sigh,, seriously im still not feeling well, bt finally im going to the hospital tmr!! atlast! i really wanna find out wht's happening to me..

common test..lemme see, so far i only got 1 A,,haha well, ofcourse its my fave subj. obc(: i got 2 B's and 1 C,, so far so good..well, abit dissapointed abt the C tho, (its electrotech, as expected).. if only i was feeling well tht time, simple qns like addition and simplifying i still miss to do..!sigh, anw, past is past..gonna do better in the future!(:

and i think there's really something wrong with me when it comes to guys.. u knw got this guy tht seem to like me, (he keeps on looking& staring at me) fyi i see it in the corner of my eye!lol bt i kept on avoiding him, its not tht i dont like him, just tht its weird being ard guys, you know? haha, and i also find it weird talking to guys,, and also when he smiles at me, iget goosebumps, and its really freaking weird tht i dont want to see him evrytime.when it comes to looks not tht bad, bt still i would choose onew over him!haha,

and another guy from dance class who was my grpmate from the kcc bonding day, who purposely volunteered to partner with me & broke the poky stick so fast in the race as if trying to fin it fast so tht we can get to smooch, omgosh! well he's good-looking,smart-looking, tall (perfect!) erm, probably..bt not really into tht.. he even tried to get my no. aftr the camp.! goosshh.. (but i was like pretending to be in a rush, so din get to hand him,hehe..) and i get this feeling tht he also keeps on looking at me, you know the feeling tht someone is always staring at you from the corner of your eye, bt u just pretend tht you dont see him..got one time i purposely look at him when he was looking at me, thn he was like smiling as if wanted to try to say hi to me, bt i immediately look the other way..!haha, its really v funny!!

i think i know alr why these were happening the past past few days.. its because of my hair,, not really used to letting it down since in secondary sch, i SELDOM or never untie my hair.. well, letting down my hair, i seem so girlish..which is erm...not the used to be me, when im supposed to be a boyish and sporty type..lol, so ya., when my hair really grew very long decided to cut it abit short and rebonded it to get tht boyish feeling agn even though i wont get to tie it alr, (sick of it since been doing it for 10yrs alr!!)

and you know wht, & ofcourse i also put on my boyish clothes which i like..haha.. and u knw wht the 1st guy told me?lol "hey joyce, i din realised you rebonded your hair"LOL! well i was like going to say "do u like it?" HAHA bt i din instead said "ya", end of conversation. ( the inner me tells me tht, "im alr not the girl you used to like! *evil laughs) well, i really like my new hair now since its very soft!((: its like for the 1st time i had a smooth thin hair!

so this operation is successful and i hope no more (staring) alr, coz it gives me creeps!! well, some people may tell me tht im lesbian bt tht's a big NO! i just like girls around, more thn boys, it gives me a comfortable environment((:

& i hope the next time i blog agn, ill be better alr!! get well soon to me!!!(((: