually i was too happy bt i also feel guilty lor..haha, nvm tmr i shall hand my payment to cassan ya!(:

aftr tht we went to cassan's house coz thy're still goin 4tuition..haha, & mun also needa bathe thre aftr all the unlcky occurence tht happened to her..

cassan's rm was damn messy!LOL! so helped her pack her rm!haha! it was super dusty lor! like its been ages since she cleaned her rm! well, it was v fun lah! haha(: her table was v interesting!haha(: saw lotsa things like, plastics,papers, accesories, childhood toys sprawled all over the tble,lol! & found things tht she nv get to find, like one earring, belt? and mickey mouse toy if i cn rmb..haha, and worst are the socks tht she nv wash for like super long alr!haha! juz stucked everywhere!LOL!

no wonder she get sick coz of the massive dust covering her things! & there were plenty of mosquitos too!haha! i managed to kill one!YAY!lol!!

well, we managed to clean the tble bt the othr parts,, never touchd coz nt enough time..haha, well i expect her to clean it by herself alr..so she beta DO IT!!haha

& since whn i never mention this.. everytime i go to cassan's house, i always look forward to heimun's sec1 pic!haha! xD still nv fails to make me laugh!lol!!

aftr tht went home(: while both of thm went for emaths tuition..haha,, bathed, thn slept for awhile.. nv got to prctice the 2nd verse coz no time.. (more of lazy) lol.. bt nearly getting it lah!! im reali v excited to fin the piece!haha(:

ok tht shd be all! tmr will be hving lunch wif gal friends at ikea agn!(: anneong!

well i dont reali want to write this way..bt blogger is reali pissing me off coz of uneven spacing so i was forced to do it by this way.. lol, well, either way it's still posted anw..haha(:

2009-05-24T20:38:00.003+08:00

ahhh!!! JOYCE!!!
its time to focus on your studies!!
bt why cnt i just start.. T-T
& i kept thinking abt... AHHHH!!
Noooo!! this cnt be..!! haha! & i juz
cnt believe i cleaned up the house
today..haha, unusually me.. xD

anw, i got a new piece!! YAY! lately
ive been inspired by yiruma's songs!
ive 'quite' mastered the 1st part..
1pge off out of 4.. 3 more to go!!
JIAYOU!!(:

& SHINee's 1st comeback stage is
tmr!!weee!! i cnt wait!!!(: hope onew
hve gotten well alr!!(:

2009-05-22T22:42:00.006+08:00

yO! im back agn!haha(:
btw, this week was reali killing..
im super tortured of boredom
at the library ok... i want this
week & nxt week to end fast..
LOL! btw,,

wed. went to ikea wif mun, mandy,
yuanyi & gwen(: ate lunch thre!!
the pasta was super yummy!hehe
& it's v cheap ok! haha, thnx to
mandy who recommended it!(:
so aftr tht we wandered inside
ikea..saw furnitures, played wif the
stuff toys!!haha! super fun! me,mun
and yi were like super crazy abt the
stufftoys!haha, i kept throwing the
black rat to mandy!lol,, mandy's
reaction ws reali v funny coz she dun
like rats..haha! anw,, the most funny
thing is when gwen & mun sit on
the rocking thing!! like a small seesaw,
i dunno how u call tht..their posture
was super awkward! mun nearly fell!
LOL!coz gwen suddenly get off it! xD
it was a super tiring day,,bt FUN!(:

today,, had tuition wif mun..haha,
finally learned the r-formula!LOL!! it
was nt reali tht difficult learning tht
lor..bt i wonder why i nv understood
mrs. goh's lecture abt tht?!haha!
mun, brought marshmallows!!haha(:
super nice! :D [unni, gumawo!]
thn aftr tuition went to buy bubble
tea & walk her to the bustop(:

haha,, i kept jokin mun tht it was my
last time at the tuition centre,, haha!
coz i dun wanna go alr, since i feel
like im juz wasting my mom's money..
coz i din improve on my midyear...
sigh... anw, on the othr hand i dont
wanna leave her alone too.. her face
juz now seems like im goin to be
missed so much whn im nt there alr!
hahaha! kelian eh.. haha!! anw, its ok
to miss me sometimes!!nyahahaha!!!
xD

im still thinking abt it..im feelin tht im
troubling my mom so much...

& i saw SHINee's new mv alr! its called
"juliette" OMG!! they all look! super
nice! excpt taemin..haha, he looked older
to me, coz of his "junpyo-like" hairstyle!
LOL! actually key's & onew's hair were
quite messy too! bt its nice!! esp. onew's!
lol, though his hair like nv bathe for a
few months..haha!! minho also look hand-
some nw!(: actually i dont reali think he
had a noselift lor.. & i hope onew recover
soon!!! i wanna see shinee's live perf alr!
jonghyun's hair was super cool!!haha!! he
look more handsome now too! LOL! & i
juz notice gt part where thy show key's
face like his cheekbone was exagerated..
did he put botox or sth?! ok i think im
imaginin bt im sure it was in the last part
of the mv tht i saw it!haha(:

ONEW! you are the best!! seeing and
hearing u sing agn makes my heart melt!
T-T AAAAHHHH!!! i hope nth changes
with ur teeth!! pls recover soon!!!

2009-05-19T21:26:00.012+08:00

haha, ok i shall blog today..coz it was a
super funny day today!lol

hm,,,aftr sch cassan,mun & i went to inter
tgt.. i thought cassan was goin wif us bt she
gt a fever so she went home 1st..hope her
fever will subside by tonight!(:

thn me & mun went near vivo thre to have
her 'aftr care' for her contact lenses.. & i
juz knew she was wearing today!!haha, i
nv thought she will dare put contacts!LOL!
coz its super scary puting it, & esp. whn
taking it out!! im always terrified seeing
my sis taking out her contacts! O.O'' ahh!!
juz imagining it makes my eyeballs hurt
too!! T-T

well in the bus we played psp..LOL!
she said she'll help me advance to the
league bt in the end my psp batt went
flat while we waiting for our order
at PIZZA HUT!! can you believe it?!
pizza hut leh! it was my first time
eating there!!haha(: well, there's this
student meal $6.90 so we also gave it a try..

the mushrm soup was served 1st!lol,
she doesnt like so in the end i was the one
who ate hers, thn the chicken wings was
served next!followed by the star-shaped
hashbrowns..LOL! atfirst we were like
fighting for the food lor! coz there were
3pcs of chicken wing!thn both of us also
doesnt want to give in having only one
for ourselves... & bcoz i was super
hungry tht time,, tht i purposely din eat
lunch coz she say we'll be eating at vivo..
the hashbrown was damn nice ok!!haha
juz tht its nt tasty enough..lacking salt,
bt it still tastes ok(:

later thn, our order came, both baked rice
bt wif diff main ingredient. mine was
chicken hers was sausage..so we ate...
haha! i was super full! like i reachd to my
limit alr!bt i managed to fin ok! it was supr
nice!! it was also the 1st time i ate baked
rice!(: mun nv fin hers.. haha, & we still
hv the chicken & hashbrowns tht time,,
now both pushing the plates to each othr
as we were alr full! LOL! juz now we were
fighting on gettin the food, bt now we
were fighting abt whose goin to finish the
leftovers!haha

thn the most funny thing is whn we asked
for the bill.. mun calculated the bill, happily
saying both of us pay $8.80 each! so i
prepared my money.. i thought i gt $12 on
my wallet.. bt thn i forgot tht i bought cassan
'fisherman's friend' in the morning & ate
noodles during recess so $4 was alr gone..
so i was left wif $8 bt i still got coins in my
wallet.. so it was juz nice(:
bt thn i was super shocked whn the waitress
say, both of us must pay $9.40!!! its bcoz
of the GST & service charge lor.. we totally
forgt abt tht!!haha!!

thn i was super scared tht my spare coins
cnnot make it! mun also got no spare money
to lend me alr!lol! but! thank heavens tht i
got plenty of 5 and 10 cent coins!!OMG!
or else i wouldhve washed the dishes as
a compensation, while mun go bck home
to take money..tht'll be super embarrassing!
haha! both of us laugh like hell lots aftr
we handed in our money..mine was full of
coins!haha!!

so a reminder!! "NEXT TIME WHN YOU
GO RESTAURANT,MUST THINK OF
THE GST AND SERVICE CHARGE!!! OR
ELSE YOU'LL END UP HAVING A SHOCK
WHN U GET UR BILL!" says mun,haha!

so aftr tht we went to spectacle hut bt we
needa comeback by 15mins later as the IC
there was busy.. so we roamed ard there..lol
we saw this sch supplies shop.. i dunno wht's
it called alr.. thn we went in.. saw peng's
correction tape!haha, thn in one section thre
mun was happily pressing something,, i went
closer to hve a look & intendin to press it too!!
bt mun slapped my hand pointing to the sign
tht says "once pressed, its considered sold"

both of us laugh like hell lots can!hahahaha!
i nv thought it was plasticine & both of us din
knw tht such a sign exists!LOL! gd thing the
one incharge thre didnt see us or else!! we'll
get ourselves into trouble again, considering
tht we were alr broke due to the lunch juz
now!haha, we were laughin until we were out
of the shop!&my stomach went pain tht time!

so aftr tht we went ard again to shops.. thn
at the bkshop she read me lame jokes.. thn
she picked out one bk which the content was
torn frm the cover,, & fell over.. thn we were
laughin agn on how weird things it
could get near her!so she secretly put it bck
agn, hoping no one had caught us tht the
bk was alr destroyed.. trancing out of the
bkshop our giggles and laughters cn be heard..
haha!

thn aftr tht we nv get into any shop anymore
so tht she wont be able to cause trouble alr..
we watchd BOF outside a shop tv screen instd,
the show was dubbed chinese!haha, so we
were laughin agn at how dumb jandi was!lol!
thn not long, we went to the spectacle hut alr..
i waited for her outside..i was sittin there
starin at the specs..haha, thn awhile later she
went out alr..her eyes were teary, as if it
was covered wif eye drop..haha.. bt i still think
hving contact lenses is pretty scary..lol

so aftr tht we went home by mrt.. & whn
i reachd home i slept agn for almost 2hrs..
haha, i barely eat dinner as i was still
super full of the baked rice juz now..haha!!

ok, tht shd be all(:

2009-05-18T21:11:00.004+08:00

hm,, well today received all MYE
papers..known all my mrks,,excpt
for english.. & overall,,, sigh..

im reali frustrated for my amaths lor..
its the first time i got an F grade..
T-T i cnt believe i wasted my mom's
effort of sending me to tuition.. it was
like worthless u knw,, i was super
depressd whn i saw my amaths paper..
T-T sigh..

hm, my humanities was ok, i passed,
bt i was nt satisfied wif my geog..
pulled my grade dwn.. actually i gt A2
for SS le, bt i gt C5 for geog. and it
pulled my CHum to B4.. :(
& i cnt believe i'll score better in SS lor!
sigh, mybe coz i spent more time
in SS b4 the exams..bt im super happy
tht i improved my SS! coz i always gt
a borderline grade for it..lol, bt in return
my geog downgraded.. sigh, how cn
i just balance the two?...

CSci was ok too..haha, bt i expected more
i guess.. i thought ill be able to get an A
for this subj. bt in the end i nv.. bt CSci
is better thn pure! atleast i cn get a B
rather thn a C or a D!haha(:
my chem was stronger!(: my overall
chem paper was A2(:hehe, bt thn my
physics was lousier..C6 :(
so in the end i got a B4 agn for
combined..sigh..bt it was ok,, for now..

Emaths..lol i expected more, like
getting atleast a B bt i got C6 in the end.
T-T tht's also quite bad..

well,, i dont kinda like my results lor..
bt thy say, midyear is meant for you
to fail.. if you manage to pass thn good
for you..tht's wht thy say.. well, i think
its an encouragement lor,, for us to be
able to move on, despite the failures..
coz i think alot of us did fail.. juz tht why
do thy have to set such tough papers
whn it isnt preliminary yet?! sigh...

bt nvm, shall do my best in the next
exam! hopefully i cn do better in tht!(:

anw, moving on.. today was reali a mixed
boring and fun day!haha, BORED-coz
gt MT intensive.. im super bored doin
self-revision..all of thm were busy revising
and juz no one to play with..haha..

FUN-because we went to band today..
haha(: me,cassan and mun were super
addicted to 2pm and suju shows on
mun's ipod..LOL! we also helped xiujing
in her library work!hehe(: i enjoyed
chopping pieces!! & i was able to touch
and play flute agn!bt juz for a short period
of time..bt was quite satisfied alr(:
we kept laughing until my cheeks grew
tired.. thn we passed by mac for fries..
haha,my treat this time coz mun was
penniless..LOL

tmr will be goin out wif the gals agn..(:

& im currently loving this anime called
primo passo!!super nice!hehe(:

2009-05-15T10:45:00.003+08:00

wee! im back!! & MYE is finally OVER!
YAY!! haha(:

well,ytd the science MCQ went well..
i think tht was the easiest paper among
othr paper tht i took! lol, bt amaths
sigh..i confirm fail alr..haha(: bt i gt a
feelin tht i will score higher in pp1 thn in
pp2.. bt still fail anw..

hm, aftr tht went to eat LOR MEE wif
mun! whaaa.. so long nv eat alr!since
march holidays!haha(: & i juz rmb
speaking of pokemon!im reali totally
addicted to it alr!!haha, cn u believe
tht ytd just whn i reach home,, i non-stop
play for ard 10 hrs!!haha!!! well, with
negligble time for dinner and toilet breaks
la, bt seriously, i was just lyin on my bed
playin pokemon throughout!haha xD

dunno le, bt i suddenly gt the excitement
of fin the game!haha, coz i nv get to
fin it playin on my phone as the data was
corrupted! & ytd mun hd
finally fin the pokemon league!i feel kinda
envious so i also wanna fin it by myslf!!
in fact i shd be the one leading if my saved
file wasnt lost tht time!! T-T
so im gonna try my best to fin it within a
few days!!haha(: i gt 3-day holiday anw!
hehe

& i juz fin rewatching full metal panic
fumoffu!!haha(: its really v funny! i kinda
miss it!! i put the amv at my ipod playlist
there at the right hand side of the screen..

2009-05-09T17:32:00.005+08:00

haha, atlast i changed my skin!(:
reali had a hard time editing the
html!not used to it really..lol

& SHINee is having a comeback
this may 19!!!yay!!!! mada,mada dane,,
i just wanna see if minho reali had
a nose lift..AHHH!! ok, anw as long
as onew doesnt hve changes in his
face,,, excpt
for his hairstyle i guess? bt i like
the amigo one, he's cute there!! xD

anw, ytd night my dream was super
nice!!!haha(: shan't tell alr..
ok, i dreamt abt tht there were lots
of food in the table! my favorite ones!!
fries, roasted pig, lasagna, fruit salad,
pizza, spaghetti, macaroni! ALOT! i
was eating with satisfaction! like i cn
reali taste le!!! AHHH!!! xD
i almost thought it was real!!!
how i wish... bt whn i woke up i realized
tht i was juz drooling on my pillow!
im rather dissapointed waking up!
haha, bt it surely was a satisfying
death if ever i was nt able to wake up!
haha(: bt i still prefer to wake up anw!
atleast i cn taste those food in reality
rather thn in fantasy.. LOL!

hm, revised a bit of chem today..
decided myself to give break since
we gt 3-day holiday!lol! monday
no sch!!!yay!! :D

and now im planning to watch anime!
haha(: my sis watchd this anime
called special aide!super nice!haha,
saw part of it alr! :D

2009-05-08T20:08:00.004+08:00

whah..i cnt believe i slept
for almost 3 hrs!..

amaths paper2 is reali a
killer lor! in the end it also
nv asked the qns i studied!!
T-T i studied integration/
differentiation, binomial theorem,
& kinematics bt also nv cum out! :(
& ms chin was also merciless
to give us the R-formula &
proving plane geometry we hardly
did wif her during revision!
nt just fair lor.. :( the level was
like prelim stndard alr.. bt it
was just midyear.. T-T thn im
starting think how much more in
prelims?!! D:
ahhh!!! i think most of
my friends find it difficult
too!! T-T for me,, its confirmd a
gone case alr... bt nvm, hope i
cn do better in ppr 1~!

& today geog paper, i was
rushing like hell tht i mixed
up both sections! ended up i
made trouble wif teachers!
haha, hm nt sure if thy'll deduct
marks though, bt i hope mr.
chong is really kind-hearted to
consider it this time!LOL!

aftr sch was suppose go heimun's
house/my house bt went mac
to eat instead! been super long
since i ate mcspicy!both of
us was super full!! LOL! in the
end we nv go tution today coz was
super tired frm both tiring
humans & killer amaths ppr..

k, i think tht's all,, still gt chem
ppr to go on tues! T-T

2009-05-01T21:56:00.005+08:00

hm, lemme see..
last wed, went physics
tuition wif cass, mun, &
mandy!(: PENG was so gd lor!
i finally undrstnd wht the
fleming's law is all abt!haha(:
reali thanks to mandy for
inviting me! :D

last thurs. the eng
paper was damn
difficult!! esp. ppr 2!! T-T
well, im gonna pray hard
to pass atleast my ppr 1~!

thn tuitin agn wif mun
frm 6-9, LOL! i dunno why
like almost evrytime we
also wear the same thing lor..
we also nv tell each othr to
wear same thing! haha(:
happend like 4
times alr leh! wear same kind
of shirt!LOL!

1st. whn we go suntec city
last yr (baby milo)yellow/red
2nd. whn she 1st went to my
house (baby milo) white/green
3rd. whn we watchd movie
tgt wif cassan (baby milo)
yellow/red
4th. ytd whn we go tuition
(3e1 class tee) LOL!

one things for sure luh.. she
must be reading my mind!!haha(:
actually im tryin my best to
avoid hving same clothes wif
her alr, bt thn it always end
up tht we wear the same thing
agn..

haha,quite funny to have
such an oftn coincidence..

anw,today was revising geog
at the same time amaths(:

went for intensive tuition
wif mun agn(: well, we're
suppose
to be so late bt ended up
we were too early!LOL!
so went to buy food!haha

she brought LOTS of sweets!
which we all fin b4 the
end of tution! O.O
lol, the funny thing is tht
we were carefully eating the
chips so tht we wont create
a noise & disturb the
othr students!LOL!

hm, aftr tuitn her family
fetchd her for dinner,,
thy were too kind to ask me
to go wif thm eat too!haha,
bt my parents is alr waiting
for me to eat dinner wif thm(:

well, ive learned alot
today! hoping to be able to
apply on my exams!(:

aja HWAITING!!! 3 more
days to my next paper!

2009-04-24T22:14:00.013+08:00

well the past few days
were not evn mundane
despite of the repetitious
events in sch..

times whn im alone were
nt evn sad evn tho
its been happenin all
along..

the 1st and last & lil
occurence in between were
the best aftrall! i shdnt hv
said..haha

well exams are comin and i hd
found my motivator!!LOL!(:
it was expected, and apparently
"history did repeat itself" (:

irony,, irony,,
if only u didnt exist.. life shd be
horribly perfect!
..& equally unperfect!(:

2009-04-22T06:24:00.006+08:00

ytd was fun!(:
aftr class went to mandy's
house!haha :D

her house very nice luh!! i
almost thought it was a condo!
coz it looks like one of those..!
im super envious! T-T how
i wish i also gt an ideal house
like tht! her house was quite
near frm sch so we juz walked(:

on the way near the bustop
there we saw her mom, dad,
sister and baby (isaac)!! isaac
was super cute lor!! haha, he's
cuter thn whn you see him in
pics! haha, thn it was like my
1st time to touch & adore a
baby here in s'pore!haha(: been
so long alr since! thn we went to
her house aftrwards..! thn i saw
her rm! super nice!! i also want
my own rm..! T-T

haha, thn we
talked alot of things abt blog..&
played AUDITION!! :D
super fun!! i miss it alr! the last
time i played it was..whn i was in
sec. 2!haha! mandy's fingers were
reali superb lor!! she cn coordinate
it with great celerity! so awesome!
while me? lol! i still need to look
through the arrows carefully b4
pressing!haha, tht's why im super
slow!

anw, audition changed alot!!
gt lots of korean, chinese, and
japanese songs alr!! evn got
wondergirls song leh!!haha(:

this is the pic mandy took while we were playin!
i was on the laptop while she was on the PC!(:

haha, so we played slow songs!lol! some sets
of arrows i still coudnt catch up bt mandy
kept cheering for me! haha(: so we played
and played til we were late!LOL!
by 5 mins only! thn our oral strtd..

well, my oral really s*cks to the max!! whn ms.
lee asked me qns, i coudnt answer at all!!haha,
i was super speechless! mandy was v good
lor! gt lots of things to say! while me? barren of
ideas.. T-T haha, bt its nv too late! i will
do my best to back up my oral!! hwaiting!!!(:

LOL. i woke up too early today coz i
thought wed. is juz like any ordinary day..
haha,,bt its not.. myb ill sleep fr anothr
20 mins agn!haha (:

2009-04-17T20:59:00.003+08:00

woah~ super tired today!haha(:
bt this day was quite okay..
lol, ytd was nearly worst..haha

aiyo, if i nv chase cassan to take
revenge, i shouldnt
hve slipped and fell lor! thn now i
gt a big blue-black bruise on my
knee!!ahhh!! painful!! T-T

seriously, how old am i alr? i feel
like im nt 17 nor going 18 le..
somebody tell me!! haha! bt i like
the way how i feel abt myslf lor..
atleast im staying young, and nt
grwing old tht fast, evn tho
my age doesnt say so.. T-T

ytd was supposed to revise bt instd
i fell asleep..lol! i was super hungry
so i slept it out! nyahaha! sorry to
heimun for my rush actions ytd!LOL!

bt anw today hd ampowerd progrm..
it was super cold inside the hall!!
for 2hrs, we did emaths mock exam,
and 2hrs later aftr recess we did geog..
i was super tired lor..bt nvm,, thts the
life of a sec.4 student! i must try to
adjust alr!(: hwaiting!!!

aftr tht me and mun went to KFC! bt
we changed our minds coz there's this
promotion in mac at high noon! so we
rushd there instead to 'dabao' a cheaper
meal compared to usual time.. & coz
of tht my wallet totally went empty T-T
& the $5 of mun tht suppose to last
this month was alr gone!haha(: so we
both are totally broke aftr buying the
meal..

so we went home.. ate at the dinning
table.. watchd tv,,haha(: the show in
mtv was so like, u know.. freakin'! haha
& no matter how i talk to the kids
thy wont reply me T-T haha.. well,
heimun also nv gotten a reply frm thm,,
i think they are juz too shy and quiet..
sigh.....

so aftr tht we went to tuition.. 4hrs
straight of AMATHS!! OMG!! bt we
did survive!haha(: it was v fun infct,
tht we din keep track of time.. it juz
went very fast,, haha(: i hope wht i
leanrd today will apply to our amaths
test on monday!(: i really hope tht i
wont upset my mom(: well, same goes
to mun too!! haha, FIGHTING!!! :D

2009-04-06T22:08:00.017+08:00

hello people!! wow..!! its been quite
a while since i last blog!!haha! bt anw,
today gt mo hmks!!haha (assuming only)
coz mun will let me copy her SS tmr!!
nyahahaha!! xD

anw, strt frm last week...

mon. 06.04.09

SYF day!!!!
met mun to eat breakfast at mac(:
thn rehearsed..hm, wht else..

was super nervous, haha bt not
really tht much lor.. i felt too much
tht my whole body gttn numb alr..
cnnot feel anything..lol. overall it
went well la... juz tht i nv got to
eat my 'jiamien' w/ chilli coz we
were nt allowed! scared later blow
too sharp at the competition..haha

so we waited and played at the tuning
rm..lol!! i hvnt memorized the
pieces so i kept blowing wrong notes..
haha! bt anw, the competition itself..
i was nt nervous at all, i juz play out
evn though no sound come out
bcoz it was super cold in there!OMG!
the 1st part w/c supposed to be 'vivo'
(grand) was lost coz me & xiujing nv
gt to play!!! haha, bt anw, wht past is
past and cnnot be undone.. so ya.. glad
tht we get back our SILVER!(:

whn we went bck to SCH, was reali
jumping of joy whn our sch won silver for
SYF! like finally our hardwork has been
alr been payed off!! we were in great
relief.. some cried esp. xiujing!!haha(:
actually gt photos..

flute section(: in the band rm.

while at the waiting area.. waiting for our

turn..haha (i was the only one looking at the

camera) LOL!

cassan and me! (noooo!!! i cnt believe im tht

short! T-T)

lol. my face was disfigured!haha

mun and tanwan's face were blurred!

(i tried my best to tiptoe, bt mun kept

pushing me down lor..sooo bad!!! haha)

[ i managed to be taller thn her by an

inch-- too much of an achievmnt -.-)

ahhhh!!!! T-T

cassan exaggerated her tiptoing!lol!!

nyahaha! xD whnever i look at this picture

i laugh!LOL!

this is the stage! we were sitting juz above

where the judges sit tht time!lol

flute section wif sir(:

take 2 (:

wif xiujing, wenhui, and heimun(:

with senior veron and kenneth(:

yay!haha(: cassan was caught unaware!lol

flute/piccolo/oboe section '08-'09 (:

fri. 10.04.09

it was easter celebration at mandy's church!(:

it was super fun! btw, in the morning i non-stop

play my pokemon in my handphone.. LOL! i

was super happy to gain my 4th badge!haha

hm, thn went to meet mun and gwen at tiong

by 3.30 followed by mandy thn we all tgt

went to expo, met cassan in thre later(:

expo was v huge!! 1st time i went there!haha(:

it was also v cold! the drama was v well

organized!
the actors and actresses were v good!! thy

made the story of jesus into a diffent kind one..

wif the 'FINAL SOLUTION!' haha(: bt anw,

it was damn fantastic! i love it! :D

thn i gt to knw lots of friends frm e490!(:

hm, i cn rmb, keryn, cindy, terrence, sherman,

yixin, yuling and peng!(: haha thy were v

friendly!! haha, bt i was vv shy!haha so nv gt

to talk alot whn thy talked to me..lol. aftr tht

was dinner wif friends and new friends in a

foodcourt at cityhall!(:

thn we played this game called 'bigfish and

small fish' & 'big potato, small tomato' i laugh

like hell lots can!! haha this game was super

fun!!haha(:

gwen was always knna forfeit!lol! she evn talked

to the fire extinguisher there!!nyahaha!! xD

will nv forget the fun!!(:

i was soo full wif japanese curry rice!!! it

was super delicious!!! thn we went home.. me,

mandy and cassan tgt in the same bus bck

home and both mun and gwen at the same

bustop(:

thanks to cassan! i reachd bck home safely!(:

haha, pictures!(:

me and mandy in the mrt!(:

with yuling!(: hehe

gwen, mun, cassan, me and mandy!(:

haha, k tht's all people!! will update more of my

most significant events! meanwhile will drowze

off for abit coz exams are coming..so wont be

blogging for quite awhile.. haha(: anneong! :D

2009-04-04T19:17:00.004+08:00

hmm... yeps, i so long nv blog alr..
its been ages since..haha.. actually
i had lost the time, & point toblog
alr.. usually whn im happy i will
blog it, bt nw its a diff case..

i dont feel well aftr i hd gottn my
slp.. my stomach is somewht upset..
myb coz ive been eating fastfood
for lunch this past few days...
i ate evrything fried.. how healthy is
tht? haha.. i hope i wont fall sick..

the past few days has been fun!(:
hd been invited twice last consecutive
fridays to mun's house, played wii
before goin to tuiton..haha, was actually
fun!!,,bt also quite tiring coz of
the intensive band practices..

1 more day to syf.. today was the last
rehearsal.. well, i can say tht im ready..
i hope the band is ready now too..
hm, well i juz hope we'd play well on
stage tht's all..(:

& i juz wanna stay healthy and fine..

2009-03-26T18:59:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PA!!(:

2009-03-25T18:14:00.004+08:00

BOF ep 23 Y_Y *cries

2009-03-24T21:42:00.002+08:00

What do I do.
I keep having bad thoughts.
I'm sorry

I know that I can't be like this
If I say that it's a lie, a lie..
Will my heart go back?
Tears fall
I can't even look at you because
I'm so sorry
My heart hurts
What do I say first
i can't think

Dootdooo Dootdootdoo
Dootdooloo Dootdoot Dootdoo
bbamba bbambamba

You keep making me have bad thoughts
The heart that's forgetting you
Is not a good heart to me
It's such a bad heart
It's a bad heart. It's a bad heart
Our love will never go away.. never

Making me have bad thoughts
The heart that's forgetting you
Is not a good heart to me
It's such a bad heart
It's a bad heart. it's a bad heart
Erasing our love.. it's such a bad thought

I don't like farewells..
Just breaking up with you..
I don't like it even if i die

Kindly
Just think of me kindly
Warmly
If you just say one word
I have no other wish

Dootdooo Dootdootdoo
Dootdooloo Dootdoot Dootdoo
bbamba bbambamba

You keep making me have bad thoughts
The heart that's forgetting you
Is not a good heart to me
It's such a bad heart
It's a bad heart. it's a bad heart
Our love will never go away.. Never

Making me have bad thoughts
The heart that's forgetting you
Is not a good heart to me
It's such a bad heart
It's a bad heart.
It's a bad heart
Erasing our love.. it's such a bad thought

I don't like farewells..
Just breaking up with you..
I don't like it even if I die..

[Fighting the bad feeling by T-max] (:

take note: the one who's reciting the
words is hyung joon (wonbin) frm BOF!
lol, juz knew tht he's also part of T-max!
haha(:

& BOF ep 22 is damn nice!!
cnt wait for the nxt ep.! :D

2009-03-23T19:00:00.010+08:00

haha, wht a fun day(:
1st day of term 2..hm, nearing
SYF and Olvls alr.. anw,,
met mun as usual(: the suju's
song "happy together" is truly
a meaningful song!haha(:

this was the video mun showed me
this moring i think(: haha, most pics
were frm super show(: ahh!! i juz love
super junior!(: hehe, & SHINee too!!
anw, shinee will have their comeback
soon too!(:

hm, btw today's PE played basketball!(:
fun!! haha, was suppose to cheer those
who were running bt mirr wanna play
bb so, played lorh..haha(: kristale
was v gd at shooting! and im v lousy!lol!
i soo long nv touchd a bb ball alr..

anw, aftr tht is MT, fin amaths and
chem thn ff physics!LOL! mrs leong
damn funny and lame lor!!hahaha! thn
recess, thn chem, felt slpn, thn
emaths, OMG!! i cnt believe tht i juz
spoke to him! haha! coz actually i
din reali wana lor, bt i dont hv the
bk, coz of muisiew & nas so i must ask
him mah.. argh!its super weird...
bt gd tht he shared wif me!or else
will get more irritated if he din..
haha, anw.. im strting to complain agn
abt why on the earth i end up sitting
wif a guy..im soo totally uncomfortable
wif it.. T-T
lunch din do much.. amaths sat wif
cindy and mirr(: this time felt comfy,,
hm the lesson was nt bad.. & i gt a
picture of it alr whn i strted tuition..
haha, hving tuition is a reali great
advantage(:

thn aftr tht is band wif sir faizal(:

aftr band went to mac to eat!! haha(:
treated cassan(: since im rich today!(:
lol, so far i dun feel hving dinner alr,
bt i still would like bcoz dun wan my
pops to be eating alone.. esp. tht the my
sis is alr out for camp in a week..
and ill be sooo alone in our bed! T-T
ahhhh!! im super scared now u knw..
im afraid tht ill be slping at sch
coz i myb nt getting enough slp tonight..
ahh!! otoke! otoke!!!

2009-03-20T21:57:00.010+08:00

thurs. 19.03.09

HSS hosted exchange!(:
ushered nanhua(: many alumni came..
its was 1st time for me to experience hosting..
our sch organized well(: thanks to the PA crew,
alumni, teachers, prefects, OMS, & instructors(:
mr, faizal! sir badrul(:

hm, basically mun & i unsually arrvd at
the same time, rehearsed abit thn schs
came..din managed to tune coz the rms
were occupied by othr schs.. our perf was
gd! bt nt for me lor..haha(: i blow lots of
wrong wrong and wrong notes..i mispitchd
also quite a no. of times, i missd parts..
oh great!bt i enjoyed the music!(: esp. the
huntingdon!haha(:

hm, so far i think yuying was the best!(:
& i think thy are a gold band!(:
awesome playing manzz! sir faizal is
amazing!(: hm, kranji perf well too!
i juz love their choice piece!haha
damn nice lor!!(:

hd fun wavin by the gate at the othr
sch's buses goin off!haha, xiujing kept mking
me laugh lor!! xD so far it was my last
exchange in my secondary sch life!(:
it will always be rmbd!(:

(credits to hongmeng for the pics!) he always
dun wanna take wif us lor!ahaha! poor thing
to be the only guy!lol(:

20.03.09

last practice durin the hols.
mun arrivd at the bustop quite
early!haha, lucky pig! so she hd to
wait for me ths time.. it was like a
1 in a million chance ok!haha(:
coz im always the one who's waiting,
lol. hm so sir came later coz
kranji gt band camp(: envious lor..
we dun hve, & my last yr alr leh!!ahh!!
anw, did sectionals..! had fun giving
the beat!haha, bt my hands hurt
frm the stroke..lol.. thn polishd our
instruments!!(: wee!!haha

our flutes were covered wif silver polish!(:

lol! all of us busy polishing our own instrumnts!
(except xiujing!lol, coz she's the 1st one
to fin so she nth to do bt to take pics of us!)
haha(:

gina wif her newly polishd oboe!(:

wenhui seriously polishng her oboe!lol(:

hui geok wif her flute!(:
she looked shock lor!ahaha!(:

mun!(:

me!haha(:

hongmeng!lol, (he always dun wanna
take photo wif us lor..! xiujing tried her
best to capture this pic!haha(:

and xiujing!the photographer!lol(:
credits to her for all the pics!(:

and the funny thing is tht, whn we reachd band
rm i noticed tht there is still silver polish in
xiujing's flute!lol!!

cn see the silver polish?ahaha! no wonder she
v fast fin lor!!lol(: me & mun cnt help bt laugh!
haha xD

aftr tht we hd sectional lunch!haha(: wenhui
always wanna order prawn mee! so we ended up
eating lor mee agn! whoa~ like for these whole
week eat lor mee during lunch lor!haha(: bt
still satisfied!(: also bought big packet of tissue!
our tissue v fast fin lor coz my section members
were sick the past few days so they used thm
up alr for blowing their nose!haha! lol, gd thing
i nv catch the cold! mun, huigeok, & wenhui did!
haha(:

aftrnoon session, sir badrul kept telling
us jokes lor!! though he was quite tired frm
the camp!haha(: OMG!! im gonna die of
laughin coz of xiujing lor! coz tht time sir told
us tht he cn do 'tummy spin!' lol!! thn he added
tht one finger cn also turn him,lol! thn xiujing
say.. "wht if the tummy burst?" thn wahh,
cnt stop laughing lor!she soo random!!ahaha!!
i imagined the tummy like a balloon tht
suddenly burst while sir ws doin the tummy
spin!lol!! thn i was laughing like crazy!!haha thn
i laughed evn more whn xiujing askd me,
"wht are u laughing abt?" hahahahaha! xD
she's the only one nt laughing at her own joke
lor! me and mun like almost falling off to
our chairs alr because of laughter, and mun
laugh until she cry also!LOL! thn later i knew
why xiujing was laughing, nt because of her
own joke, bt bcoz she saw me laughing!
hahaha!! she's reali v funny lor!haha(:

aftr band went to tiong wif mun & cassan(:
LOL! they spend all of my popular voucher
lor!! my $20 voucher gone! T-T cassan &
mun bought the most sch supplies! & i only
bought two things... pen and corrction tape..
lol! bt anw, i also din expect to hv tht
voucher for being top in geog..haha, so its
ok(: i thought i was goin to be treated for
bubble tea bt they also nv..coz thy also
broke..lol, T-T so we three took bus to our
tuition cntre(:

LOL! it was fun in there! mun & i kept
eating while doin the amaths exercise
kenneth gave us(: while cassan listen to
music doin her emaths(: LOL! we were
soo noisy inside lor! we kept rmbrng sir's
jokes!haha(: i fin the whole exercise by
8!haha(: was faster thn mun!lol!, so went
home nt short aftr(: while thy two stayed
for make-up lessons!haha(:

tht's all peeps! tmr is hw day!! aja hwaitting!!!

2009-03-18T22:06:00.007+08:00

oh yeah~ and today hd band exchange at
zhenghua..hm, fun!(: as usual, met mun at
the bustop there..hm, quite weird ya, din
reali knw how to approach her..bt aftr seeing
her tht smile i felt quite relieved and smiled
back..(: sigh,, why the heck did i do those
stupid things a day ago.. haha..

NANEUN BABO! BABO!! BABO!!!!
sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry nuni busyeo
busyeo busyeo, sumi makyeo makyeo
makyeo
naega micheo micheo baby!haha xD
(only memorized this part frm the suju's
'sorry sorry'haha)

and b4 our turn to perform at the ex..
it was quite weird actually bt i called
cassan who was walking infrnt of me juz
to say sorry..lol, i thought it was an
opportunity.. ahaha!! xD ok, im weird..
whtever.. din reali heard her reply bt,
was relieved to do tht b4 making music...
& its quite funny
bt i moved to the music ok! moved like
nobody's business!!LOL! if only i cn see
myslf thn i think i will laugh..mun say im
funny whn i do tht...well,, myb i juz overdo
it..haha(: hm, anw, abt the exchange..
i din perform well.. dot.dot.dot. but sir
say overall we performd well.. o.O ahh!
why do i hv to sit outside lor!! its v
prone to hearing my mistakes now!!
ahhhh!!!! & some more yuying
will be sitting like juz beside me leh!!
like 1 m gap!ahhh! panic!! hm, ya
i admit yuying is gd.... T-T well, juz wish
me luck tmr!!!

ok thts all, i was playing pet society
juz now.. & guess wht, i have given all
those old things tht i have to my
fellow friends...haha,in othr words..
there's barely anything inside my
inventory alr except my prev clothes!
ahaha!!! anw, i also dun care.... jinki is
a gd boy aftrall!haha(: hm looking forward
to upgradng my pet society house!
hmm... sooonn!!(:

btw hss will be hosting music exhange tmr!
ahh! & will be ushering nanhua!? hm..
ok la.. will try my best..haha(: anneong!

2009-03-17T07:47:00.003+08:00

to cassan:

i wasnt talking abt u.. i was talking abt hm and xj..

if u meant the time, i ignored u its bcoz hm was there.. & i wasnt in good mood to talk to her..

ya, i thought it was all a joke, the 1st few mins aftr it happened ya'll laugh, bt its ok to me.. im stupid wht.. bt evn though the laughs all ended alr, near the hall there, thy keep repeating it for the same reason..& tht does hurt me..

& ya i saw wht sir did to u.. thts why i din laugh bcoz its almost the same as mine.. bt u and i are diff, and u cn get over it easily..myb i also couldhve get over it tht easily..if my patience wasnt short tht time..

& my grandma is nt coming back...u knw tht we are poor people & evn my parents couldnt afford a ticket for me to go wif thm.. i wouldnt say things like tht if she's still coming back..

im sorry if i kept showing tht black face.. i juz dont know how to express myslf by saying it.. so i also din say anything..

ya myb its my fault nt saying anything..i thought she know.. bt she din know..,, haha, she's slow aftrall.. im sorry if i ignore her or hurt her agn, ya im always the bad person..im always at fault.. im always the one who's giving in in the end, evn though no one ever knows tht im also hurt.. im always the one who's being sorry.. nth id evr ask special except to juz understnd me..bt no one ever..

"fine, its my fault..i admit it, its all my fault..bcoz it was me in the 1st place.. and thts how to end this issue fast.." thts wht i used to think evrytime whenever we gt misunderstndings.. and funny how it seems, it will end the same agn..

and i care to evry msg u put in my tag..bcoz you are also my bestfriend, and im nt blaming u for all this..and im in no position to blame hm or xj anymore, the one left is myslf.. coz im the one at fault ok..im sorry..

haha, and abt how skinny i was..LOL! ya, no one will laugh for me being over skinny.. & on my tht part of post, i was referring to hm tht time..coz i dont knw if she was showing concern, bt juz indirectly by playing wif my arm instead, see if i was hurt or not.. i reali dont knw.. or myb she's juz making a joke out of it agn...

& myb i knw y'all well..MAYBE...& i also love u guys... sometimes i juz tend to hurt those people i love...to make thm understnd how i feel..im sorry...

& to heimun:

i think u will be reading this or maybe not.. coz i think u hate me now.. w/c i think u'll reply agn by saying "no, i dont hate you" haha, agn i really dont knw if thts true or nt.. or u are juz being sarcastic... all this time i will be thinking tht all u say is true.. and i still believe you...bcoz i trust you and because you hve gotten closer to me.. u are so kind.. if i would make a list on the "times u stood up for me", "times i was soo happy bcoz of u", "times u helped me, times u were there" i think its endless.. your patience to me,, i think its also endless... times im hurt bcoz of you..i set aside.. bcoz its not worth thn those good times weve been through... i hope uve been happy wif me too.. i knw there are times u'll be unhappy too..like now.. sometimes i also hate you for being so quiet, not saying anything abt our misunderstndings..like now.. sometimes i hate tht im always the one who's goin to say out alot of things which juz make more problems out of problems.. sometimes i juz hate myself from being relentless talking abt these issues.. i juz dunno why the heck im saying these things...haha

ok, to the point.. IM SORRY! cassan, say u were upset coz i kept ignoring you ytd.. w/c i know,, bt i juz dont bother.. i pretend not to care... u asked me why im so sad.. actually im happy tht u asked me abt tht... bt part of me inside juz dont wanna give in lor.. so i kept denying and juz kept quiet.. w/c i think hurt you bcoz u are left nt knowing it... i knw friends are suppose to say out their problms to each othr.. bt i didnt! and i admit i was wrong.. if i said it.. this issue wouldnt hve gone crazy.. isnt it?haha.. blame it on ur dumb dumber dumbest friend..! sigh...

haha..actually i was the one who's expecting you to say 'sorry' to me..bt in the end i was the one..its always like this lor.. the time u were late ytd,,i was expecting you to sorry to me bt in the end i was one saying sorry to myself.. say, " im sorry bcoz i juz cnt leave my friend being late alone" i alwys think tht someone is not a friend if tht person always leave u behind..in the tough times.. so i dont wanna leave you.. evn though i hve to lie tht i missd my bus juz to cover up the reason...

ok, tht shd be all..i will be waiting for ur reply.. if i nv receive anything frm u, ill take it as u hvnt forgiven me yet... i will wait and do whtever it takes juz for you to forgive me.. coz u knw tht i cnt afford to lose you as one of my bestfriends..to lose those great memories tht we had, before we soon take our different paths in life.. i dont wanna waste those precious memories.. i hope u understand...

2009-03-16T17:00:00.007+08:00

i seriously hate today..

i hate tht my grandma left, tgt
with my mom back..
she cried, and i was still pretending
to be sleeping tht time..
i dont wanna cry infrnt of her...
im also hurt seeing her leaving..
whn i knew tht she was taking
the first few steps downstairs alr, i juz
strted to rush & see her.. bt i felt
more sad seeing her back &
white porcelain hair as she walked
down to the gate.. im v stupid!!!
i juz realized.. i couldhave said
'thank you' to her, frm the bottom of
my heart, for taking care of us..
for lecturing us whn we do bad..
for reminding us our house chores
as daughters of the family.. for the
nice dishes she always cook for
us during breakfast.. for the painstaking
patience she gave to us, as her naughty
grandaughters.. i couldhve
said so much things tht time b4 she
left.. i couldhve hugged her tight..
i couldhve spent tht littlest time
being wif her b4 we set apart agn..
IM DUMB! im seriously dumb!!!!
how cn i let this happen... how cn i
not show tht im grateful having her at
home!? tht,, it was soo much of a family
to me whn she's ard..

i alr admit to myself tht i hve only one
mother,, the one who took care of us
whn my real mother is nt ard.. & tht is
my grandma..she's the real mother to
me..& i first felt it whn she took tht role
once my mom worked overseas...
T-T i reali dont know now.. how much ill
change whn she's nt ard.. im so much
of a better person whn she's there to
guide me... i knw my parents wont give
tht much attention cz they are busy in
their own work.. & tht's the kind of
family im goin to face now... pressure..
stress.. dull.. i hope there cn also be love..
all i need is love.. im soo alone..

& whn she's gone..tht's whn i strtd to cry..
im so stupid right?... ya,, i deserve to feel
the pain.. for nt taking the opportunity to
express my feelings while she was still ard..
i hate myself..

& since gt band i nv hd to take her to the
airport...tht's more of unluckiness..
& more of it came during band.. i tried to be
myself.. as usual.. bt, i think i reachd the
limit, causing myself to be made fun of..
ya, its my fault falling... im so stupid! i
shdnt have tried to knock ur knees on tht
slippery corridor.. if nt i wouldnt hve slipped..
bt unluckily i did.. & was thankful tht u
helped me.... bt the most annoying part is whn
u & her strted laughing at me... i was like
bullied.. laugh at first, its ok..
coz ya, im stupid, i fell,, and i was trying to
laugh at myself too... bt as soon as it died, u &
her still kept recalling it... & do u knw how much
smaller i hve become bcoz of my stupidity
repetitively being bombarded to me? A LOT.
thn some more y'all laugh like im more
thn stupid,, like im some kind of a patient
escaped frm mental hospital or sth like tht..
like im hopeless..
i also got some feelings u knw.. i knw im
childish & cn always see me laughing & happy
all the time...bt,
i also knw how to be hurt.... & the most hurting
part is whn u kept asking me if im ok or nt..
why am i so sad, emo & all tht.. ya, i understnd
tht u are concerned abt me.. im thankful, myb
im juz so stubbborn & trying to be hard by
denying it... im sorry.. bt isnt it obvious?
tht im nt ok though im denying it... i dont knw
if u are juz confused,, or juz dont knw wht
reali happened to me, or juz dont dare to say
tht its bcoz of i fell juz now..bt im reali
dissapointd today.... coz u kept asking me,,,
although its obvious tht im acting weirdly bcoz
of wht u two did earlier on.. for making me look
evn more stupid frm tht painful laughs tht stung
me deeply, frm y'all.. & some more i dont knw if
u were reali concerned abt my arm or juz
making a joke out of it.. my arm was hurt,,
though i admit i was ok... i think i sprained
my shoulder blade coz its quite painful to raise
my flute up higher.. & ya, laugh at me, bcoz my
bones are brittle, bcoz im so skinny tht im
prone to fractures and all tht..laugh at me sum
more if you want..!!! evn though i cn say tht im
nearing to the point tht i know you, i still reali
dont knw wht kind of person you are.. wht kind
of friend am i to you.. or im juz someone u knw,
someone to accompany you, or juz someone you'll
eventually forget..i really dont knw.. & im sorry...
for nt knowing you better...
i juz couldnt hold it alr, & my patience had also
gt its limits.. sometimes i snap.. it would hve
been longer if certain things din happened like
this morning... i wouldnt hve taken these
things so seriously...sigh, im juz so out of
shape today...

& im sorry if ever i hurt your feelings
frm wht i wrote.. its always fair to knw the
reasons, i juz couldnt say it verbally,,
its better writing it..thts how i express
my own feelings...

& u knw wht,, im crying pathetically juz
bcoz of this... ya la, cn say im childish la..
cry for nonsense reasons..bt hope u undrstnd
tht its been hard for me today... & i cnt
help exploding..

& yup, im talking to you..
my GD GD friend..my close friend..
or shall i say the best of my friends..
whom i cn say who knws me well,bt
still unsure if i knw her..better...
& to my fellow 2nd flautist...
sigh...ya, i knw ive been cold
to you during full band... i snapped..
& im sorry.....

sigh...im alone... T-T i din knw
my days will be dull frm now onwards..
barely to have family..barely to have
friends..all i have is my dull self..
somebody save me frm this melancholy..
hopefully itll be you....

2009-03-15T22:32:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MA!!(:
although i gt nth for you..im broke..
and u are leaving tmr wif lola.. :'(
anw, i will do well in my tuition in
return!(:

this one is a new grp!! and LOL! i cnt believe tht
'ming' frm BOF is actually frm here lor!!!LOL!
his name is haiming frm the grp and he's actually
a chinese.. ahh!! dun like him lor, he's sooo gay~!
haha!(: hm.. i like tomo!haha(:

hm, this song is frm BOF OST(: by A'St1 itself.. i like this song!(:
haha.. the 'ming' im actually referring to is the one wif jihoo
(hyunjoong) frm SS501
nearing the end of the vid..haha! ahhh! he's sooo gay there lor!!

haha, ok, its 11pm..LOL! cnt believe tht right?haha & tmr i still
needa wake up early for band..haha, hm..nt reali feeling
slpy alr coz been slpng juz now..haha(: bye~

2009-03-13T20:28:00.005+08:00

hmm.. so today,, haha.. listened
to the 1st few songs of suju's 3rd album
in mun's ipod this morning!haha..
liked two of their songs named 'happy
together' & 'angela' lol(:

hm today's sectional was also fine!haha(:
coz of wenhui & cheryl they all!! lol, i nv
thought hongmeng looked inferior to her
sister!! thy were so opposite lor! wenhui
was like v noisy while hongmeng was like
always v quiet..LOL! so we like played
huntingdon and overture with the saxes!
fun!! haha, thy kept joking ard!lol! esp.
wenhui!!ahhaha!!! xD

thn sectionals aftrnoon no one went wif me..
coz mun was sick & needa go home & rest
while cassan nt comin & evn yuzeng!lol..
bt nvm, haha i still gt xiujing & wenhui thy
all there!!haha, so xj & i arranged the
cupboard!!LOL! thn there's this eraser!!!
haha, xj so funny lor!! she sniffed the frgrant
eraser like with a serious face & her
expression is v funny lor! haha, i rmbd whn
me & mun discovered tht frgrnt eraser &
how we were so addcted sniffing it & feel like
eating it!!LOL! so she changed the eraser
color for diff flavors!!hahaha!! bt it all smelld
the same!haha(: thn anothr funny thing
is abt the clarinet case w/c i thought an
oboe case put inside our cupboard!lol both
xj & i laugh like nonstop lor!! its the 1st time
i heard her laugh w/o sound!! we were like
laughing w/ no sound juz opening our
mouths wide while lookin at each othr on
how stupid i was!!!LOL! xD

so we greased our flutes too! & shined it
wif cloth!(: aftr tht i went home short aftr thn
ate at mac there..ordered double cheese
burger!lol! was seriously v full!! haha!!
you zhang saw me eating!haha, she bought an
icecream & she was heading home alr too!!

hm, reachd home..(: mun juz called me
tht suju's comeback stage is out!!! :D

this is one of their songs 'why i like you' (:
i think kyuhyun is hot wif his new hairstyle!!
ahh!! wht happened to eunhyuk's hair?!!!! T-T
he got a straight bangs & his eyebrows were
hidden, & i cn barely see his eyes!!..ahh!!
haha, donghae & kangin was on
specs there!! sadly,, kibum & heechul wasnt
there.. :( hm, so lookin forward to more suju
comeback videos!!!haha(:

LOL..unni say she's having fever now..
GET WELL SOON UNNI!!!haha(: anneong ppl!

2009-03-13T18:30:00.016+08:00

hm...haha, ok, i admit tht i shall post

long today... since nv blog ytd..lol(:

hmm.. ytd.. zoom it in aftr class(:

met cassan & heimun to go cass's house

fin her hw(: bt b4 tht went to kfc

to 'dabao' lunch haha(: cassan din
wanna buy coz she gt food at home,

so i treated mun as promised!lol, coz
she always treat me mah, ytd was my

turn!haha so my $12 so fast gone T-T
im back to being poor..lol! w bought

the new promo in kfc, its cheap bt the

contents is juz ok for the price luh..haha,,

ate at the inter while waiting for the

bus...thn reachd cassan's house!haha,
been long time alr since 1st went there..

so ate the cheese fries wif mun while
cassan prepared the coke for us! w/ ice!
LOL! so me & mun was like v satisfied
to hear the sound while cassan was

opening the coke coz we thought we

only drinking water.. haha!(:

me & mun shared on 1 mug and tht

caused the start of the problem.. 1st is
i drink 1st coz was v thirsty mah..the
cheese fries was too salty!! thn she

drank, thn whn i was goin to take, she

quickly took the mug lor! thn i told her
she juz drank! & it ws suppose to be

my turn..! unni being v childish say

the mug is alr touching her mouth so

she'll drink 1st!lol, thn i was thinking..

-___-" "ok whtever..haha"

thn cassan suddenly want someone to

cool her with the cardboard fan while she

was doin her hw.. so i
did.. soon i got tired & went to drink at
the mug agn, thn told mun tht its her

turn to 'fan' cassan.. w/c she also did..
BUT!!!

not long aftr i took the mug and drink

abit, she suddenly stopped 'fanning'

cassan & say, "im v tired alr,

my turn to drink!", reaching her arms

to the mug still stuck on my mouth cause

im drinking mah..haha, & i was like LOL!!

NO WAY!

like she purposely did 'fan' cassan v fast
so tht she cn drink in the mug agn lor!!lol,

& i was like wont tolerate her alr coz she

took my turn to drink juz now!lol so

shielded the mug frm her persistent arms!

lol, if cn reali only see how awkwardly

i ws sprawled on the floor juz to protect the

mug frm her! we fought & as she was
(heavy) i lost my energy reali quickly,,

shouted for help to cassan bt she also nv

bother.. T-T so mun got the mug and gulped

like one of the africans severely

dehydrated in the middle of the desert!

LOL!

thn it was also the 1st time i drank vodka..
coz cassan was drinking like half a bottle..
it was only 8% alcohol the rest was juz
green apple juice so i thought it was ok lah..

haha(: i only drink like abit le! like 1 bottle

cap!LOL!

at 1st i din reali like it lor, the stinging
sensation in my tongue! bt as u keep drinkin

it juz tastes like a juice!lol! i nv thought

cassan was tht strong.. coz i thought she'll be
drunk the time speech day comes later,

thn me & mun like imagining cassan drunk

while playing the clarinet!!hahaha!!mun, also

drink, like a few drops?! LOL! so she no effect..
though i drank one cap and fin the leftover
liquids in the bottle, my head strted feeling
hot and i was infrnt of the electric fan thre juz
to cool myself..

lol, wonder if cassan also felt same way bt she
seemed normal..haha, so she was like joking

letting me guess how many fingers she hv,

to check if i was drunk!!lol which im not!!haha

& i was agn laughing hysterically at mun's sec1
pic there!!haha, cassan was like prevnting me

frm goin her rm where mun's pic was pasted
in the wall! lol, she was strong & i was flattend

being pushd at the door there.. lol

aftr tht decided to go sch alr for the spchday..

needa report earlier for band.. prize winners
needa dressed up 1st so.. dressd..lol! it was

like v odd, few of us wore blazers in advance!

thn we also needa be in hall b4 speecday

itself strts while the rest prctice in the bandrm..

:( was soo bored bt thankful tht mangteng

was sitting beside me.. & bao on the othr side

w/c obviously i would nt be talking to..lol,

hm, myb talk abt mun & him?! LOL! haha!!

so mangteng & i were v noisy & talked abt

animes!haha, recommnded me some nice

animes!yay! hopefully will be watchin if gt
time!(: mun called me say they were eating

burgrs T-T askd teachr if i cn go out too

bt she say too late alr, so in the end nv..the

aircon was too strong so i was shivering until

i gt on the stage to rceive my prize!lol!!

aftr tht rushd to band rm! nv got to prctice
alr..so we were lining up outside hall, we were
blowing warm air to our instruments, thn

wishd jy to members!haha, all of us were
feeling nervous...

thn we were there sitting alr, i ws v stiff..
evryone was quiet blowing warm air, choir

sing 1st, it was fantastic!(: cnt turn

to see thm coz i think its part of discipline..

so i juz listened to their voices.. so aftr fin..

our turn!lol! i think the band played well
this time!! haha, though i played some wrong
notes bt not alot! both mun & i perfectd

our soli so nth went wrong!(: happy!!haha

aftr tht took pics wif seniors, saw vivian like

so long nv see her alr!!haha(: she's always

tall i cn say, though im older thn her... T-T lol!!

so in the band rm took pics!(:

haha, i like this pic the most!(: bcoz of our

orientation!lol(:

w/ hui geok!(:

flute/oboe section! (girls) haha, left hongmeng

out!lol!!(: (my face looks like im drunk there)
haha!! xD

w/ sir!(:

so the speechday perf was like our last public perf

b4 syf!(not including the exchange w/ schs lah)haha..

seriously the photo session there was like strting

to say gdbye to band alr... coz we alr sec 4s mah..& i

cnt believe it, things happen soo fast!!! :(

mun was quite sick alr tht evening so she din went to

mac wif us.. went home & i was soooo tired.. seriously

tht was a great perf band!! keep it up!haha(:

2009-03-11T19:47:00.005+08:00

hm....
ytd was speechday rehearsal...
it went well i guess..
except tht we played lousily..
thn rehearsed the price giving
too... lol, the band was cheering
for band members including me..
i got the top in combined humans
geog which was unexpected..
lol, i thought it would be yisi or
mel since they were reali v good in
geog..& reali din do quite well in
geog last last yr..bt still choose geog
coz..i prefer learning the present
& future!(: well, anw, hope cn
make good use of the $10 popular
voucher!!lol

& today, was..ok..haha,,
overall felt reali bored throughout
the day.. & LOL! i nv thought
tht today was wed.!!! suppose
to report at 8.15!bt instead, i called
mun at 6.45 which i usually do &
that makes me look so stupid!haha,
so paisei,, gd thing she was alr
awake, heng!ahaha!

hm,it was a boring day i guess,
& guess wht,, i managed to save $2.80
for the day!ahahaha! thanks for the
fishball noodle! i felt reali full!haha, well,
im working reali hard to fulfill my 'tht'
promise!(:

k, and wan say sorry to mir and cindy..
i felt like i was a pain...coz seriously i was
so stubborn tht time.. reali din mean to..
bt i juz dont want to sit beside a guy lor!
its v weird! & i hate it! not tht i hate
the guy lor,, LOL! coz obviously im sitting
wif lester and i dun mean tht, i mean
i hate it whn i gt no one to talk to.. it
irritates me,, seriously..bt anw, its better
tht he's away lor, coz i cn move abit..!lol!
so mir sat beside kevin, lol thn i sat wif
cindy..i felt so guilty coz i knw they always
stick tgt, & im in no place to be in between
thm!!sigh....

hm, seriously, i felt like in class, i hve no
friends..its barely tht i have..yup, 1st thing,
mun is there.. happy to see & stick wif her
in the morning bt ofcourse i will space out
once she is wif her friends alr.. recess,
i stick wif yuzeng and yueqin thy all, bt
sometimes i feel v sad coz im always left
behind esp. juz now aftr eng. i wonder if thy
rmbd me lor..thy juz walkd to the canteen,
& i was like racing behind sadly looking at
their backs, thinking.. "am i so unecessary
to be left behind?!" bt ofcourse i din let
my feelings win over myself & easily got
along wif thm,, w/c i also barely, coz most
of the times, thy speak chi..& i rather
remain quiet.. lunch, i totally hve no one..
hm, i cn say tht i talk to cindy whnever she
stays in class..& im quite happy(: bt whn
she's out,, i gt no choice bt to atleast look
outside the window as if sth is so attractive
there which is, so much of a lie..its miserable..
& juz now amaths i thought it would be the
same thing..sitting wif yuzeng thy all, bt.. i
was forgotten.. sigh.. i am like thrown
in many different directions,, unlikely to
find a place which i reali belong to.. & thts
exactly wht i feel in class... sigh... i miss mel,,
atleast she would wait for me & i wont feel
neglected....

ok, atleast i feel better now.. hm, temporarily..
bt i knw this'll go on... quite happy alr tht way
anw, nth more to ask..coz atleast im not totally
alone...thts wht im thankful of..(:
i juz cnt imagine sch w/o friends.... its like hell,
& might as well dont go sch if u dont have any...

tmr dismiss 12.30!!yay!! hm, hope it'd be
a fun day for me!!!(:

2009-03-09T20:11:00.006+08:00

yay!!!! i passed my 2.4!!!!

ahahaha! passed for my 2nd
time ard! lol!, im sooo happy!
hopefully mun can pass too
alr nxt week! coz i really wanna
try out badminton alr..its
been a long time since i ever
played!lol(:

hm,, nth much to say...haha
today no hw!!lol! band was
fine!(: hm, ok thn hwan luh..
i dunno where evrytime his
mind wander ard..lol(:
& i will miss mr. huang!! wont
be seeing him much this week..

hm, tmr is speechday rehearsal!
shd be v tired lorh.. bt its ok!
& i managed to spend $3.50 for
both my recess & lunch!lol!!
i managed to save 50 cents!!
ahahaha!! bt im reali satisfied
lor..the macaroni & fishball
noodle is really damn niiicccee!!

& took this photo ytd aftr church(:

gorgeous isnt she?haha(:

i will really miss her alot!!!!!!6 more days til
their departure bck to phils.! T-T ahhh!!!
hope time stops!!.. :'(

and LOL! mun juz called me, suju's 'sorry sorry'
song [audio] is out!lol!! check out in yt!haha(:

"Sorry Shawty Sorry Shawty
naega naega naega meonjeo
nege nege nege ppajeo ppajeo
ppajeo beoryeo baby

Sorry Shawty Sorry Shawty
nuni busyeo busyeo busyeo
sumi makyeo makyeo makyeo
naega micheo micheo baby' xD"

2009-03-08T19:19:00.010+08:00

first of all.. i wanna say thank you to Francis M.
the "master rapper" & my most favorite rapper
in my country (Philippines) for the beautiful songs,
films, shows tht he created.. you are really
awesome man!!

He passed away march 6,2009..& juz saw it
aired on tv juz now.. he had 8 months of battling
leukemia since aug.8.08.. and he finally did
make his way up, 2days ago.. i saw his blog,, he's
really cool man! though he gt the disease, he din
feel hopeless.. i saw his medications..it was super
scary... he hd bone marrow extraction!lol, i
cnt believe my eyes whn i saw the pictures!!
anw, despite of tht, he stayed active..though i juz
knew this bcoz im nt reali watching tv much since
i left my country..

Francis Magalona- the lengedary
filipino "master rapper"

one of my favorite songs he sang
was "kaleidoscope world." i cn still
remeber how i would burn the tracks
to the cd coz i hd the software my
pa bought, thn blast it on the
humongous speakers my dad bought
whn i was still in primary sch!lol!
bt surely, Francis M. will remain
unforgetten! coz You're the man!!!

btw, today i went to church wif my
family!(: its been a long time since i
ate the holy communion and wiped
the holy water wif my fingers on my
forehead.. im happy to be cleansed
away frm sins, i confessed all the things
i did wrong to God.(: i hope blessings
would come to me & my family!(:

and im thankful!! coz aftr mass we ate
at my favorite LJS!haha(: thn mom
gave me $10!weee! & u knw wht,, im
going for amaths tuition!!!yay!! im really
thankful to God!! lots of blessings in
a short period of time aftr the mass!hehe(:
hmm.. i've nth to say else..guess im
happy with my life!!(: all i want is to
stay healthy! thts the most precious
wealth & blessing tht i have!(:

tmr is 2.4km run!!! HWAIITIIING!!! :D

2009-03-07T16:46:00.003+08:00

yay!! and i fin the book i
was reading!lol, approx. 2
weeks?! thts quite long lor..
bt the book is also quite thick
with small printings in it..
ok, well, uhm.. in the end
Naomi& james werent tgt..
coz he said tht Naomi is too
perfect for a guy like him!
LOL!
bt aiyo i also dun understnd
him lor... why must bring up
the past? Naomi also din mind
all tht happend esp whn she gt
back her memories alr... AHH!
ok whtever.... it was Naomi &
Will bt thy werent tgt..the
ending nv mention anything..
bt they were bestfriends..and it
shd work out for thm tgt! he knws
evrything abt her and she knws
evrything abt him.. whts more?!
a perfect couple perhaps..
bt its very rare in real life lor..
for a girl to have a guy bestfriend..
haha... anw, its only in the book
tht u cn witness such rare things..

btw today was a boring day..
had a short blackout bcoz of the
lightning.. hm, & my sis went
for her CCA, juz where did she hide
her foolscape paper?! lol, i cnt
evn strt doin my hw lor..gt lazy
whn i coudnt find it so i was juz
basically slacking.. hmm...and
skimming thru the pages of NP
magazine.. so i hv 12 choices of
courses in my mind alr?

1. International Business
(i wanna go overseas!lol
i was thinking of Shinwa co. in
BOF!haha, so juz went into
my mind.. business means alot
of money to me!hahaha!)

2.Tourism & resort management
(i wanna travel arnd the world!LOL,
and have fun while working! as wht
the section in the mag says..)

3. Audio-visual technology
(IT SOUNDS COOL!! ill be working
like a PA crew..haha, bt ive no
experience btw,,haha, i juz wanna
work behind the scenes! suits my
character most..haha)

4. International Suppy Chain Management
(its basically delivering..haha!!! whn i saw
MILLION OF DOLLARS it strucked me!)

5. Logistics Management
(this one is also part of delievery.. almost
alike of the previous one.. whn i thought
of delivery, it means i cn travel anywhere,
which i wanted to do!haha)

6. Digital Visual Effects
(this one is also cool!! 3D/2d animation..
to create a comedy 3D cartoon show
is one of my dreams in life!lol! i would
want to create game softwares too!!!)

7. Information Technology
(this is basically IT stuff(: hmm.. making
business through use of IT sounds good!
myb i would learn to create computer
softwares of my own!haha)

8. Multemedia Animation
(i want to be an animator!! one of my
ambitions in life!!haha)

9. Molecular Biotechnology
(hmm,, this ones cool cause youll be
working in a laboratory..always wanted
to have a clean and quiet workplace..
and i always wanted to work behind the
scenes..)

10. Pharmacy Science
(i want to create a drug tht cn cure my
illness!lol!!)

11. Business and Social Enterprise
(business + social, not so my type bt
id put it anw..haha!)

12. Network Systems & Security
(this one sounds professional!lol!!
i also hve always wanted to catch
culprit in the society w/o becoming
a police itself..lol! This one's cool
cause u'll be using technology to
catch thm!!haha)

well, they are not really in order..
so far....i really dont knw wht
to choose frm thm..its v hard lor..
sigh... anw its still quite early to
decide yet.. haha, k ja'ne!(:

2009-03-06T21:28:00.010+08:00

haha! i juz saw super junior's
3rd album! called "sorry, sorry"
LOL! they all look so miserable
lor!! haha esp. heechul! OMG!
he looks like a beggar with
his centre parting messy long
hair!LOL!! i din see my eunhyuk!
T-T
and their album teaser juz came
out today.. check out at
imop.wordpress.com(: LOL!
kangin grew his hair back alr!haha!
bt he looked like an old man
there lor.. ahhh! i dun like the
teaser lor, i dun understnd the
part where it showed a woman's
lips painted in thick lipstick!ahhh!
and the teaser also so fast end!!
T-T bt anw,
mun say their album will be
released 12 march thn thy will
hve a comeback on 13th!haha,
expecting to see all of thm agn!!
cnt wait!! xD

anw, today was tiring day..like
i spend my whole morning teaching
my section members 1by1.. atleast
i hve monitored how were thy
performin all along..(: & i almost lose
my voice lor!! haha, bt it went well,
& changhwan might be joinin us
for syf.. if he proved he is commited
lor... mrs. low say 'he can, bt he juz gt
the problm of making friends' and
thts also wht i think lor... we juz dun
understnd him sometimes..coz he'd do
weird things tht is beyond our
explaination...mola-yo..ahahaha!! bt
hope he'll get along wif us..!

sectionals, i had fun! atlast i cn prctice
by myself this time w/o attending
to my members!LOL! the funny
things was whn mun & i went to the
toilet! 2nd floor at NA stream block..
super scary lor!!! coz both of us heard
a weird sound like 'someone/something
was inside one of the cubicles,
murmuring sth' i suddenly get
goosebumps and once i heard tht sound
i quicky grabbed the door handle and
traced out
lor!!! mun also refexly followed me coz
she also gt hear tht sound!!LOL! i thought
i was only imagining bt i was not!! i was
super scared! bt despite of tht we were
laughin hysterically instead at each othrs'
reaction!!LOL!
we ran up the stairscase and raced to
the bandroom!haha, i still dunno wht
was tht lor....bt until now its still giving
me creeps!! ahhh!!!

thn anothr funny thing was tht, whn
she accidentally poked dot.dot.dot.!!
ahahaha!! actually i wasnt believin
her tht it was nt on purpose bcoz her
face always lookd so suspicious..lol!
so i tried to take the flute stick frm
her so tht i cn take revenge!lol, it
was like a fight of tug-of-war whre
both of us also dun wanna give in..
whn i finally hd the stick, i was trying
to get an opportunity bt she alr suspected
me.. whn she knew tht she tried to run
away, thn i accidentally pulled her
sleeve so hard tht it gave a 'crrrkkk'
sound!!LOL! both of us shoot a look
at each othr momentarily thn i strted
to burst
out of laughter! hahahaha! so funny lor!
her left sleeve hd gotten wider
bcoz the stitch was broken and torn!
lol, bt reali din seem so obvious la!haha,
so i decided tht ill take it as my
'not on purpose' revenge!lol!

aftr sectionals went to old changkee to
buy chicken wing and chicken nuggets!
i was sooo tired & satisfied tht whn i
gt home i dumped myself to bed at once..
thn i woke up at about 7pm..

thn i dunno if id still mention this bt
ytd night i was crying whn i went to slp..
sigh.. my parents expect so much abt
me lor.... all i was asking thm was to
support me bt i juz ended up getting
scolded... if i work hard, bt still din
succeed, i knw tht i am not to blame thm.
or anyone else.. there shd only be
myself tht is whom to be blamed.. so
i shall get in to it..bt i still want amaths
tuition le..im juz making myself secure..
sigh......bt i knw mom&dad work so
hard for our education..its rude for me
to insist and ask for more....
& to unni, thanks for the encouragement!
I SHALL WORK HARD!! (:
HWAITIIING!!!

2009-03-04T22:09:00.008+08:00

ytd was speechday
rehearsal and syf rehearsal
at SCH..
speechday rehearsal..
dot.dot.dot. it was super booorring!!
& some more this yr we needa bow
aftr we received our prizes..
last yr also nv do tht..lol! gd thing
tht i gt mangteng to talk to,
saved me le!lol, i was the most late frm
thm all!..as expected..haha,
& fishball noodles was nt bad!(: i shall
try it more often!haha

rehearsal at SCH was an experience!
the sound ricocheting within the
hall was superb!lol soo coool!! haha..
and its also hard to blow louder lor!
its like the walls were absorbing the
sound all at once!haha(:
thn the bus ride bck to sch was really
super long..like we hd a city tour..lol
woodwinds arrived later thn the brass..
i was v giddy tht time, felt like
vomitting bt didnt!haha, wanted to slp
bt mun kept disturbing me so in the
end nv, bt watchd IP man instead..lol
IP man was a cool movie!haha, it was
shown by the tv in the bus.. thn aftr tht
hei and i ate
at mac. cassan 'tapao?' (lol, dunno how
spell) coz she wanna faster go home..
so juz wanna thank mun for the treat lor!
we ate cheeseburger, half/half thn large
fries..lol! bt still nt enough lor.. the
funny thing is tht we were so hungry &
desperate tht we evn fought for tht 1
stick of fries!lol! we evn disturbd the guy
also eating beside our table, lol! so funny!
haha,, thn aftr tht walked her abit to
inter thn home-d..

juz now,, ahh! chem is killing me!haha,,
mun called me and im feeling the same
way, i coudnt concentrate,, coz my mind
is too tired alr... & the facts and
calculations couldnt be absorbd by my
addled brain..!!!!! its a
difficult subject aftrall..sigh...
ok, whtever.. btw, i passed my amaths!
lol, bt nt reali happy wif it.. its a
borderline mark..sigh... and i cnt believe
tht i gt A2 for my emaths..lol! atleast
quite happy lor.. and im also glad tht my
english is improving!(: haha

well anw, im lovin evryday!(: i feel like
im stuck bt thankful to be tht way.. im
happy!(:

2009-03-02T20:23:00.009+08:00

LOL! this morning while my sister
& i was walking to the
overhead bridge.. the steps were
wet obviously from the heavy
downpour ytd... thn i knew it
was abit slippery.. so tried to be
careful while walking upstairs..
thn i suddenly rmb Naomi frm
the book tht i was reading.. lol,
on how she fell frm the stairs and
end up getting an amnesia,haha...
thn whn i was walkin downstairs
while thinking abt it, in a split
second, i nv thought tht i slipped
alr! OMG! my butt hit 5 times on
the granite cement steps feelin the
slippery metal lining on the edge
b4 i managed to grab the railing
to stop myself frm gliding down
further with my butt!! so painful
lor!! it happened so fast and u knw
wht my sis reaction was?
instead of helping me 1st she laughd
at the awkward position i hd in
the middle of the stairs.. she evn
said tht my eyes almost popped
out of shock! LOL! soo bad!!! the
worst part is i injured my leg
quite badly... it hurts damn lots & i
cn feel its abit swollen.. bt ive put on
salonpas alr..lol! hoping itd help!(:
atleast my butt is still quite ok la..
coz gt sufficient flesh to support
frm the impact mah...hahahaha!!

well, my sistr tht time couldnt stop
laughing inside the bus! she said
tht my expression ws soo funny tht
time and its a reali gd thing tht only
two of us cross tht bridge!!
haha, or else ill be soo embarassd!
LOL!!

anw, today was a fine day(: wont
elaborate much alr.. tmr is speechday
rehearsal!!AHHHH!! i dun wanna go
leh..i knw it would be sooo boring like
the last yr's one...sigh.. i wanna go
for band... T-T tmr is SCH syf rehearsal
too!! hope to do well!(:

2009-03-01T19:58:00.004+08:00

the rain was so heavy today....
i hope the same would happen
tmr!so tht no 2.4!! yay!!!(:

hm, basically today studied
and fin phys hw, and maths hw
too.. hm, & mom cut my hair!!
LOL! haha..its shorter alr bt
nth much has changed to my
hairstyle though... :( haha..
so far hei was the only one who
gave me a gd advice!lol..
myb i shdnt reali cut it lor...
next time thn cut short, and tht
will be aftr olvls.. hm, bt now tht
cassan also wanna cut hair too
i feel like cutting mine also!!lol!
aftr syf...hm..shd be mugging time
alr... so i think its abit annoying
if ill make fringe this time..haha

today also hei called me two times
to dicuss abt hw..and talk abt band,
lol.. i evn talked to her sister!haha!
talked abt how to overcome
weaknesses within the section..
well,, i reali hope it helps!(: thn while
i was reading my book she called me
agn informing tht BOF ep17 will
come out later on tues!..lol, she was
v upset knwing tht lor..haha, bt anw
still ok for me coz usually im watching
evry tues. or weds if nth much to do..
haha.. thn she told me she'll create
another onew theme for me!!lol!(:
lets see if i will really get 'shockd' once
i saw it..lol! laughd for *crap reasons..
haha, nt to mention alr.. only heimun
knws xD haha..

and she called me agn juz now to ask
abt amaths..lol, she must be v bored
typing an sms alr lor.. coz she's nt
using her own phone..lol!

well, hm, anw, the book is getting
interesting.. Naomi had her memories
all back!! bt she still hvnt told anyone
yet... and i din knw she also loved her
bestfriend Will,b4 she became an
amnesiac! OMG! she was cheating on ace
the last time..lol, k, i juz love james and
naomi tgt..thy're sooo sweet!haha xD
7 more chapters to go!! anneong!(:

2009-02-28T20:32:00.010+08:00

to cut..? not to cut?
to cut..? not to cut?
to cut..? not to cut?
to cut..? not to cut?
to cut..? not to cut?
to cut..? not to cut?
to cut..? not to cut?
to cut..? not to cut?
to cut..? not to cut?
to cut..? not to cut?

ive been thinking abt it for
the past few hrs alr..and still
couldnt decide..no one would
give me a good advice... T-T

short myb nice...?
"MAYBE!" T_T ahhh!!
i wanna dare cut short!bt dunno
if itll look nice on me or not..
ive already told mom abt it,
my sis, my grandma, consulted
evryone at home excpt for my
dad..lol! nvm bt myb he'll say
"ok" anw.. ahh!! actually all of
thm were not helping me at all!!
ahhh! otoke?..

i wanna change my hairstyle reali
badly.. my long hair makes my
head feel soo heavy... T-T myb
whn i cut short, nt only it will lighten
my head..bt also, i wonder if ill
look cool or not?haha..like for a
change, i wanna try out like nicole's
and sarah's.. i thought they'd find
it easy tending to their short hairs
than having a long time tieing it up
like me...

& ive got enough reasons to cut my
hair alr...
1). its too long & its bugging me
2). ive been using this hairstyle of
mine since i was in primary..
3). my mom always wanted me to
hav a short hair..lol
4). im sick looking at the same old me
5). i thought a change might be good,
look cool, carefree w/o worrying abt
my hair..how messy it gets whn i play
arnd too much..
6). I DONT WANT TO TIE ANYMORE!

ok.. reasons why the othr side of
me doesnt want me to cut..
1). too scared tht it might not fit me
2). ive created a 'trademark' for all
this years..myb evn my old friends
wouldnt recognize me whn i go back!
3). my grey hairs would be more
obvious on the surface if it happend
to be short alr...
4). my classmates and friends in sch
will surely noticed how drastic i mde
changes on my hairstyle, and ofcourse
will hear good and bad comments..
5). i dont knw if my friends will still
like me like the way i was b4 wif my
old hairstyle...
6). IM SCARED I MIGHT REGRET!!

lol... i wouldnt think this way, if i hdnt
read the book which im currently readng..
haha! Naomi cut her hair, and his boyfriend
broke up wif her bcoz of tht!lol!! he
obviously wanted her to have long hair,
ponytailed.. he also wanted my hair long,
ponytailed and disheveled along my back..lol thts why i
kept this hair for a long time..bt i knw its over, &
i thought to myself tht i shd move on..haha
tht is reali so ridiculous lor!! he was inlove
wif her hair..nt Naomi herself!haha..ok
whtever, bt changing appearance doesnt
mean changing personality too! the bk is
reali v nice! i wish i was an amnesiac too
BUT!! i prefer not.. coz i dont wanna forget
the joyful past i had.. and the nicest people
ive evr met in my life!(:

so 8 chapters left b4 i finish it! for the
bit of a second i realized tht reading a
pictureless book is more worth reading thn
a book full of pictures! coz it makes u
imagine how it was like.. the 5 senses..
see,hear,touch,smell,taste.. all the
components to make the characters alive..
i reali hope this will help me through my
essays..haha(: somehow..

2009-02-27T20:29:00.012+08:00

uhm..well..ya..hvnt post much recently..
busy shd be the reason why.. haha, k
whtever tht happend ill try to summarize(:

wed..juz anothr day full of free periods..
bt did hws to be productive of time(:
i thought it would be awkward to carry
a book, which im unlikely to do so,, so kept
it inside my bag inside until MT, thn strtd
flippin and fin read abt 15pgs in an hr?lol!
bt yup! it's like almost impossible to
understnd the words while hearing the
chinese teacher pronounce those familiar
cadences of language evrytime we gt an
MT class.. so ya, time went & i find mrs
seetoh quite funny though,, whn she had
to dismiss the class late for a moment of
dead silence..
lol!(: i din rmb much bt, aftr sch acc hei to
buy hairband..thn went to eat at LJS!
been long time since the fries tingled my
senses of enthusiasm..lol, i missed it!(:
we talked openly, so open and continuous
tht i nv realized tht my chicken was alr
inside my stomach.. its was fast, bt i felt
awkwardly full there.. frustrations and
stress, breaking down, band, SYF. i blurted
out all the things im currently unprepared
of...and the heavy burden hd somehow
been lifted aftr having someone to talk to(:

went to comics collection.. and dissapointingly,
found no shinee items still..sigh... so yeah.. &
waited for our buses to come..somehow i knew
how she knew super junior and like 'em alot..
lol!(: & knew juz how the trend goes frm loyal
to unfaithful.. like whn i changed frm "heechul
to eunhyuk" and "kibum to donghae" in her
case..haha(:

thurs. was the geog test. dot.dot.dot.
i dont evn know if i did well lor.. neutral.
i knew tht i had studied the night b4 bt
unsually cnt 'concentrate' on the paper i
was glaring into.. :( anw, i did my best.
fullstop.!
i cnt reali recall much excpt for the band
prctice.. sectionals wif mr. hwang!wow.. he's
incredibly amazing esp. whn he usually
undercut seriousness wif his jokes..!lol
"angry ah!" as he would always say, bt
his expression doesnt tell us so..!haha!!!
& i did his advice improving my rhythm..
evn if lightly tapping my fingers on the desk
or evn rolling my eyes frm side to side
like a metronome makes me look absurd..lol!

today.. hm, i cn say a v tiring and long day..
bt short as it seems..its 9.07pm alr, & i cn still
rmb last monday, chem period, whn i was staring
at the hands of the clock, tellin myself how slow it
ws to make its rotation evry minute, and in juz
a blink of an eye its friday and now, im writing
this thing..lol. its funny how easy to lose track
of time..haha(:

well band.. and sectionals..i thought itd be boring
bt it was not..i finally witnessed how hongmeng
took the lead and apparently i was also like him
whn i was in sec.3..haha nt sure of wht to do..bt
i like his initiative, and hopefully tht side of him
cn continue and grow strong(: i would really like
to thank kenneth for painstakingly teaching the
juniors which i hardly do to thm coz im not much
equipped with skills to do so.. :( well i hope
it played significant part to the juniors! esp, with
their running notes!(:

hm, recess..had fun time wif cassan!!(: haha..!
lol,, played like for dunno how many times..
the kaebi kaebi game!haha.. i always got hit, bt
she was also in a disadvantage coz she ws fairer
so her legs flushed frm my turn of hits..lol
& apologies for tht..haha! she was so hyper tht
we did it evn in the staircase until my bag get
caught to the banisters and nearly slipped..lol
she guffawed like nobody's business bt she was
always like tht to begin with..haha! and evn
though im 17 alr, its just common to be dragged
abt and follow childish acts and games..tht makes
me feel so much younger(:so, she was tireless..
evn inside the classrm we also played the same
game!haha(: it was fun! and i still cnt believe tht
we are already sec4s!lol! xD

hm, today also nv get to hv sectionals.. promised
hei to go wif her for her hp repair..it was damaged
'badly' as wht she described.. whn its only the
c and back button (i think) tht was peeled out frm
its place..lol! bused to wisma.. alighted at lucky
plaza there..been such a long time since i went
there.. bt the place still looks so familiar..(: saw
weird things not to be mentioned..lol! and... yup!
saw the sony ericsson style for the 1st time!!(:
saw the phone she liked.. w/c was 'ugly' in my
point of view..nyahaha! and both liked one phone
whose keypads was 'qwerty' type!cool! bt u need
to hv slender fingers inorder to type in swiftly!lol
saw a pink laptop too!! the gadgets were super
cool! as well as the prices too! soo cool tht you will
freeze for a moment once u saw it!haha.. super
ex.. so aftr tht waited for her until she was called
and sort out the problem.. aftr tht, she kept
tellin me tht she will miss her phone..lol! i thought
it would take weeks b4 she could get it back..
bt until monday, she cn take it back alr!lol! it
was a kinda short period of time for it to be
'missed' though...haha(:

so we went to eat at mac there.. it was her treat!
and i cnt believe it! my ears rang whn she said
"my treat" lol! and i was as if wanting to check
if i heard right or wrongly...lol! so i couldnt say
thank you bcoz i knw it worths more thn tht..and
apparently in the future it would be my turn, so
i keep the thanks 1st for the meantime(: haha..
the atmosphere was like.. weve had a backtrack..
frm 2009 to old-fashioned & homely 1980's!lol..
we were outside with people treading on one
side and cars passing by on the other side.. no
air-con, fans hanged, doves fly over the tables,
polishd wooden tables and deep closely knitted
wooden chair if i rmbd correctly.. hei almost felt
fallin frm it whn she first sat on it!haha(:
and most of all the music was the main thing
why the atmosphere turned out to be those
old days.. way back in the 1980s.. it evn played
one song mun's dad hd favorited on his cd..lol
it sure seems odd being there..haha(:
thn aftr tht was suppose to treat ourselves wif
icecream, bt it turned out tht we were v
full, so in the end nv..haha(:

ok, the funny thing was whn we were goin
home(me) / to her tuition(her) mrtd to
queenstown..for the 1st time saw the new
mrt joo koon..lol! thn ws v tired.. mde ourselves
feel disgusted abt holding onto the railing..
it was her idea of 'people might hve did
some of those unsightly/loathsome things'
lol.. so w/o hesitation, kept ourselves steady
while depending on each othr for balance..
cn see the absurdity though.. bt bcoz we hv
kinda seen such things apparently..lol!

thn reachd, and i dunno who hd the idea of
taking bus lor.. its obvious tht a 'pig' shd hv
thought of tht bcoz she was lazy to walk like
wht i hv suggested...haha! so i really dunno la..
and i din rmb tht i knew how to take bus frm
there to thre.. and 'why did we cross in the
1st place?' the qn left unanswered.. haha, myb
bcoz it was the lane the bus is likely to pass
by tht tuition center..? "51" so tht must be it!
mun confirmed it! not me..haha! so the 1st
try was a failure bcoz the bus din end up on
the direction we wanted to..so alighted..and
there goes my precious 45cents..lol! we ended
up laughing at our own stupidity..haha, thn
we crossed the othr side of the lane agn, &
waited for the same bus! lol! thn i juz realizd
tht the bus was goin to the bustop at the
queenstown mrt there!! and i was like... OMG!
wht hv we done! we were like bck at the same
place leh! thn mun strtd laughin coz we were
like two idiots walk there, cross take bus, get
lost, cross agn take bus, and ended up at
the pt of origin!.like a dice game. we landed
on a mark saying "sorry! back to START!"
lol!!! we laughd to our own absurdity! she
evn laughd until she cried lor..lol, i hd
to comfort her by saying "its ok, only
45cnts hd come into waste, dont cry!"lol &
it was really ridiculous lor! we kept blaming
one another for fault..playfully arguing abt
who strtd, and all tht.. shooting words like
"YOU LAH!" lol! & bcoz of tht she was few
mins late for her tuition..haha!

ok, hm, reachd home and was goin to slp
bt thn hei dsturbd me by sms say "foot
slp!" nyahahaha! xD w/c obviously meant
"dont slp" to be correctd.. i thought she was
speaking alien bt i rmb tht she was using her
sister's old phone so it might hv been hard
4 her to adjust..lol.. & it was during her tuition,
so it might hve been difficult to conceal her
actions too..haha! bcoz of tht i thought of readin
a bk insted of slping and 3hrs hd passd
and im still at chap3!lol.. my sis say im too slow..
bt how cn u possibly understnd if u juz scan
ur eyes through evry lines w/o understnding
those words too obscure to understand?..lol
k, la she's pro, a bookworm i cn call..haha

hm,well, working in progress! hope tmr
will be able to undrstnd physics alr!lol(:
anneong!(:

2009-02-24T21:21:00.009+08:00

haha,, my days in sch
were always fun..! some parts
were boring though.. like whn
im glued to my seat evn
barely moving during periods
tht i needed to really be sitted
on my seat!lol.. bt anw, im
getting used to it..ahaha,

anw ytd was class photo-tking..
cnt believe it was the last.. & as
usual i was sitting infrnt! anw, was
soo surprised to knw
tht hei was the shortest among the
tallest!? nyahahaha! i knew it!!!
i knew tht she ws only a few cm taller
thn me!!lol! nth much la, we hd
pull-ups and i hd stomach cramps
because of tht.. band was not reali
doin good... i reali dont wanna blame
anyone coz im the one to blame anw,
im a lousy sl so this shd be the price
to pay i guess...reali dunno leh...

thn today.. hm, i only rmb the time
me, hei, & cassan, and tanwan went
to mac to eat,, i was soo grateful to
unni!! ahahaha! xD coz she somewhat
treated me in a way... bt still lost my
$2, so dunno if i shd still b grateful..?
ahahaha!, k la, im not so bad.. thanks
hei!(: so cassan cnt stop laughin coz i
also dunno...haha, she crazy lor, ya
knw..HAAAA-HAAA! hahaha! xD thn
the time we were goin to their tuition
and ofcourse home for me, we were
talkin abt scary things.. like the horror
ad in channel u, and the darkwater..lol!
thn hei, suddenly shriekd whn i was abt
to tell the part frm the darkwater tht
im mostly scared of.. SCARED ME TO
DEATH! i was soo shocked tht i threw
myself backwards and my heart seemed
to skip a beat at tht moment of climax..
i sucked in air, my heart throbbed faster
and saw cassan a few mtres
away behind.. hei ran towards wht
she was screaming abt... and you knw wht
she saw?!!

.
.
.
.
.
.

it was filthy.. with frothy coating
almost tht of a meatfloss bun, just
tht greyish black in colour.. it was swift
as it ran through the canal.. i didnt
evn saw it bt i was picturing it whn she
told us!

it was a PATHETIC RAT!

the funny thing was tht.. i was soo scared
bcoz i thought it was sth abt the darkwater..
coincidentally, it was raining & a drop of water
fell onto my face at the moment she screamed,
and i freakd out bcoz i was 'sort of' imagining
the black water leak and i somewht pictured
the apparition of the dead girl frm the movie
juz infront of me.. in short, the reason why
hei screamed!lol! it was too exaggerating
though bt, we were talking abt tht thing le..
how cnt it be the one im currently thinking?
right?! hahaha! cassan thought she was only
trying to scare us, bt frm the distance she hd
made frm us.. i knw SHE WAS SCARED! haha
all thanks to heimun!LOL! xD

anw, 'for one more day' by mitch albom
was a great book!(: fin it by 3 days..haha(:
& its was also the first pictureless book
tht i hd ever fin to read!! it sth related to
ghosts la..bt which family is nt a ghost? i
think i believe la..it was a true story actually,
a touching story.. & i nearly cried in some
parts... the mother was soo sweet... T-T
it made me realize and love my mom more!
all thanks to my sis for recommending
me the book!! and now im reading 'memoirs
of a teenage amnesiac' its a bestfriend &
a love story..well, hope this week will be
able to finish!(:

2009-02-21T18:06:00.013+08:00

haha, had fun today! music exchange
with host band loyang sec sch(:
tgt with few other schs, bedok green,
bedok view and east spring sec. sch(:

morning met hei at the bustop(:
thn assembled to go to loyang sec.sch.
hui geok couldnt make it coz she gt
family outing so we short of 1st flute!
hei was alone deh,bt its ok, she's a v
strong player anw(: in the bus, mrs.
low is reali a v dedicated teacher lor..
she teach maths to michelle and
xiujing on the spot the bus le!lol she
was teachin inequalities,,haha(: thn
prcticed the piece all the way to loyang..
thn we reachd the sch, they all talk abt
tht its shawn tok's sec.sch.?!lol, the
building was damn nice lor..!(:

thn 1st was sectionals... damn scary lor!!
haha,i was the only sl in 2nd flute! lol
as expected flute sls frm the schs were
all in 1st flute!thn i felt v awkward leh!coz
i was the one who conducted the whole
2nd flute!ahhhhh!! bt did tried my best
lor..ahaha!! thn i juz realized tht 2nd flute
nt much priveleged lor... coz 1st flute
like gt conductor stand and piece too!
while i dun have,, lol! bt anw,, though
2nd flute doesnt hold much melody lor,
its still the best!ahaha! most of thm agreed
with me!lol! felt reali bad though,,haha
coz 1st flutes play v well..lol! T-T

thn all of thm were like v serious.. hei also
said they nv talk to each othr leh!haha,
2nd flute still more fun!coz we mingled to
each other! and i gt met friends too!!
din managed to rmb their names though..
haha!(:

we evn take pic! conducting thm was
reali an experience!(: i felt tht they were v
open towards me, pointed out their
difficulties & prcticed those parts to
overcome those weaknesses!(: though i was
also one of some of thm whose weak la..lol!
bt thn reali tried my best lor since i was the
only sl there(:

flute 2 (formal) (:

flute 2 (informal) (:

haha..i only rmb yiwen & loraine
frm all of thm!lol(: thn gt one
korean girl beside me who also like
korean boybands!lol! she likes minho
frm shinee bt like BIGBANG the
most!hahaha!! so we always talked
korean to each othr!lol! thn loraine
was surprised tht i cn talk abit..lol!
so she also want to learn!ahahaha!
"yobosaeyo?" i juz learned tht frm
hei ytd night..lol! bt thn whn i said juz
now she was v impressed coz i cn
speak v well!lol!!! hahahaha!(:

thn aftr tht,, we were the 1st one to perf
lor..was v scary! sir was nt in the good
mood tht time, my fingers bcame v stiff!!
nt as usual lor..thn we always get to rush..
dunno why.. like it was not like those
practices we had...sigh.... myb coz of the
pressure lor...so scary..i bet SYF is even
more scarier.. i din hv a feel how it was
like yet bt now tht its drawing near i cn
sense tht its more thn wht it was today..
super scary!!! so we juz wishd everyone
jy lor!lol(: gd thing was..i played the 1st
flute melody correctly bt thn i rushed! thn
sum parts i kept on playing wrong notes:(
gosh... thn huntingdon i was soo confused
lor!!coz, there was 2 pieces in the file.. 1
2nd flute and 1 1st flute! thn i was lost
somewhere coz i forget to switch to 2nd
flute tht time! ahhhh!! so i was like
freezing for a moment...ahhhhhhh!!!!
anw its over bt i learned a lesson so i shall
practice harder!! HWAITING!!!!(:

so aftr tht, i reali felt so down lor..coz
all of us think tht we din play well...sigh..
other bands play v well!! still cnt believe
why they got bronze last SYF.. the loyang
one was like kranji lor, in my point of
view...they all v good!(:

thn aftr tht went to give all the cards
except the one which hei made!lol!!
myb bcoz of the ladybird tht looks like
a cockroach lor!!ahahahahaha!!! xD
thn bused back and hei was like OMG!
i was sooo hungry to the extent tht i
was vv desperate to throw the water
bottle lor!coz she kept insisting it was
mine whn i throw it long ago alr in the
sch dustbin!lol! ok, i knw its abit lame
la..lol! bt my face always look suspicious
meh?! omg! i was soo hungry alr tht
time,, how cn i still play ard..lol!! haha,
laughd, and laughd until she cried & my
stomach v pain!lol!

thn ate at mac wif cassan!haha!! chitchat
for v long, bt the rain was still pouring
hard! she sent me to the bustop there..lol
its like as gd as running all the way through
the rain lor! her umbrella was soo small tht
both of us also v wet!lol!! thn homed and
whoa~ like v nice to slp lor..kept tellin hei,
coz she at tuition mah..ahahaha! xD thn
i juz woke up la.. almost 2hr slp for me!(:

later will be doin hw!! fighting!!!(:
where does all these determination come frm?! :)

2009-02-20T19:56:00.003+08:00

haha, today was a fun day!
bt sooo tiring actually..lol(:
CCA photo-taking turned out
soo well!lol, i was sitting wif
cassan and yuzeng!(: thn
later on heimun came to join
us durin the informal!lol(: i felt
like i exaggerated my smile!
ahahaha!!(: the sec1s were
so enthusiatic as usual..lol(:
so far shirley knw the fingerings
so well alr!lol(: and their 1st
song to study was.. "twinkle
twinkle little star" haha!(:

aftr tht was sectionals..lol!
tiring lor!like weve played for
soo many hours alr!haha(:
its always nice playing wif 1st
flute!though i admit tht 2nd
flute is scarce of melody..lol!
bt blending was soo nice lor!
i juz love bein in 2nd flute!!!(:
and heimun is so childish as
ever!ahahaha!! & i juz love my
flute now bcoz of the magic
cloth tht hei dscovered!lol! my
flute is sooo SHINEEEEE now!
haha, i cnt believe it with my
eyes though lor..it felt like i hv
a new flute!!haha(:

tmr is music exchange wif
othr schs! hope to have fun!!(:

2009-02-17T20:55:00.010+08:00

whoa..my whole body aches like
hell..lol.. hm, well, anw today was
a short day perhaps..lol..
& din reali managed to make my
5 free periods productive..lol
coz POA aftr reading the reading
EL, i also cnnot answer coz the my
notebk is wif teacher.. so i juz
tried to learn the chinese poem
yueqin wrote for me! bt nt orig. for me
la its for someone else bt it sound
sweet and sad actually, lol.. only
cn rmb the 1st line.. it goes like this..
"wo bing bu shi bu ai ni" ahahah!"
ok, i sound so pro reciting this
1st line!hahaha!

hm, as usual eng was boring, ms. lee
nv come so needa do some exercise,
agnes & me always chat instead!lol
abt band..haha,

thn recess someone was daydreaming..
lol.. smiling to herself while eating
her bread..lol! i wonder who she was
thinking lor.. this days i also tend to
be like her,, haha! bt nt reali obvious
la..whn im inside the toilet perhaps!?
or whn im goin home alone..ahaha!
haha(:

thn SS was a dead silence between my
seatmate! oh, man..
i was super bored lor, i also felt uneasy
doin pair work, we din talk at all!lol
excpt for the 1st qn! sigh... i actually
tried to talk ok, bt he also responded
like 'ya' 'ok' -___-'' so i also no choice,
remained quiet instead..bt ms. kaur
was v good!! ahaha, i was also one of
the students who dun ans qn directly so
i get so low in my source based..lol,
gd thing tht i reali din choose history as
im bad at sources..lol!

thn MT & was v happy tht mel went
into our rm!!haha, whoa..i missed her
alot, like so long nv hang-out wif her
alr lor..
actually mir also asked me abt it bt its
too diff alr now tht we are in different
class..i knw sec2 was the most fun coz
me, mel, mir & mon were tgt! bt sadly,
mon had to transfer and mir was in the
diff class by sec3, thn nw sec4 i also diff
class wif mel alr, thn same class wif mir!
haha.. so i intended to fin read the geog
chap10 bt since mel was there, we nv
stopped talking..lol! & they are alr in
integration!! OMG! cool,, hahaha...

thn today aftr sch unni was soo persistnt
lor,, to get her vday card!lol! i was
hesitating coz i was afraid tht i might
appear so mean agn coz of wht ive made
for her!haha.. ive drawn a dwaeji & a
namu,, i was laughing like hell whn i
was making it!lol! haha, well, soo hapi
tht she liked it even though it looks
weird!haha(: my drawing skills were
super bad aftrall, bt thn reali tried my
best to make sth new lor..haha(: & glad
tht it turns out well, same goes to cassan!(:

k, tmr 5 free periods still!! ive
fin the mind map internat'l scale for
chap10 geog! for nat'l scale i shd be fin
it by POA lessn tmr!(: anneong!

2009-02-16T21:05:00.006+08:00

haha, today was a fun day!(:
ran 2.4 in PE, i failed by
1 min leh! can u believe that!?
ahhhh!! like a was dieing alr
aftr my 3rd round!lol.. anw,
alot of people also fail includin
heimun!nyahahah! yuzeng,
yueqin and many others..lol!
so i shd nt feel so down,haha(:
bt i seriously dun wanna repeat
agn leh... T-T

so anw, aftr tht was MT and i
felt soo slpy and tired esp tht
it ws aftr PE bt the teacher keep
shouting lor..i also dunno why..
so i was like forcing myself to
stay awake! cn u imagine how
torturing it was?!haha(:
thn phys was lookin at the sch
mag w/c i left dunno where,,
must be inside the band rm la..
haha.. thn chem, did SPA wif
cherie and OMG! she like gt
almost all experimnts correct le!
haha, as expected!(: & i cnt
believe yuzeng is soo childish
lor!lol! she kept bullying me luh..
haha(: thn aftr tht was maths..
was ok.. thn lunch did the amaths
and OMG! im so pathetic lor!
din knw qn10b was tht easy!!lol
juz sub in the x value frma! ahh!!
like i spend so much time workin
on it le!lol..

thn was amaths &
i cnt believe i passed
lor!haha! hm, this is the 1st time i
got a good pass luh.. so my efforts
studyin for it were nt wasted i guess..
haha!(: thn aftr tht was band(:

mr.hwang is always damn funny lor..
kept saying angry bt he din seem to..
hahaha! so nw im feelin the stress?
lol, like he always put pressure to me
lor.. i feel sooo small nt also doin tht
much for my section..bt i tried my
best..also up to thm if thy dun wanna
practice by thmselves lo bt thy show like
tht, must know how to play hor... as
in precise..evn i SL also gt problm le..
ive been lacking prctices i guess, so i
brought home my instrument this time(:
hope it helps evn wif the tight
schedule tht i have..sigh.... otoke?!

thn full band was reali tiring lor..
the tempo v fast! bt did make it though
juz bluffing the running notes..sigh..
juz now i was prcticin tht lor, bt my
sis complain i too noisy like a bee buzzing
evrywhere,,lol so stopped alr.. bt
tmr shall concentrate juz on tht! the
beginning of the choice piece..ofcourse
the running notes lah..
"flutes are meant to run" like wht mr
hwang said.. so shall prctice harder!
fighting!!(:

k, tmr will be full of free periods!
yipee!! haha, & glad tht cassan liked
the vday card tht i made for her(:
i reali burn the midnight oil juz for tht..(:
unni shall be receivin hers tmr too!lol
thinkin abt wht i made for her
makes me wanna laugh! xD nyahaha!
haha, k la, mian for being so mean!
lol(: k, ja'ne!

2009-02-15T22:23:00.007+08:00

whoa..so tiring.. been
doin sth special like for 5
hrs alr? lol.. anw, & i cnt
believe tht ill be touchin
my crayons again..like for
how many yrs alr since
i last used it?!haha(:

anw, belated hpi vday to all!
had fun wif my sis juz now..
1st time goin out wif her for
the month(:

tmr shd be a great day!(:
& i compiled the hk vids tht
i took durin the trip.. some of
thm i hvnt uploaded on yt..so
ya..haha! i realizd tht some
part were damn funny lor! btw,
the complete set of vids,
i hvnt uploaded on youtube yet..
lol!, myb on my free time(:
whn i saw the vids agn, im strtin
to miss it agn alr... sigh... well,
anw, hv to move on!(: i knw
there'll be more exciting trips
coming up!(: might not be
overseas though..haha, k, ja'ne!