*sigh.. juz wOke up frm a vry lOng sleep.. felt dizzy leh and also felt like throwing up,, i dunno why, my stomach wont digest the foOd.. myb the hole is getting bigger lah,, mst check up doctor soOn..haiiixx..

this mOrnin' i ws nt in the mOod to talk so listn to music lah.. aftrwrds gt CCA so went to band rum, wif yu zeng thy all.. thn sit accordin to sectiOns thn listn to the teachr talkin abt cca amrks,, oh my god! wht an achievmnt! i gt 1 CCA pOint! haha~ well dOne jOyce! thn nxt gt to choOse who will perfOrm in the lunch-time cOncert? i dunno.. thn hei mun chOose me! ahhh!! die alrdy.. also hOngmeng ws chosen lah,, i thot i onli, im saved! haha~ bt nvm,, i'll try to dO my best as wht tchr said! ^^ thn nxt gt recess saw carla.. yarh, were talkin abt,, her part-time jOb.. at starbucks cOffee.. yah i admire her, she cn work.. she hve the spirit! while i,, dun hav,, wif my health.. i dun think i cn work,, gt lOts of fun talkin' bck thn.. ^^

thn.. nxt hav check pprs and see the EOY results.. evryone ws excited lah,, i also,,, my heart so fast beat sia.. haha~ frst ppr ws geOgrphy.. i passed,, if i rmb i gt 74/100 satisfied lar, din evn chckd the ppr, haha! bOred.. nxt ws histOry i passed also,, ok. 89/100.. nxt gt maths,, ahm.. v happi liao i passed!! whew! thot ill fail.. gt 59/80? yah.. ahrm.. myb no more A maths for me..am fine wif tht,, nxt ppr ws science, also passed gt 85/100 if i rmb,, ahrm.. nt satisfied wif the ppr lah,, sumthing is wrong,, i shud get lower thn tht..bcOz i rmb,, i answrd all 4 quez. thn all 4 quez gt check mah,, i wndr if thy include the last one, i nv countd.. no tym alrdy whn i juz realized.. haiixx.. i din complain 2 the tchr lah,, she said its better to write a nOte to the subj. teachr.. ill try.. i shud get 75/100 nt included the 10 marks at the last page.. well, nxt ppr ws hOme ecOns..passed! juz fine gt 70 and 1/2 over 100.. v troublesome leh, why put 1/2 mark? gt hard tym counting over tht..

and one ppr i nvr mentiOned ws english.. bcOz im v dissapointd.. nt onli me la, bt also my othr classm8s.. it ws juz freaking wrOng lah,, i thOt the test ws nt tht damn hard.. bt i nvr knew gt so mny mistakes tht ive mde,, a pile of zerOs sum mOre.. haiixx.. i gt 27/50 for ppr 2.. the ppr 1, i dunno,, thy din let us see.. yah, am v wOrried lah,, dun wanna go bck NA.. T_T bcOz dun wanna graduate 19! its sO late alrdy 4 my age.. haiiss..

furthermore, we were selected for the mOdular day.. the freakin' guessing game,, yah my idiOtic idea! (cn see put sum wrds nvr used b4) [bcOz am nt reali ok for tis day..] we were shocked lar, me, mOn, mirr, and mel.. thy all.. hOw cOme it ws chosen? its bOring in the first place?? yah we put detailed descriptiOn to let the tchrs undrstnd bt tht doesnt mean, it wud be fun or sumthing like,, people wud enjoy the game?.. i dunnO abt tht.. bt am v stupid enuf to suggest such game!!! arrr!! its juz bcOz am thinking of the budget tht tym.. it shud onli cOst 25 dols. nth more nth less.. thn i thought of the game it cud finally work out wif such a small budget.. one problm tht shud be solvd by team work..yah we voted and thy decided to choose my idea.. i din knw,,, tht thy wudnt like it in the end,, my fcuking stupid idea!.. i dunno wht to do lar,, we ended up cOmplainin to ms. sun,, "were nt interested at all in the first place" mirr said.. mirr ws the only one arguing wif miss sun.. bcOz i gt nth to say.. its all my fault.. i felt small..also mOn and mel kept silent.. miss sun said tht, y did we suggest such game if we wont do it in the end? thn mirr rplied.. bcOz its compulsory and so on.. juz cudnt find the right reason.. and i also gt the feeling tht we did a mistake..

frstly, we planned the activity by grup,, meaning, all the grup mmbers agreed to the game thn submitted it.. thn whn ms. sun announcd tht our grup ws chosen for tht modular day,, evryone ws shocked.. yarh including me! yah, my shOck ws like im freaking happy u knw! omg! i cnt believe it! i thOt it wud be boring, bt the teachrs tOlerated it.. bt my friends were shocked on the othr way,, nt feeling the same as me.. i think,, bcOz of their reactiOns.. it seemed like i put thm in trOuble, knwng tht we were chosen,, and the fact tht i ws the one who suggested the game.. yarh, its boring i knw i also felt tht.. i also agreed to the cOmplaining..to back-out,, knwing tht there will be no future for us if we shud handle the game.. its juz freakin boring.. bt whn miss sun said this: "u knw wht,, u were the only group tht i awarded a grde of A for the CME, thn nw u'll cOme telling me tht u r nt going to do it. I am v dissapointed" her sentnce goes like tht.. thn i felt like quite ashamed of myself lah.. yah she's right, we were the one who suggested the game, knwing tht we cn do it,, bt we juz dont want to.. she trusted us, and i will hate myself if tht trust cme into waste.. i want to apologize to her lah,, moreover she's quite stressed wif 2e3.. yarh, fun class is always nOisy.. i feel sorry for her.. i knw i dissapointed her!! bt if my friends doesnt like to work it out.. thn wht cn i do?.. it will nvr work out without teamwork... i dont knw wht to do lah.. am tired already..

the next thing is tht whn i stepped out of the classrum, i saw carla,, she hugged me and cried on my shoulders.. i ws shocked lar,, din knw wht to say.. she ws talkin abt things.. she did b4 the exam.. i knw she worked hard,, she said tht she din evn hav enuf sleep juz to pass the subjs.. bt all juz nt wOrth it.. u knw sumtyms am also like tht.. its like all ur effort cum into waste! juz like the freaking mOdular day thing.. sumtyms juz wanna cry bt try nt to.. bcOz, i might dehydrate myself,, my bOdy is toO concentrated already to cry.. i ws hurt lah, the tym she hugged me tight crying,, i felt the pain.. i ws trying to be strong,, bcOz i might end up dying wif the sorrow.. my mOod changed.. it ws nt right at all.. frstly, we were happy bck thn talkin abt things whn we were at the canteen..thn nt lOng b4,, i saw her crying.. thts juz toO unfair! thn i gt severe headache lah,, cudnt evn accompany xinhui to bugis.. whn i walked hOme i felt heavy,, i reached hOme dumped myself in my bed.. thinking all thOse things will suddenly fade away.. and thn whn i wOke up! wahlaO! i prefer to sleep agen, rather thn to suffer in reality.. oh yah, am sleeping by nw.. gudbye sorrows.. atleast i let it out..