today ws extremely tiring but fun..! haha.. in the morning gt band practice.. ws able to meet with heimun at the sch bustop, thn we were slightly late so needa fall-in bt she dun need alr cz she acting band major for the day..haha, the time we were fallin-in, i bang wrongly..haha, lucky keith nor chrstabel nv noticed anything so it went on smoothly,, aftr tht went band rum..

warmed up wif sir.. thn he gt share abt one story of the water- acidic and alkaline thing.. aftr hearing the maggi experimnt ws reali horrified cz i liked eating those stuffs esp. whn i ws still in the phils. myb i've been abusing myself frm too much acid intake in the past and it appears tht regretting it nw.. :( sigh.. bt to look in the bright side ,must drink evian?! haha! so tht cn live a healthly lifestyle like sir! :)

ws the acting sl agen.. well,, felt like ws nt reali suit for it.. the truth is im nt a reali good flute player,, im juz caught in the passion of it.. tht's why i cn play, hmm.. abit well i guess,, or juz fast to cope up wif it.. bt thy all say im juz being humble for denying it.. well, the main reason is nt it,, its cz i hv gt no confidence.. i alwys hve gt the thinking tht being a normal member in a group is enuf, juz tht u shud do ur part.. bt being a leader tkes more effort and responsibility.. i knw tht im being selfish bcz im hesitating to tke tht responsibility, which i think i am nt capable of.. its juz like whn u decide to drop or not.. some things are meant to happen bt each choice u mke changes evrything.. u might enjoy being in ur class, bt if u cnnot cope up, might as well drop right? or else it'll be difficult to get good results for 'O's.. bt ur giving up ur own happiness, and also ur dream future of going a higher college to go to university..
like being a leader u must hve tht confidence to tke the duty, as well as whn u r in the top class,, u must put in the necessary effort to satisfy ur dreams.. nw, i still dunno if i still wan continue pure science or not..nw tht its reali hard to get satisfactory grades for my maths and physics.. and i also dunno wht future will the flute section hve if being an sl ws the given duty for me,, as i myself could nt shw tht confidence of being a leader..all i want is to be a normal band member,, thts all, its juz tht i dun wan to be a superior to my section.. evn though i looked high, i felt so small whnvr thy tke me as a leader..like wht a shameful sl flute section have, im reali nt good enuf to be...my english is bad, im too quiet, im concerned bt thn dunno hw to express, i care bt i dunno wht to do, im too numb to feel anything, whn sumone cries, needed help..im so useless.. :( sigh dun wan to be like emo lah,, 'this is juz the place whre i talk and talk and talk' rubbish things..haha, gomen!

well anw, we played pieces, hmm.. i cnt blow sum of the high notes..haha, its cz my lips were dry agen due to the air-con.. sigh.. played all shook up, 2nd suite, the bells?haha, and asian selections.. ovrall ws ok lah.. aftr band, walked to the bustop wif heimun.. ws talkin abt language bcz she goin chi tuition aftrwrds..haha.. cz she evrytym speaks english bt she's a chinese, thn i also questioning abt it.. bt thn reali thankful to her lah, cz she evrytime speaks english mah, so i cn undrstand her abit, haha.. if nt thn ill be the onli one who cnnot undrstand wht thy all talk in our section.. i also scared to ask thm lah, cz i think its none of my business if thy speak chinese, bt thn i still gt hope cz atleast heimun ws thre, she also evrytym gt say wht thy say so real thanks to her..haha, and she return bck my cd for concrt wif a new cd case! thanks alot to her! haha, shudnt hve bothred much abt it,, juz a lil scratch leh! she's so kind.. :') im reali thankful! haha! hmm.. i dunno if she'll get to read my blog agen.. bt thn i hope she wont read this cz its a v long post, she sure wil get bored..haha!

anw, aftr band, saw mel smsd me abt watchin movie.. ws also hesitating abt it cz $8 leh! thn i scared to spend my hard earned money.. i ws planning to save it and change it to peso if evr i get to go home by june..by thn ill be reali rich leh cz it cost a lot of peso to buy S$.. sigh.. bt i also wan go lah, cz so long nv watch movie agen.. i miss the cinema..haha! so played psp til 3, bcz 4 ws meetin thm.. ws so glad to say tht i finishd brave story game alr! and the ending ws quite good lah.. his bestfriend ws cured, thn thy go watch movie..haha so sweet..! i wonder wht lvl joel is nw.. cz he also gt tht game..haha..

get dressed thn off to tiong bahru plaza.. i dunno, bt i kinda saw gwen? in there stepping in to bata? bt nt so sure... well, met quan and mel at kopitiam, quan say tht i looked like a rockstar whn i put my hair down! nyahaha! he also complimented my shoe, o.u.t.e, he say it ws cool! jenny also say tht my shirt ws cute, bcz gt penguin in it..haha!, actually i looked so childish leh.haha.. awhile later meet miranda, jenny, franciska, and leslie at burgr king..haha.. gave mel the card we mde for her, cz she goin bck mynmar to help her people.. its kinda dangerous though so we all wish her a goodluck..hope she'll tke care of herself.. anw, we spend the time at kopitiam telling stories while waiting for the movie at 6..

the first one is abt melody's country.. and its all politics.. i slightly cn relate abit of it though so i kept silent listening to thm.. leslie keep making us laugh, he's so lame as evr.. thn i rmb frm politics thing to ghosts! haha.. its cz mel and jenny saw in the tv abt the haunting at raffles mrt... actually cn watch in youtube leh bt im too scared.. ill juz tell the story..
thy say tht this ws caught in an overview camera in the lift at raffles mrt.. at first there gt 2 people who went in the lift.. thn aftr thy reachd the level, whn the doors opened thy went out, bt it seemd tht something ws left behind.. it ws a grandma i think, who ws left, bt the two people nv noticed so thy went on ahead.. bt the thing ws seen in the camera and it looked so real.. as normal people, usually the movement of walking ws nt seen on the grandma.. it ws like floating in the air out of the lift straight.. and my hairs suddenly stood whn thy told me tht! i ws reali v terrified.. i felt like its reali a real ghost... and mel's and jenney's face looked so serious.. thy also looked v scared.. the question is, hw cum 3 people went out of the lift whn there ws 2 people who went in there originally?.. its v hard to explain lah,bt those who believed in ghost must hve gt an explanation...

aftr hearing tht, quan decided to investigate abt it..haha! he invited us to cum to raffles mrt, this night u knw! bt i strongly disagree..haha, although i ws abit curious.. its cz my fathr will get mad at me if i arrived home late.. bt thn mel, leslie, jenny, and i think miranda, went there.. i wonder wht happend to thm... it gives me goosebumps evrytym i think abt it.. thn aftr the ghost thing, leslie keep on telling lame and funny jokes, thn i also cn't stop laughing...evryone of us were v noisy laughing.. thn the people arnd us in kopitiam keep lookin at us! haha..aftr tht went to watch movie 'speed racer' haha! rain ws there! the movie ws cool! haha, gt time where leslie gave me choclate while watching the movie, thn i ate it, thn i nv thought tht he only wants me to get half of it..haha, bt i ate it whole, thn he say nvm, haha.. so sorry leh! and thanks! :) aftr we watchd movie, leslie thn told us tht whn he grew up he wants to be a speed racer! haha! thy all send me to the bustop, evn though there's no need for it, bt thy keep on insisting.. so we all waited till bus 33 came.. thn leslie told me tht the bus is full so shud i wait for anothr,, thn i also thought bus 33 tkes forever to arrive! and its alr v late! 9.30 leh! haha, i also scared cz im alone.. so bid goodbye and squeezed in the bus..

reached home and ws v tired.. my fathr ws nt angry.. gud thing..haha, he evn invited me to eat my dinner which i did, thn aftrwards wait for my sis to arrive cz she gt camping,, thn we told stories.. and i shared abt the raffles mrt.. cz she ws in newton..thn she say tht her classmates keep insisting to use the raffles/city hall interchage, she couldhve seen quan and others, thy all.. good thing she chose the doby gaut instead, and whn i told her abt the lift thing.. she say tht, she will nv use lift agen!! haha..

ok here thn.. mon. no sch, vesak day!! yay! tmr, shud go out wif my mum and pops.. :)