yesterday ws v sad lah, i kept on crying.. im v useless.. juz kept on mking burden in my family, bcoz my bladder pain juz wont stop lah,, thn my mOm and dad frm work like v stressed bcoz of me.. if my case wud be serious, thy will sent me to the doctor, and mind the expenses tht thy will make.. bt, i also dun want to bothr thm lah, if only i hd my own money, i cn save my life without the help of thm.. its nt tht i dislike thm bt bcoz i pity thm lah, bcoz of me!! kept on crying, thinking my life wudnt last long, and am definitely crazy tht tym lah.. cn say tht frm the family, am the crybaby! i alwys cry infrnt of thm.. i sw my sistr cried myb only twice or thrice.. i inherited this frm my mom, she also evrytym cry whenevr she see me cry..

today, same day! i ws struggling frm pain..i also thought to myself tht, how long wud i handle this??.. i told my mom tht, i cnnt anymore, and thn she ws like in silence,, i knw she cnnot do anythng for me, bt she gave me medicine to relieve the pain.. i cried agen.. today am at home, hoping the pain wudnt cum bck as its temporarily gone by now.. researched abt this sickness..

as the doctor said tht my urine is toO much in protein, went to find related diseases and tht is kidney disease.. well, i found out tht protein in urine means tht u gt blood in urine, and i ws terrified! the doctor din jz told me directly, so tht i wont panic is it? symptoms were, the feeling of nausea, difficulty in breathing, anemia, fluid retention in the eyes, urgent urination, bladder pain, altrd mental conciousness.. and all this ws true to me.. i figured out tht its seldom for me to feel back pain, thts because kidney doesnt have sufficient nerves for us to feel so usually the pain cums frm the bladder or the surrounding area in it.. muscles around kidney does so pain also cn be felt.. if nt cured or detected urgently, my cause blood poisoning(means tht it will affct all systems bcoz of waste tht were nt removed) or kidney failure(means tht kidney will no longer function-and end of u lah) bcoz kid ney is v imprtant, hs mny functions and is connected with heart functions..

2mr, i will urge my mom, my medicines were nearly finishd and i reali want to knw wht my disease is and if cn i be cured or not? pls. pray for me...