today ws full dress rehearsal for the appreciation concert on friday. The costume ws quite weird and my court shoes are lose!! haha!! i feel awkward walking leh,, and when i put on the blazer i feel more weird thn whn i put the blouse only..haha!

ahmm.. practiced the whole program.. played all pieces.. and sir was dissapointed.. bcz he felt like we are not ready,, and he said its happening all the time.. but good thing he's patient lah!! we are very lucky we have a v goOd sir alr.. ^^

the seniors cried..they felt like we dissapointed them.. its not tht we are not working hard!,, we have been working hard but it seems tht it is not enough.. evn i felt tht,, bcz am nt prcticing hard.. i can't bring home instrument..thts why i cnnot prctice to the fullest.. =(

and this day was the first time i saw heimun cried... i knw she has been working hard but she ws just scared.. of course all of us would experience first time lah.. i also experienced frst time.. the time when i saw a real dead body fall off frm an HDB, it was last wednesday and it ws reali traumatizing.. evn i ws scared,, aftr saw the blood...it ws terrifying..during PE lessons i felt like iam going out of my mind..its v hard to forget.. thanks to hui jin who comforted me.. ^^ i felt better..

bt the "fear" she felt ws nt like mine,, she ws just nervous bcz she's playing alone, and i undrstand tht,, she felt very sad aftr tht.. although i gt nth to say and juz cnnot find words to comfort her (bcz its nt reali in my nature, and my english nt gud, later paisei,haha), i also felt sad lah.. i felt tht my senior is alr a part of me... whn nora cme to comfort her, she strted to cry, and i also nearly cried you knw!!! gud thing am strong,, nv let my tears fall off..hehe.. thy went off to prctice and for sum encouragement.. am really thankful to nora leh, am v thankful she's there..

..evn the majors juz broke down infront of the band.. it ws reali sad lah.. thy also said tht the alumni who went off to toilet ws actually crying bcz of dissapointment..

aftr tht we run through all again.. and it ws better thn before.. heimun's fear alr gone and she did v well during her solo,, ^^ sir smiled, suddenly the band strted to gain energy again, and we played, i think most of the pieces, satifactorily done ^^ the sadness suddenly turned to happiness,, and it ws really great, evn i, hve confidence in playing well again.. bt nt reali tht well,, i screw up sumtyms..hehe

aftr tht put bck evrything to band rum again.. and yup!!! my mothr is cuming to the concert!!! i hope dad will be considerate enough to see me play.. aftrall i hve inherited my love for music frm him!!!! i can play piano bt i so badly wanted to play flute more!!!! evn if ull do anyth to send me to piano tuition, i won't.. music is learned within..and i found the instrument tht suits me well and thts flute!! happy?!! haha!!

tht's all for today.. tmr hve to revise maths and do all the hmks.. jan na!!!