sigh...this ws a long weekend man... gt lots of tests tht ocurred..tues. ws physics, wed ws chem and ss, and thurs ws amaths and geog... im seriously tired..

sigh... dunno hw to start this post leh.. i still feel burdened abt the incident tht happend last wednesday pe... i couldnt stop myself thinking abt it... sigh...if only i hve been v careful tht time... if only i wsnt tht too hyperactive... this wouldnt happen to her..im really sorry for the injuries tht i caused her..it suddenly happend in a blink of an eye, and i couldnt do anything..im so useless... T_T i knw juz saying sorry wont do anything..i really feel v bad, and guilty abt myself.. its v heavy inside and i cnt stop worrying.... i hope she's doin fine nw, and i hope she's nt being sarcastic abt the time whn she told me tht she's juz ok..hearing tht juz mkes me hurt alot.... why do those people who were kind always receives the most painful things in the world..? i wish i cn turn bck time.....

sigh.... i still dunno how to face her nw the nxt time whn i get to see her again.. and i dont knw if i will ever enjoy pe lessons agen... i really hope tht she wont hate me, though i caused her alot of trouble...bt if evr it ws, sigh...it deserves me well, i guess... so tht i would also hve the same pain she went through..... bt i really hope tht she's one of the kindest person in the world who could still forgive me... if it is, i'll gve my whole life juz to thank her....

and btw thanks to our pe teachr, ms. liu for tking good care of us...i think she's the most worried for the two of us... juz nw she called me, and asking if im nw ok..i said yes!! back to normal! :) myb bcz i applied the anti-inflammatory gel my mum recommended me, and wanna thank her for the massage! haha!! i felt ticklish though bt it hurts.. xD my mum also told me nt to train my leg like tht of a handicapped.. its cz it will get weak, and my joints will be stiff,, so the ACES day walk today helped me alot! thanks mum! (i dunno if its an excuse for her lah, cz she cnnot accompany me go for xray today so she let me go to sch instead?..haha, smells fishy.. bt thanks to mum anw! :)

anw, ms. liu also said tht i shouldnt feel bad/guilty abt the incident...bcz she say its nobody's fault...and she say tht mangteng also wouldnt want me to feel bad...so i felt tht my burden ws lifted abit...sigh..evn though thts the case i still feel the same way... myb any people tht hve experienced the same thing tht i had would understnd hw i feel nw.. thanks to the people ard me who continue comforting me evn though,im the one tht should be blamed..sigh,, thanks to my sister, ms. liu, my mum, my grandma, heimun, melody and yueqin... :) thanks to y'all..!if nt i wouldnt mke it through the day... :) i hope mangteng is feeling well today..and i hope her wounds will recover soon!! :)

well, today's national day celebratn ws good.. the aces day ws quite fun.. ws wif heimun for the time being.. listening to songs on her new ipod.. haha, wif tht all the way, i nv noticed tht we reachd the destination quite fast..aftr tht went to 4n2, thn had quizzes and reflectns frm the sec2s ndp videos..its quite fun watching! the sec2s presentations are v innovative and entertaining...! haha, aftr tht we went to sing ndp songs... i ws also encouraged by my friends, so no choice bt to sing..haha,i admire the singaporean spirit! esp. wif cheryl and rafidah! haha :)

aftr tht, ws planning to go home bt gwen cassan and heimun ask me go wif thm to tiong... well, ws nt feeling like goin..bt thn its coz of cassan told me tht im not goin bcz of gwen..?! thn ws like huh?! why ah?! gwen also my friend so why she thought of tht..?haha, dunno lah..reason i dun wanna go is cz i wanna play psp at home..im v excited cz goin the game soon! bt thn i alr say ok lah..and also dun wan gwen to feel bad abt me.. so went with thm..its coz thy also wanted me to go evn though i feel so odd.. haha :) hmm.. we bought cake for gwen's mum cz its her bday tmr..! :) took a long time to decide which cake..haha, if i ws gwen would also feel the same way esp tht its her frst time.. :) aftr tht went for piercing i think..cassan, gina and wenxin..omg! i feel sick aftr watching the whole scene!! we also went to eat at long john silvers? haha, my frst time! :) the food ws nice! nxt time gonna ask my sis to eat thre the nxt time we come agn.. :) talk talk talk, joke, joke, joke..haha, and scare thm by attemping to ring the bell! lol! nxt is went to chameleon if i nt wrong..omg! thy r like my sistr ok!! i cnt rmb how long we take thre juz for thm to choose clips! haha... thn tried out the rings.. sigh..if only thy knew how dissapointed i ws,, cz no ring would fit me...my finger is too slender! T_T bt for thm thy thought like im showing off! haha, cz im skinny mah..thn thy all ...fat?! lol! thts why i feel v odd..haha, jkjk! actually thy v normal leh and im not... heimun is funny, opposite of my case, if no ring could fit me cz my finger is too thin, thn hers is also the same bcz her finger is too big! lol! actually she's quite scared trying out cz sumtimes its stuck onto her finger and hard to take out..haha!!

well...i hope thy had fun...! :) the reason why dun wanna go outing wif my friends here is cz im v boring..i dun speak much and all..esp tht im nt close to thm either, bt thn thy are v easy to get along with thts why i nv feel bored along the way..i hope same goes to thm.. :) its today tht i knw tht thy r a fun bunch of people!haha, the ones you cn laugh and joke arnd wif..sigh... i juz miss my old friends more and more...

well, today is also beijing olympics opening so go watchd tv.. and my sistr is so damn high ok!! haha, i dunno wht has gotten into her, bt i laughd like crazy whn she strted to talk insane things abt the diff. countries and the athletes lol! no matter how i kick her, she wont stop!!haha!.. she's gone mad..myb bcz its quite late nw.. 11.15 pm ok! its v late for us to sleep! haha..! k, end here, nw she's in the bed nw..wndr wht she's dreaming abt?! lol! k, bye n goodnight! :)