hmm.. band prac.. thought i will be late bt am nt..haha, lucky! hmm.. 1st day of the new leaders to tke over.. sigh.. din reali enjoyed tht much.. morning stayed in 5n1 class? to learn the system of the band.. bein SL is nt easy as wht i reali thought! startin frm nw i reali feelin v uncomfortble leh,, its like am nt reali capable to be there... :( i hope the one sir mentioned to be mistaken of choosing as part of committee is me.. aftrall i reali dun deserve to be one of thm... :'( and also juz wanna say sorry to my members whom ive dissapointed today.. scolding people is nt reali in my nature..its v awkward for me to scold,, and more of tht im also afraid to hurt othr people's feelings.. sigh,, i juz wonder tht if i continue wif this.. thy wouldn't be respecting me as their SL at all.. esp. the juniors.. im reali v dissapointed of myself leh,, i cn't do anything.. :( i knw its hard for me to lead thm esp tht i juz cme last yr.. and i felt so sad tht there is no one there to help me.. and ya i agree, "ur the SL, its ur duty.." felt like cryin while hearing those words.. :'(

sigh.... i hope i cn change my attitude for awhile.. myb i should communicate to thm...bt thn its juz too hard leh,, i juz felt so sad and odd tht i couldn't understand thm..if only i knw, i could hve done better.. haha, its reali funny leh, i din knw tht on my first try am gonna breakdown like this...haha, gomen-neh?... i juz wanna express hw i feel.. sigh,, i hope i cn be able to scold thm w/o concerning abt their feelings.. aftrall its for their own good..haha, fr nw, myb ill juz try to look into the bright side.. :)

speaking of tht, its my first time eating lor mee? today!! haha, i din knw its spicy..bt thn its vvv delicious! juz suits my tastes! haha!! bt on the othrhand mde my stomach upset, so ws quite distracted during the practice.. haha, my lips almost get burned bck thn.. its cz i dunno how to eat chinese food mah.. sumore gt chopsticks..haha, bt thn reali tried my best! :) the reason why my mouth felt reali hot is bcz i almost sip in all the sauce tht hve gt the chili taste..! i use the spoon to grab the noodles tgt wif the sauce and ofcourse the chopsticks to assist..hehe, thn i wondered why heimun doesn't evn complain how spicy it ws,, it ws like eating a jolokia pepper frm india!haha,juz like tht! i've gt water bt i still feel the burning sensation in my mouth.. sum more heimun evn din hv standby water to drink! haha,, steady! thn eventually figured out wht the technique ws by observing her eat the lor mee..!haha, she pickd up all the noodles by the chopsticks first thn put into the spoon.. wif tht, she cn avoid much of the sauce which ws spicy.. aftr i knew tht, i also followd..hehe,, bt thn im nt reali very good at using chopsticks so it took me long b4 i cn gather all the noodles on the spoon! whn i ate it, it ws totally different.. cn't barely taste the spice! haha, thn cassandra helped me put all the food into the spoon.. its cz i v slow..haha, gomen! :) sigh.. im reali troublesome leh, esp to my friends.. if only i ws born a singaporean all of this wouldn't be new to me, and i also wouldn't be a bother evrytym..haha,,

tht's all!! :) hope i cn eat lor mee some othr time agen!! tmr shall strt my project! hehe, i v excited leh,, i hope tmr would be perfect! :)