tada! pOst for today!! ytd night ws trrible!! gt war on our family lah!.. strted wif mom and dad.. saw dad slapped mOm right b4 my eyes! and obviously thy saw me watching lah! i thought to myself (wht the heck ws going on?) bcoz juz washed my face, and my pimples wont go away, i knw.. thn thy were shouting at each othr.. i ws staring at thm, i dunno bt i wnted to cry lah, go to bed thn cried onto my pillow.. thn suddenly, bcum more violent lah, omg thy were smacking each othr!!! thn i and my sis wnt to hold thm bck both! thn suddenly my dad gone wild! bcoz he's drunk lah, and my mOm ws crying.. i dunno bt, my dad wans to go out wif his fellow housemates bt my mom wont allow,, bcoz he got a family lah! ltr thn saw him lurking wif a prostitute! wl! haha!! bt thn the happening nt funny lah, juz tht i dun wan rmb it as a nightmare..

thn i said to my fathr " go on lah, nvm! (have fun!) sth like tht..haha!! thn my sistr opposed me, "no, he can't! thn atm is wif him!" (the atm is the only wealth we have.. gt earnings frm both mom and dad) if it is wif him thn of course will spend lah till left cents! thn my fathr ws forceful, he said to us " don't ever join us ah!!" sth like tht (bt ofcourse in our language lah)hehe, thn i ws crying lah, i ws like (ok fine!) " i cnt stand it!" thn walk out of the roOm!.. went to the kitchn.. thn gt hear sum "bang" noises in our rum.. mybe thy all strted to rumble! i ws there drinking water.. sumore my stomache ws achng tht tym..haii.. awhile later my sis joined me, she also ws crying.. she said she wants to go home..-philippines lah, i also toO ws thinking tht.. well, 've experienced life in the city and wif the family,, i think its worst thn whn we were in the town! thn our uncle stopped the quarrel in our rum.. thn my fathr kept silent..went to our bed, thn aftr tht whn uncle ws gone, it all strted all ovr agen..haii.. talked, blah, blah, this tym no smacking.. juz arguing.. cried cried.. thn my fathr said, tmr we go buy plane ticket! were going home!!! bcoz he cnt stand us!! he's dissapointed at us?! he's not happy wif us! thn ws like, "wht ws my hardwork all for?!" whn he's nt evn happy tht im doing well, am trying my best, to be a goOd daughter! yah, ive nv experienced having a fathr all those past yrs since i ws born!! bt if having a fathr like him, omg! its better to hv none! well, am saying this bcoz am angry at him..he strted all this fuzz..! ahhhh!! blah blahed till early morning..

today, were at sum of a cold war.. nv speak to him, nor answer him, or evn look at him! ahhhh!! reali am at rage lah..my sistr also.. am having a cool off for now.. am thinking, "what a christmas!!!!" nv had a christmas like this!! this is the worst!! y all end up in war!! haii.. if only am in the town,, weee!! happy going out wif friends till night! busy decorating our house!! putting chrstmas lights in our garden!! lighting up firecrackers!! going house to house wif friends singing carols!! eating delicious food made by grandma!! going to church at night wif my sis grandma and cousins!!, meeting h.i.m.!!! receiving gifts!! watching firecrackers tgt!! haii.. wht a christmas, ive evr dreamed of! bt now, wt the~? cnt feel it lah!!!

so yah chnged blogskin.. so tht evn chrstmas is cuming, cn also feel a lil bit, the sense of having chrstmas each year,, rmbering evrything tht is happening during the season..! today cn only visualize lah,, i want to go home this chrstmas..bt its impossible..if only santa cn hear me, i only wish for a glow this chrstmas.. my 2nd chrstmas wif my whole family! please mke it a happy one!!.. =')