sigh...wht a day.. hmm.. gonna write all my feelings abt today bt im not emo ok.. i juz wanna say it out thts all..haha

whn i woke up in the morning, seriously ws not feelin tht well.. evry morning is a pain to me esp whn i go to toilet..its v dreadful thing bt as time pass im getting used to it so im nt feelin much fear by now...i also dunno if this would end someday, bt i pray evry night tht it will..hopefully..

went to sch quite late..not too early juz like last mon & tues. arrivd sch at 6.30! xD ws meeting mel of course.. to catch up any work i hve missed durin the syf week.. bt today ws nt been able to do it again cause she meetin yueqin who dun wan to cum so early,, haha i also understnd her lah,, actually i also dun wanna wake up too early bt for the sake of my sch work, i am! hmm.. saw thm walking on the way bt nv called thm, juz followd thm behind...haha, well ws nt reali in the mood of talkin so continued walkin while listnin to music.. thn whn thy happen to turn back thy saw me, thn i pretend to be seeing sumwhre else bt cnt reali hide it cause i smiled alr..! haha! xD walked wif thm into the tunnel there..

hmm.. today nth much 1st period ws PE and ws reali upset whn i knew tht i lose weight! T_T felt like cryin leh.. evn though its only 0.3kg, its v importand for me.... i dun undrstand why i cn't juz gain weight this past two yrs here whn i eat alot and nv skip meals... im thinkin tht myb bcz of the dreadful thing tht is happenin to me evry morning, i cnt seem to grow.. i felt like all the things tht i eat ws in no use.. and btw, i dun undrstnd why i bcme shortr! last time im 154 leh nw im only 152! sigh...is thre a problm in my backbone?! hmm.. speaking of tht, i also dunno y its v hard for me to reach my toes nw during the morning exercise.. myb i reali hv gt a problm.. and since i cme here i reali bcme more skinnier like ALOT leh!! omg i juz realized whn i look at my hands! most of my veins are nw v visible to my skin.. and i felt like my cheeks are slowly sinking.. T_T my grandma evn told me tht i bcme skinnier since she last saw me whn i ws in the province bck thn....i also dunno why...

and ss is uhmm.. how to say ah.. the teachr is like v cruel to me... cz she nv allow me to go toilet.. ws reali v urgent tht time leh bt she made me wait an hour b4 i cn go to toilet!! so tht time ws nt reali v comfortble for me.. im afraid tht if i moved much i will urge my pee to cum out and it hurts leh... esp tht i hve gt a problm sumwhre in my kidney..im reali v scared whn the results cum out...i hope monday would nv cum... anw, whn she called me to go to toilet it ws too late alr... i cnt pee!! and it ws vv painful! thn sumore tht time she told me "v urgent right?" thn i say it alr, thn why did she mde me wait for an hour frst b4 i cn go,, v urgent hve to wait one hr meh?! its like a torture to me.....

ws nt able to concentrte to wht she is talking abt cz she mde me feel tht way.. aftr class went for consultation wif mrs. low.. it ws fun, haha, i reali like mrs. low! hmm.. ive gt a clearer picture of sets now, hope ill be able to do well tmr! thanks to her! :) ok byebye..gotta sleep nw..